whoopie~~~
finished my o lvl chinese exam..
finally...
hahah.. actually..
o lvl quite fun..
got sticker to paste summore..
n it's lyk THAT table belongs to u!!!!


did not go out in the end with jiali, yuting n lizhen..
my mother was sick..
hmmmmmmmmm...


just nw i tried to test my mother..
i told her tt i wan to go to work tml..
so as to buy bikini..
i was waiting for a lecture on the amount of exposure i'll get wearing a bikini..
but surprisingly..
she did not scold me..
instead she told me of the times tt i can go for work..
woooo-hooooo~~~


anyway.. listen to "all i want for christmas is you" by my chemical romance..
quite nice.. so sweet.. hahahaha..


"was i out of my head..
was i out of my mind..
how could i ever been so blind..
i was waiting for an indication..
it was hard to find.."

i tink tt i'm really healed..
i dun even cry for him nw..
it's lyk just so naturally..
n suddenly..
tt u dun feel anything towards things tt he did or did not do..
just lyk wad lizhen had say..
we both feel sorry for the new girl..
ok.. i shall not be too bad towards pple..


suddenly.. i just grown stronger..
n i've also realised the most important thing for me now..
yeah.. o lvls..


yepx yepx..
he's just sumone hu visited my beach once..
made a deep imprint on the sand..
but nw the waves had washed it clear..


just ran thru the whole chi dict..
the best txtbk for chi.. lol..
yeah.. im studying a dict for chi o lvl..
im so pro....


sorry pple if i take a very long time to reply ur msgs sumtimes..
cuz nw i prefer to place my hp far far away frm me..
lolollololol..


anyway.. new *songs*..
"Scar" by Papa Roach.. (nice!!!)
"We Believe" by Good Charlotte.. (not bad)
"Let Me Go" by Three Doors Down.. (nice!!)









"You love me but you don't know who I am.. So let me go.."

just returned frm a wedding dinner..
my relative smth smth..
damn grand lah....


he is an army officer..
so got 10 sword bearers holding their swords n built a bridge for them to pass thru..
then even recorded down their whole wedding ceremony..
then they still come in on the buggy car..
so damn nice lah...
but then hoh..
their choice of song is lyk...
"all out of love" by air supply..
"without you" by mariah carey..
where got pple play sad song on wedding dinner one????


but nvtheless.. it's so grand...
nxt time i shall haf a nice wedding too..
preferably at the esplanade..
i'll take my wedding pics at the esplanade too..
then my wedding theme song will be "from this moment on"..
hahahah..
i'll make my wedding a very informal one..
every guest will be given a shit hat..
since i lyk shit so much..
when taking pic..
they hafta act cute..
then they will receive an elmo to take home..
wahahahahhaa..
and together we will sing elmo song..


woo-hoo!!!!!!
i lurve my wedding..
will be damn memorable..
hahahahahahahah..


dumbass lizhen..
she went to buy her bikini today loh..
nv wait for me... wah wah wha..
she bot my Dior2Addict also...
grrrrrrrr...


anyway.. i tink i look lyk a street directory..
everyone lyks to ask me for street directions i dunno y..
hmmmm.. mabbe i look too square??
then i will look lyk mr ng????
wah............

yay!!!!!
jason giving me his little hamster baby!!!
so cute!!!!!
thx thx thx cunning jason.. lololol..


ltr at nite going to wedding dinner..
it's been a long time since i go to a dinner..
shall be a feast tonite..
hmm.. gaining a few kilos is not a problem..
hahahahahah..


one mnth b4 jason can gimme..
haiz.. hols so sian.......
nvm.. it's worth the wait!!!!!!


hamster hamster here i come~~~

shldnt haf gone sch today...
tt dumbass yixuan..
told me to go sch for picnic..
i brought 6 pieces of bread ok?????
then i found out tt she nv cum...............


sch was BORING!!!
whole day do 2 chi paper only..
the rest of the time i was playing dai dee wid the 4e3 guys..
i keep winning loh..
they wanted to bet with me then the loser had to strip..
but in the end is they lose..
dumbasssssssss.....


aft sch went orchard wid lizhen..
dunnp wads happening today..
there's so many JC students in orchard..
we went to eat pastamania.....
yum yum~~


then walked arnd to look at bikinis again..
in the end..
2 shuai ge n jasmine came to meet us..
the 2 shuai ges r isaac n hanif..
went esplanade wid them..


