hmm.. i played truancy todae.. lolx.. not truancy lah.. it's jus tt im not sick.. but i did not go to sch either.. hmm.. how to explain..
rmb my last entry i said abt the masturbation thingy?? i realli regret telling my father.. i expect him to act lyk normal father and comfort me.. afterall.. im the one hus got hurt ryt?? but little did i noe tt he was not normal at all.. he screamed n shout at me n all kinds of hurtful words came out of his mouth.. saying tt im so useless.. im not fit to achieve my ambition.. blah blah blah.. im already got hurt.. now he's hurting me more.. im very disappointed in him.. n i cried.. i even told my mother tt im not going to tell him anymore things.. all he will do is hurt me more only.. so wads the point.. i tink ive lost my trust in him liao.. haiz..
then my mother told me smth surprising.. she said tt she suspect my father of suffering frm depression.. she even ask him to see doc.. but u noe how stubborn my father is.. haiz.. then i told her tt she's not the only one suspecting.. me n my auntie suspected long long ago.. jus tt none of us dare to tell him.. then my mother talked to my father.. she told him tt he shld comfort n teach me how to do in the future instead of scolding me.. he rebuked tt he has taught me b4.. jus tt i forgot.. wah liao.. im a gal leh.. summore i was so shocked at tt point of time.. the first i will do is of cuz turn away lah.. i where got still go n tink abt telling pple arnd me or go down to the bus driver n tell him.. all i wanna do at tt point of tym is avoid him already.. grr.. then my mother told my father tt he shld go n see doc.. but then he's simply toooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooo STUBBORN!!!!!!!!!!!!! damn.. y did i haf a father lyk him??? but then.. i;ve already got no feelings for him anymore.. i dun even care wad he say abt me anymore..
todae woke up.. my eyes are still swollen.. cant go sch.. tt's y i stayed at home..
cum to tink abt it.. i find tt my biggest enemy is buses.. i tink i got "touched" for abt 2 tyms liao.. then once when going home frm sch.. i saw a ah peh scratching his penis.. then now i saw sumone masturbating.. haiz.. mabbe i shld restrain frm taking bus anymore.. buses now seem so scarieee to me..
