i dunno... having mixed feelings nw..
had ida test n its quite hard.. the went ecp to skate.. was quite happy n enjoying till my sis told me a super shocking news.. tt ishi is dead.. i dunno leh.. i dunno wad reaction shld i give.. i min.. we r only teacher-student r/s.. but he is still a person tt i noe.. n u noe all these flower-eating thoughts abt him n jokes tt i say tt he lyks me.. it's lyk.. abit.. umm.. shld i just u noe shock n accept the news.. or shld i actually feel sad? even ly they all were shocked.. n we both were saying tt it's talent wasted.. well.. if he's really troubled over hearts stuffs n committd suicide.. i noe we shld show sympathy but i cant help but u noe wan him to noe hw stupid he is.. all along.. i've always tink tt pple hu commit suicide are the stupidest pple is the world.. but i nv tot tt it wld be sumone arnd me.. normally the pple hu died arnd me shows symptoms lyk illness or etc.. but this is just shocking.. sudden news..
i still cant really accept tt he's dead.. is lyk.. we just saw him last monday.. n me n my sis n georgina were still tinkg y he so high.. n he;s trying to train us on our stage performance.. so one wld nv haf tot tt the nxt wk.. he's gone..
kind of tink tt the cause might be us.. as in.. might not be love matters.. but u noe.. he's sumone surrounded by fans everyday,.. everyone sees him n idolise him.. but we r the only ones hu didnt take photo with him aft our first lesson, didnt take photo with him aft evoke though he smiled at us.. didnt talk to him at all aft lessons.. are always hiding at the back.. n aft lesson we will just disappear quietly.. he might not be used.. dunno lah.. mixed feeling mixed feeling.. nw hw m i gng to continue having this flower-eat day anymore???
dun really noe if i can bear gng simei for dance on thurs.. wonder hu will take over n wad will be everyone's reactions? was still tinkg to join the production nxt yr n till then, we can try to get close to them.. hahah.. but.. haiz.. nw we dun even haf a photo of him.. WTF! xt n ly offered to photoshop for me.. eh.. am i supposed to thank them?