omigawd..
today esplanade is so full of activities..
got alot of performance..
got one paris band played the saxophone families..
they r so funny.. keep interacting with the audiences..
then suddenly another member will appear out of nowhere..
if not they will suddenly include an audience in n make stupid actions with them..
so cute laaaaaaa...


nxt fri going again..
me n lizhen set liao!!!!!


then we went home..
isaac n hanif damn funny..
hanif keep pinching isaac's neh neh..
i wonder if it drops off.. lolololol..


i still love my Dior2Addict!!!!!!!!!!!!!

i guess tt when a person is down..
everything arnd him or her seems so outta place..


i cld even earn a scolding when i present my parents wid a form to sign..
got an standing ovation frm my father for my results..
cld not even blog.. dumbass bill gates..
forgot to bringa new bottle of shampoo..
had to run all the way to my room in towels..


how unlucky can i get?????


but then..
at the end of every storm is a rainbow..
i truly blif in this..
cuz.......


i've got my bottle of Dior2Addict!!!!!!!!!


whoopie!!!!!!!!


im so damn happy...
thx to my auntie..
she's so cute..
just b4 i take my nap..
she called n ask me wads the brand of the perfume tt i wan..


then when i woke up..
she told me tt she nv buy..
i was lyk so disappointed..
then i saw it...........
on the table in the living rm..
i screamed laaaaaaaaaa..


Dior2Addict Dior2Addict Dior2Addict Dior2Addict Dior2Addict!!!!


tml going sch to picnic wid yixuan..



lolololol..

he's got a gf.....
hmmmm..
im kinda happy for him....
hope he really find his happiness..


today went tuition..
was in a gd mood..
so did most of the qn correct..
i tink i do things according mood..


then prepared..
bathed..
used my new strawberry body foam!!!
i smelled lyk strawberry once again!
then went down to meet jiali..
but i rmb i havent spray perfume..
so went up to spray perfume..
then went down..
jiali say she smelled my perfume..
n rmb she wan to spray impulse..
so we went up to spray again..


then we took 143 to orchard..
had a hard time communicating with yuting..
i had to sound as if they keep changing place..
in the end they told jiali they at isetan..
jiali tot is the shaw isetan..
so had no choice but to stop at far east there..


then we walked all the way back to taka..
there.. we celebrated jiali's birthday!!!
we asked her to open the present..
it's the precious moment crystal ball tt i rmbed tt she wanted..
n we made her tell us which one she lyk w/o letting her noe tt it's her present..
genius huh? lololol..
then we were waiting her to cry..
but tt heartless pig..
refused to drop any tears of joy!!!!!!!
not fun!
then it's fun time...
i spread cream on her face....
tt's lyk bcuming a tradition..


then we went to far east...
walked awhile..
decided to take neo prints..
the queue was lyk damn long...
in the end finally our turn..
it's lyk one of us is surely out of the pic..
hard to take all 4...


then yuting had to leave...
we went pac plaza..
nth to see.. boring..


then we went all the way to paragon plaza cuz i nid to go toilet..
yah yah.. toilet..
i lurve paragon toilet..!!!!!
jiali n lizhen nv go there b4...
nw they;ve fallen in love with the toilet too!!!!
then we shopped in paragon..
while waiting for kian kai n shanling to meet us..
we saw them just nw..
so cute..


saw a halter top in topshop..
damn nice.. $19..
aft much consideration decided to buy it..


then went heeren..
jiali bot her 37 degree pencil box..
then we walked to ps..
along the way..
went to og toilet..
hmm not bad.. but paragon beta..
lolololol..


went to ps's flash n splash..
i tink....
bot a ripcurl slippers at $21.90..
n a roxy pencil box at $12.90..
wah.. i spent so much today..
im having a shopping spree today.. lol..


eat ljs.. n went home...


found out shan ling is quite a nice gal..
very cute..... lolololol..














anyway..














HAPPY HAPPY HAPPY HAPPY SWEET SIXTEEN BIRTHDAY TO CHEN JIALI, OUR FUTURE TAIWAN FEMALE PRESIDENT!!!!


anyway.. she wans me to tell all of u..

