saving my goldfish memory

lalalal.. seems lyk i long time nv blog le.. dunno leh.. lyk my life is jus so normal loh.. sian.. today dunno y.. i tink pms or wad.. i jus suddenly feel very empty in class.. i feel lyk im a clown.. always entertaining pple or let them make fun of.. n i still luff along wid them.. it's not the first time i tink abt this le.. i min.. y do i hafta do all this??? i dun haf the needs to do this ryt?? i cld jus shout baq at them.. y do i still luff along??? haiz.. i feel so confused.. but cum to tink of it.. i brought smiles to pple.. whether they r my frens or not.. isnt tt my goal in life?? wad m i doing??? aarghhhhhhhhhh!!!