i feel tt my blog is getting more boring each time.. cuz it's all abt my life.. not my tots.. i shld haf put more feelings here.. so lemme do one..
on monday.. i asked patricia a qn suddenly which i tink was so sudden tt it kinda shock her.. i asked her whether i was very unfeminine.. lolx.. she paused for awhile.. i tink she dunno wad to ans.. if she ans tt yes.. tt may hurt me.. but if she ans no.. then she'll be lying.. so in the end.. she said tt i was ok.. but hmm.. i dun take tt for an ans.. n i dun wanna continue asking.. so i changed topic..
actually.. w/o asking.. i also noe the ans myself.. i am VERY NOT FEMININE.. i noe tt.. it's not tt im tomboy.. but i simply tink tt im jus being myself.. it's beta than toking softly or do things gracefully tt is not myself at all.. i noe i turned alot of guys off.. but im not doing all these for them too.. i jus wanna be myself.. n if by luck.. sum guy really fell for me.. then i wld noe tt they lyk me for me.. not the "gracious" seowhui..
my mother told me too.. tt i can haf a bf aft my O's.. mabbe i sound ridculous but.. ryt now.. i dun wan any bf.. it''s either they wait until aft my O's or buhbyeeee.. i wann craze around.. spend time wid my frens.. blah blah.. build gd frenships wid them.. cuz i noe tt if i got a bf.. my time wid them will decrease.. i dun wanna reach a day when i come to this point when bf=1 but frens=0.. i wanna haf a balance wid both of them.. so i'd rather spend time wid my frens now then start commiting.. mabbe aft my O's then i'll start being a bit feminine.. abit.. i still wanna be myself..
by now.. mabbe sum of u tink tt i wun fall in luv.. but u r wrong.. i do fall in luv too.. but i set my line at admiring.. nth further.. told u i dun wanna fall in luv.. so those guy tt i lyk.. u r safe.. hahahaha.. for me.. i dun lyk to go into a relationship where it's one-sided luv.. i find it a total waste of time.. u lyk tis person.. but tis person stead wid u jus for the sake of having a gf or mabbe for fun..i only go into a relationship when im really really sure tt the feeling is mutual.. even guys tt i lyk.. so guys.. u r once again.. safe.. hahahahahah..
wow.. im ryting too much on my love perspective.. hmm.. lolx.. ok.. enuff enuff.. i gtg liao.. tata~~~