"thx for all tt u've done.. n im really touched.."
=D

____

____ ____
God Bless
____ U! ____



____


The 4 most important words in my life~~
-Grace
-Mercy
-Love
-Forgiveness


i cant ever imagine wad i'll be w/o these 4 words in my life..
they shape my characters in life..
my attitude towards pple..














to love some one is to set him free.. if he belongs to u.. he will return..


to stead will bring 2 person closer as he will regard u as part of him..


i wan a man hu is willing to wait 4 me cuz his love is strong enuff to overcome time.. nt sum1 hu wans to start nw juz cuz he's leaving soon..


y do i keep asking pple for advices to deal with my relationship problems? i shld follow my heart instead..


if u really love a person.. the feeling will nv decrease..


chatting with him use to bring me pleasure.. now it's more of a torture..


ur the magic of my life..


there's no winner in the game of love.. once u let ur heart fall. u've lost..


i've nv tot it wld be so hard to forget u..














God will never give you the man of your life until you are happy with Him..


i shall concentrate on tt frm nw on..














mama.. im so afraid to slp...~~~

oooh.. finally got my phone working again..
hahahaha.. i've changed my number..
pls get frm me myself..


i dun lyk hi-card..
hmm.. i've to pay half of it myself..
summore it's lyk constantly telling u ur balance..
lyk u owe the loanshark money lyk tt..
sian..........


today was my first lesson wid my cousin..
he's such a headache..
he saw two numbers in the question..
then he'll be lyk.. "orh.. this one times this one ryt?"
then i say no..
then he will.." this one divide by this one ryt?"
no..
"then this one plus this one lah..?"
no..
"orh.. i noe le.. this one minus this.."
er... ok.... fine..


then i treated them to eat ice cream..
im such a nice tcher.. lololol..


ooh-hoo.. planned dance camp wid jiali..
amazing race gonne be so fun..
at least to me.. hahahahah...
had alot of fun while planning..
hahahahaha..


b;ah blah blah..
monday going out!!! yay!!!!


nth much today..
so.. tatats!!!

it just take some time..
little girl.. ur in the middle of the ride..
everything everything will be just fine..
everything everything will be alryt alryt..


this song serves as an encouragement for me..
i shall truly truly truly forget him some day!!!!


but there's always smth tt stops me..
lyk i was seeing jiali's friendster account..
n i came across him..
oh gosh.. he uploaded pics..
n tt pic look damn nice laaaaaaarrr..


grrrrrr... wadever..


tml.. is a very.. very.. very.. very.. very bbbbbiiiiiiiiiiiiiggggggggggg day..
it will be a historic moment..
when I, Ong Seow Hui, is gonna be a tuition teacher!!!!
i will be teaching maths to my cousin..
earning $40 every month..


but.. but..


i dun even noe wad pri level is he..


dumbass!!!!!!!!


i was dreaming of being a very gd teacher..
anyway.. i lyk him best among my cousins!!!
i shall buy some thing for him as an encouragement n as a gift on our first day of tuition..
but first.... wad pri level is he in??????


dumbass.....


it's coming to 2 o'clock..
hmm.. shld i go out..
shld i not?
shld i? shld i not? shld i? shld i not?


haiyer.. so frustrating..
my parents asked me to come home n look aft my ah gong..
but he keeps running out of house to go to the void deck n tok to his frens..
n im stuck at home in the end!!!
then those dumbass frens i've got..
haaa.. dumbass frens..
actually tempted me deliberately to make me go out..
oh my gosh.. how can they treat me lyk tt???
to tink i treat them so gd.. *sob sob*
but they tempted me!!!!!


arh.. rubbish!


i shall buy a hi-card one of these days..
then i can use my phone again..
ahahahaha...













I believe that time heals all wounds..
But how long?

u noe i cant smile without u!!!
-colgate advert



so cute!!!!!



hahahaha..
ok.. basically.. im crazy today..
i've had nth beta to do so i stayed at home..
i promised myself to stay at home..
n i did!!! *claps*



blah blah blah..
jiali said tt she;s so touched wid my speech..
hey.. i nv touch u...
dun malign me!!!!


blah blah blah...


pple keep tinking tt having a bf or gf is cool..
well.. i dun tink so..
at least we dun haf to face the probs tt couples do face..
phew~~~~ just the tot of it scares me..
hahahaha.. i tink i shall be destined to be single..

anyway.. singlehood rules!!!!


tml shall be another window shopping day!!!
yayayay!!! more clothes trying..
more bonding...
n we gonna make the shop assistant cry.. hahahaha..


You know I can't smile without you!!!!!

phew~~~~~
finally.. one last paper to go..
one last dumbass-extra-nth-to-do-waste-paper-waste-resources-come-out-for-fun-dunno-wad-they-wan-actually-just-4-dumb-options-for-u-to-choose-frm mcq paper..


lolx..


ok.. fine..
i shall study real hard for tt dumbass paper..


yay!!!
finally changed my blogskin..
got sick of the heart design too..
came across this colourful n a nice nice song..
heheheheheh..


was so sick today...
i keep sneezing n sneezing away..
ewwwwwwww..
i cant really concentrate also..
cant tink at all..
all the formulas i've studied has gone to waste..
i decided to give up n let my nose decide my future..
wadever~~~
it was until tt last 15 min did i recover..
n i tried to save wadever tt can be saved..


but i guess.. hmmm....


went out wid lizhen n jiali..
altho i had not a single cent in my pocket..
we went to suntec..
went window shopping..
n tried on every clothes tt we lay our eyes on..
actually.. window shopping feels gd too..
lolololol..


tml no sch!!! yay!!!!!!
they all keep tempting me to go out..
no.. im gonna "ren"!!!
im gonna stuck at home these few days..
then go out n craze on monday..


oh yah.. toking abt tt..
it's jiali's burfday on monday..
so it;s part of her celebration too!!!


Happy Early Birthday!!!


my turn to give a speech..


ahem*


Dear Jiali,
my dearest Jia Jia, 16 loh!! mai siao siao arh!! (sound familiar?? u told me tt on my burfday too.. hahaha..) Sweet Sixteen!!! New phase of life, new way of tinking, new image, etc.. But must keep the old friends.. no throwing!!!! thx for all the times just sitting beside me n hearing my probs.. thx for giving me the advices.. thx for comforting me.. thx for encouraging me.. aiyah.. wadever.. anyway.. im a gd gd christian.. im a gd gd citizen too.. so must only cross the road when the green man lights up.. cannot dash across the road.. cannot throw wrappers on bus.. must learn frm me arh.. anyway.. im older than u.. i eat more salt than u eat rice.. lolololol.. the best gingers r the old one.. you must listen to the old one.. if nt u suffer.. actually.. im not tt old lah.. just lyk 2 mnths older than u.. ok.. shhhhh~~ i'll cut my crap!!! nw must be very very very very quiet.. pls put ur ear to the screen if u cant hear anything......................................























JIALI ARH!!!!!!!!! HAPPY BIRTHDAY LAAAAAAAAAA!!!!!!









lolx.. dumbass!!!!


k lah.. my speech very long leh.. anyway.. i wun ever forget the day when we went all the way to sentosa just to see somebody.... *hint*hint*!!!!



PS: im gonna be the first woman president of singapore!!!!! whahahahaha!!!! u'll be the president of taiwan then!!! then u can come over to my istana n drink coffee.. i'll go over to ur istana to eat oyster mee sua.. hahahahahahah..


PSPS: psst~~ *kissing sounds* muacks.. i lurve u!!!!!



wid luv n hugs n sugar n sweet n sugar icing n all the sweet things under the world..
it's ur gd gd christian
-seOwhUii-'05 =D



anyway.. back to serious stuffs..
those r just for fun.. =P


thx for all the care n concern..
my ah gong's fine!!!!!
but he lost the necklace tt i gave him..
hmm.. it's alright..
as long as he's alright!!

oh gosh..
i was awoken with a shocking news..
i heard my mother talking to sumone over the phone abt my grandfather..
she said tt his reaction was suddenly very slow..
n he seems not to understand..
or process what we r trying to say to him..
he cant even rmb some things..


i started praying in my slp..
i min.. how can it be??
he's so healthy like a strong bull..
he goes walking every evening..
how can it be tt he suddenly become lyk tt???


then i came out n ask my grandfather if he knew what his name is..
then he say ya..
ok.. at least..


then my parents started to measure his blood pressure..
it's damn high..
170++..
normal shld be only arnd 110..
hey.. i learn bio..


they asked him to go n see doctor but he dun wan..
but i insisted..
even if nth happened.. also can take it as a health check up..
pls.. dun underestimate ur body..
u can say tt i force him to..
hahahahhaa..


luckily i insisted..
the doctor said tt he nearly had a stroke just nw..
luckily he was sitting..
the blood pressure is being pulled down..


nw he's in hospital for check up..
only me n my sis at home..
i took out my bible n read n read n read..
n i keep on praying..
i know tt he will be alright wid the Lord's strength..


before he went hospital..
i took down my cross necklace..
i said a prayer..
n slipped it into his pocket..
hope tt it will bring him protection.. =D














hope tt my ah gong will be alright~~

hhex.. happy ending..
altho not as beautiful as a fairytale one..
but nvtheless..
better than we r being enemified..


i was so happy today tt i kept jumping all arnd..
got $30 frm the chingay organisation as a token of appreciation..
wow.. nxt yr i shall join again..
one min of fame on tv..
free cca n cip points..
n $30!!!!
wah.. very worth it leh..
lolololol...


im suddenly so in love with "love me tender"..
it'a an old song by elvis presley..
darn sweet lah!!!!!!!...
love it!!!!!!!


pple r changing..
everyone arnd me..
i dunno if they have notice..
i suddenly realised tt im not the only one hu has changed..
for this im glad..
but the thing is the pple arnd me are getting frm bad to worse..
oh god.. pls help!!!!!1

he say i seemed sad..
do i??




but then again..




hu is he to care????





alot of things went thru my mind ytd nite..
so much tt it even scares me..
they haunt me thruout the nite..
i cant even slp peacefully..


i've been tinking alot lately..
nw im started to wonder if ryan's speaking the truth when he say tt i've got white hair..


it's lyk.. how did i end up in such a mess???


we started out as strangers..
i dun even noe his existance in sch..
till tt day i suddenly see his name in my friendster list..
then we chatted..
suddenly.. alot..
until one day he told me tt he lyk me..
i struggled alot since then..
anyway.. it's not easy moving on frm a 2 yr stupid craze over a guy..


nw it's lyk the roles have changed..
im the one under mental torture nw..


anyway..
i've sent him back the msg tt he once sent me..
the msg tt i once treasured so much..
he's outta my head nw.. i hope so.......














When I look at what my life's becoming to..
I'm all about loving you~~

----------------------------------------------------------------


anyway.. on to serious stuffs..
i'm becoming a tutor.. hehh..
teaching a p4 or p3 kid..
my cousin actually..
$40 per month.. not bad huh??
subject? maths.. lol.. my lousiest subject..
but pri work should be no problem for me??
i hope so tooooooo..













What have I done?
You seem to move on easy..~~

lalalalalalala...
went imm wid my aunties n cousins today..
i wore my elmo shirt!!!
so cuteeeeeeee!!!!
lololololol..


it's lyk eating n eating n eating..
hahahahhahaha.. then we keep buying shirt..
cuz we keep seeing discount everywhere..
i bot 2 fila shirt..
\n i keep eating..
then i keep pplaying with my cousin..
then the three of us bot the same braclet together..
very nice..
n i bot a matching anklet too..


i dated my sister n my cousin on the 23rd of may..
we will be going out together wid my other frens..
to celebrate the end of exam..
n jia jia's bdae..
im really going to craze.. hehehehe..


listening to "love me tender" by norah jones..
it's damn sweet....


love me tender.. love me true..
all my dreams fulfilled..
oh my darling i love you..
n i always willlllllllllllll!!!!


lolx.. =D


oh yah.. btw.. saw a tank top ytd at 37 degrees..
it has the word "Queenie" on it..
damn lah.... grrrrrr..
i spot a tube tt's very nice also..


ryan is crazieeee...
he say tt i ask him to go tuitioon so tt he can accompany me..
oh god.. siaooooooooo..


blah blah blah..


gd luck to pple having exams..
aft tt..
as i've promised..
we'll PLAY HARD!!!!
wheeeeeeee~~~~

yay!!! can use com again thx to my sis..
she has completed her mid yr exams..
my mother decided to let her take a break..
me toooooo!!!


had geog n a maths paper today..
it was bad.. totally bad..
i studied so hard for amaths..
but the qns turned out to be rubbish..


then went to clementi with yuting n lizhen..
wanted to go watch movie..
then in the end sqw amanda waiting for her lawrence..
so i decided to wait too..
i wan to scold tt blangadeshboy for making my honey wait so long..
but in the end i changed my mind..
i min.. i can see blangadesh all arnd loh..
y must wait for him so special??


so we went to the interchange..
ran into wen xuan n asked her to help us make a decision on where to go..
while i was asking..
yuting was looking behind me n was lyk "eh...?"
then i turn arnd..
ooh.. him again!!!!
i quickly turned arnd lah..
so pai seh loh..
anyway.. he changed alot.. hahahahah..
lyk so weird.. met him thrice in just a mere 3 mnths..
but only once in lyk a period of 2 yrs!!!


then decided to go esplanade..
wah.. i cld just stay there for one whole day if no one disturbs me..
the scenery was so nice even though it;s hot..
the breeze was cooling too!!!


then we went to the library..
booked the screening rm n watch abit of billy elliot..
funny show.. but the slang was too hard to understand..


then me n lizhen went to watch the outdoor performance..
but yuting had to leave first..
the performance was great..
very nice.. the vocal was nice..


then we watched awhile the guys at the underground..
they were doing breakdancing..
coool!!!!!!!


then we went to citylink n get cup noodle n mee siam frm the 7-11..
then we sit in the midst of citylink n eat..
everyone was staring at us..
lolololol.. we r artistic!!!!!!!


i realised tt whenever i go out wid lizhen..
there;s sure to be a big theme..
on mother's day.. it was "Mother"!!!
on tues.. it was "Study"!!!
today.. it was "Artistic"!!!


lolololol..














Love me tender, love me sweet..
Never let me go..
You have made my life complete..
And I love you so..........................................












"It's all about YOU!!!!!"

heeexx..
under pressure nw as i typed..
im not supposed to online..
but heck..
nth to do either..


had bio prac on tuesday..
was so damn boring lah..
i started "cooking" my seed soup wid jellyfish..
lalalalalala..


ytd had ss n emaths paper 1..
i tot tt the emaths paper 1 was rather easy..
hahahahahhaa..
it's lyk jus simply common sense n some formula..


today had lit paper n science prac..
im so damn fed up wid chem prac..
i was heating the solution n it popped n burn my hand..
ggggrrrrrrr..
i very fed up n decided not to do anymore..
then got one is ask u to add some solution till it's alkaline..
u have the solution wid litmus paper..
but i dunno which colour to use..
so i just assumed tt it's alkaline when a change happened..
wadever laaaaaaaa..
but luckily i clever..
behind got the chem notes..
n i just deduced the results frm there..
phy prac was easy..


i wonder if there's any side effects frm the burning..


aargh.. i shld have just listened to patricia n do the heating myself during lessons..
nw i hate heating..


wah.. i feel lyk im a totally changed person..
dunno y.. heck.. wadever..














it's lyk.. just one "yes" n i wld have agreed..
but u decided to gif up before u even try..
how am i ever going to feel secure wid u..
if u just give up?
just one "yes".. just an assurance.. just a security..
tt's all i nid..
but u cant gimme..
wad more can i ask for?













i tried to go on lyk i never knew you.. im awake but my world is half asleep.. i pray for this heart to be unbroken.. but without you all im going to be is.. incomplete..........

this wld be my third time writing this blog post..
my com keeps failing me..
wadever!!!


had eng n chi papers for the last 2 days..
it was ok i guess..


im quite happy today..
cuz i finally realised smth..
i told him tt i dun wan to watch movie alrdy..
so he asked me y..
i told him to concentrate on his studies n work..
i dun wan to bother him..
guess wads his reply..
"oh.. ok.. sorry abt tt.."
lyk wth..
at least he cld haf tell me tt im not botherling him..
he did not even stop me frm cancelling the thing or smth..
tt's when i realised how worthless i am in his eyes..
n how i've been loving him in vain..


i suddenly tot of "collide" by howie day..
"even the best fall down sometimes.."
i guess life isnt a breeze..
i've gotta accept defeat sometimes..
face it bravely.. seowhui..
u can do it! =D


isaac told me smth tt i tot was quite true..
he say tt god will only send u someone when u r happy wid god..
i guess he's right..
yepx..
so now i can just concentrate on fulfilling my promise wid god..
tt is.. no bf until aft my o lvl..
mabbe even longer..
i dunno......
depends.. until the day tt im happy wid god..


anyway.. my phone line has been terminated..
so i'll not be using tt line anymore..


i can sense new hp coming my way!!!!


but i still lyk my 3100..
it's full of memories n memories n memories..
lololololol..


it's mothers' day tis sunday..
i havent buy anything for my mother yet..
gonna ask my sister n see whether she wans to go out tml to shop for smth..


anyway.. i've got a new name..
im ah seow.. lolol..
gary's ah soh..
amanda n lizhen are ah li (ali)..
but i prefer to call lizhen ah wee..
nicer lah..
n amanda mandy!!


tml's 2.4km run..
hope i can really pass this time!!!!
gonna run wid maimunah n we'll encourage each other!!
go mai.. go mai!!!
go seowhui.. go seowhui!!!


anyway.. just got news today tt TDE will be perfoming in esplanade during national day..
yay!!!!! finally got the chance to fulfil my dream!!!
hehe!!!




It's all about you.........??
It's nothing more about you..~~~

i tink this song is so perfect.......
for a broken hearted..









Goin' Crazy
Natalie
--------------
Ever since the day you went away
And left me lonely and cold
My life just hasn't been the same
Oh baby no
When I looked into your eyes
The moment that I let you go I just broke down (down)

Baby if I ever get the chance to be with you again I would sacrifice
'Cause the feelin that I feel within no other man
Would ever make me feel so right
It's nice to smile when I get your phone call at night
But I'd rather have you here with me
Right next to me
And I miss the way you hold me tight

I've got to let you know I feel so weak without your touch
I never thought that I could ever love a man so much
I've gotta let you know I think that we are destiny
For you I'd cross the world for you
I'd do anything

That's right baby
I'm goin' crazy
I need to be your lady
I've been thinking lately
That you and me, yes we can make it
Just ride with me, roll with me
I'm in love with you (baby)

That's right baby
Im goin' crazy
I need to be your lady
I've been thinking lately
That you and me, yes we can make it
Just ride with me, roll with me
I'm in love with you (baby)

Break it down now I'll tell you what I feel
From the moment that I met you it's been so damn real
My heart seems to skip another beat every time we speak
Can't believe I feel so weak
Tell me that you really need me
And you want me
And you miss me
And you love me
I'm your lady
I'll be around waiting for you
Put it down be the woman for you

I'm falling so deep for you
Crazy over you I'm calling
Callin' out to you
What am I gonna do?
It's true no frontin'
It's you ain't no other
I can no longer go on without you
I'll just break down (down)

I've got to let you know I feel so weak without your touch
I never thought that I could ever love a man so much
I've gotta let you know I think that we are destiny
For you I'd cross the world for you
I'd do anything

That's right baby
I'm goin' crazy
I need to be your lady
I've been thinking lately
That you and me, yes we can make it
Just ride with me, roll with me
I'm in love with you (baby)

That's right baby
I'm goin' crazy
I need to be your lady
I've been thinking lately
That you and me, yes we can make it
Just ride with me, roll with me
I'm in love with you (baby)

ooo, crazy,(ooo)
lady (ooo)
lately (ooo)
Baby

I gotta let you know I feel so weak without your touch
I never know that I could ever love a man so much
I gotta let you know I think that we are destiny
For you I'll cross the world
For you I'll do anything

That's right baby
I'm going crazy
I need to be your lady
I've been thinking lately
That you and me
Yes we can make it
Just ride with me and roll with me
I'm in love with you baby
------------------------------


yoz........
had a great night studying yesterday..
cuz i did 3 papers..
phy, maths and eng!!!
i did accomplished smth..
and i bathed with cooling water..
tt really wakes me up..
lolololol..


went to sch n first thing is ask amanda to confiscate my phone..
i dunno y but the sight of it irks me nw..
lolololol..
bifen say tt im a sm..
SM=Sex Maniac..
and she feels so sorry for my phone..


had ss for the first period..
i copied down all the points..
can u blif it??
oh god..
n i actually did the question wid a long answer..
lololol..
so untypically me..
i guess it's the post-no-hp-syndrome..
it's a gd syndrome.. lol..


then it's maths..
i did my papers luckily..
if not i'll be sitting in the hot sun..
during the whole maths period..
i was writing out the lyrics of "it's all about you" on my foolscap..
i dunno y but i really love tt song..
it's so darn sweet lah!!!!


then it's phy..
i did my papers too..
just tt sum qn dunno how to do..


then it's recess..
i force amanda to eat the western food wid me!!
lololol..


then bio passed peacefully..
but i got 5/20 for my genetic test..
lololol..


then is english..
woah.. ms chng pms..
i was teaching yuting chi n she asked me to stop toking..
fine laaaaaaaaaaa....


chi was damn sian lah..
listening compre again..
me n amanda arrived late cuz we went toilet..
then i saw the tables were separated..
n the guys keep calling my name..
then yixuan told me it's listening compre..
at first i just anyhow shade the circles..
cuz i wasnt paying attention..
then in the end i realised tt there were alot more students in the rm..
oooooooh.. so it was a listening compre for mid year exam..
luckily i realised it..
so i quickly do all over..


then end sch..
got oral ltr..
so sian..
ask us to gather at 2.45..
in the end only got it at arnd 4+..


my examiner was mdm ji!!!!!
thank god!!!
i can communicate with her easier..
hahahahaha..
she started off by asking me why i wasnt earlier..
if not she can ask me to go down n buy drink for her..
i was lyk "huh?"


then oral was fine..
waited for jiali n lizhen while doing my hw..
did another maths paper..
wid alot of skipped qns.. =P


weilong treated me cornetto ice cream..
n i taught chrestella differentiation..


then we went home..


guess wad i found out surprisingly???
i realised my weight had gone down 3kg..
frm the former 52kg to the current 49kg..
yay!!!!!!!!!


just read amanda's blog..
she so sweet..
she wrote a post just for me..
cuz i told her tt she's too sensitive to pple tt she always feel affected by pple..
thus causing her bad mood..
so i told her whenever u cant stand smth..
or u wan to tolerate..
use my method..
cross ur index n middle finger n close ur eyes..
take a deep breath..
n say "ren!" =DD


I believe in you
I swear that forever from today
No one will ever take your place
I believe in you
And I believe our love will last always

If I could only let you know
I'll give up everything I own
For just one more day with you
There's nothingI wouldn't do
I couldn't let it slip away
If I made every sacrifice
For just one more day with you
If only we could live twice..
If only we could live twice..

back to blogging again!!!
yay!!!
my parents went genting today..
i only got to noe when they sms me when i was having medical check up..
so bad.. nv bring us along..
but i guess we get allowance for this??
lolololol..
i will force money out of their pocket..

alot of things happened these few days..
today had lit n we were watching grp 1 doing their act..
but me n amanda were lying on the floor n playing wid our legs..
lololololol..
we were observing socks..
mine was a "love"ly socks..
hers was kappa one..
lolololol..
shaorong acting damn gd..
the only one tt keeps making us luff..

then aft sch had eng oral..
as usual..
tt dumbass ryan always got smth to do to me..
grrrrrrrrrr..
cant even sit in peace..

i guess i must haf been damn lucky..
cuz jus as i was going to start..
mrs chng had to go for an important meeting wid the principal..
she said tt it mite be a gd news for me..
which actually is..
then she wished me gd luck n asked me to relax..
sumtimes i feel tt she can be quite a nice lady too.. =D

i got ms chng..
during one qns.. i got stuck..
then she also got stuck at the qns tt she going to ask nxt..
then we were luffing..
oh wadever..
fake lufter.. actually..

when going home..
jiali said tt lawrence called amanda to ask abt her internal bleeding..
then she said tt i make it sound lyk a very big thing..
i dun feel gd abt it..
so i kept quiet..
i min.. im trying to show concern..
but u all tink tt im exaggerating..
fine laaaaaaaaaa...

when i was bathing..
i really felt lyk breaking down n cry...
again........
but i held back... hmmm...


hmmmmmm...

"if a person really loves another person alot.. the feeling will nv decrease.."

the person hu said this quote was the one hu proved it wrong..
hmmmmmmmmm..
i dunno hu to trust nw..

i hate going schs nowadays..
i cant even concentrate in classes..
i hafta luff along wid my frens..
show them tt im alright..
but deep down.. im damn hurt..

but as i said..
i dun lyk to open up..
jiali wans me to open up more..
but i tink i failed her..
sorry..
i tink im more comfortable wid not telling my problems out..

i just felt lyk screaming at everybody..
haiz....
wadever happened to me???

im tinking of canceling the movie thing..
i min.. he dun sound willing..
n i dun really wans it anymore..
wads the point??
wadever..
i shall not ask him anymore things..
i beta keep my phone in control..
i dun wan to msg him anymore..

i quite lyk jennifer lopez n fat joe's hold u down..
very sweet..
the background music sounds lyk fairytale..
lolololool..

"Just gimme one more day..
Gimme another night..
I need a second chance..
This time i'll get it right..
I say it one last time..
I gotta let you noe..
I've gotta change your mind..
I'll never let you go.."
New Order-Krafty!!!!