these few days have been eventful..


monday was soccer match against bishan park..
the score was 6-0..
wow.. our team really deserves an award..!!!


then our wallets were lost on the same day..
damn..


tuesday aft sch went to police station to make a report..
spent a long time there..
so making a report wasnt fun at all..


wed was dance prac..
i realised smth n made a decision in my life..
hahahah.. quite important..
but im not going to tell u wad..


then it was soccer match again!!!
this time against riverside..
we won again wid a score of 2-1..
good job, guys!!!


feroz n daniel were injured..
feroz got this big cut on his head n blood was ooshing out..
oh my gdness..
how scared was i when he walk past me n one side of his face was completely covered wid blood..
eeeeeeww..


we also found baq our wallets on the same day..
heex..


today morning..
i was feeling so defeated when mandy told me tt she can do the "puk" sound too..
i spent the whole day tring to create another sound so as to win her again.. lol..


it goes smth lyk the crunching sound when u munch on an apple..
lolololol..


i've got this movie voucher frm my auntie..
hahah.. i can go watch free movie liao..
yay!!!!!

i hate blogger lah...
aiyah wadever..
always playing me when im feeling so low..
y do pple lyk to stress me all at the same time?????


ytd: I LOST MY WALLET!!!


today: I WENT TO MAKE A POLICE REPORT!!!


if blogger is going to ask me to sign in again..
im going to kill bill gates!!!!


mandy: our song nxt time then post..

i relly tink tt my menses is coming..
i beta prepare..
n pple.. pls tolerate wid my sudden change of temper or smth..


anyway..
i went out wid my parents n auntie to jurong point..
there's so many pple there today..
i saw a princess shirt..
but i cldnt find any queen shirt..
grrrrrrr...


walked arnd..
i keep sa jiao to my parents..
but they refused to be moved..
fine.. wadever lah..
then i went to buy an fbt shorts..
went to giordano n look arnd..
my parents n auntie were looking at clothes..
then i went to the giordano junior department..
n saw this little skirt tt's so cute..
i looked over to my mother n showed her..
pretending tt im wearing..
then she walked over n told me tt the small gal behind me was staring at me..
lolololol..
then i searched for the largest size..
amazingly.. i can wear..
i sa jiao for the last time..
n my parents bot it for me..
it's very cute..
wid a little orange cow at the front.. =D


i've got more reasons to blif tt my parents are lying to us abt the financial difficulties..


today i learnt 2 phrases frm my parents..
my father tot me this: chicken grandmother..
it mins ji po.. KPO.. direct translation is chicken grandmother..
lolololol..
then my mother taught me this: tian zhen wu ya..
it's supposed to be tian zhen wu xie..
the xie is written wid a "ya"..
tt's y she read as tian zhen wu ya..
duhz,.....
then i ask my auntie wad is she going to teach me..
she cant tink of anything..
so i just tell her to teach me the pin code of her master card.. visa card.. cash card.. atm card.. wadever card.. lol..


oh yah.. i saw a crown at chameleon..
so cute n elegant..
$18.90..
my father read it as $1890..
i was lyk -_-" *diaoZ*..
if feel lyk buying it..
no no.. i must save money!!



REN!!!!

im in a state of depression..
i feel lyk i've been made used of..
by alot of pple..
but i cldnt reject..
i nid tt strength..
to say "NO"..


bcuz of these pressures..
i just keep feeling lyk breaking down..
im stressed wid too many relationship problems..
problems which r not even mine..
it's not fair..
im just a normal human being..
y do i haf so many relationship problems..
when i cant even solve my own..


pple treat me lyk their slaves..
i noe to be the first.. u hafta be a slave..
but pls do not take me for granted..
u lyk sumbody..
tt's ur own business..
do not make use of me to create chance for u all..
or make me the nanny of ur beloved..
hello...


IM ONLY A HUMAN!!!!!!














i guess my menses is coming.... PMS!!!

i dunno y but i;ve been having a bad temper these few days..
i get stressed up easily...
aargh... wadever!!!


today in dance..
mdm ji came wid a small gal of her fren..
she's damn cute..
keep sticking to me n yuting..
lol..


aft dance..
we went jurong east to eat..
then decided to go watch the eye 10..
omg..


PLS..... DUN WATCH!!!!


it's a darn lame show..
the plot is so stupid..

there's this gal whom we tink is abit looney..
hahaha.. she keep screaming so loud..
n during scary parts..
she will hug her teddy bear so close to her..
when it's nt scariee..
she put the bear on the seat beside her n pat him twice...
er...... lololol..


i finally got the "I Will Follow Him"!!!!

ok.. i knew it..
my father can nv say no to me..
wid a little help of being cute..
heex!!


i was forced to wake up today at a sinful time..
8.00am in the lazy morning..
oh my gdness..
i cld have just dump my head back into my pillow n sleep on..
but i hafta wake up..
they threatened me wid not allowing me to go watch the performance again..
sucks!!! ok.. they dun suck..


i cldnt even bathe in peace..
my father was hollering!!!
erks... i havent even finish shitting n he came stomping into the kitchen n ask me to hurry up..
fine!~!~


then we took a taxi to a temple in paya lebar or sumwhere there..
blah blah blah.. tra la la..
we ended the "praying" session..


then we walk all the way to the bus stop at sum stupid distance away..
on the bus.. they said tt they wanted to go bugis n orchard..
n i told them tt i hafta go home by 2.30pm..
they spited me saying tt they wanna shop till very late..
hahahahahah.. they tink tt i dunno them well enuff..
if they ever shop ltr than 6pm.. i'll chop off my head..


we went bugis first to eat dim sum..
nt bad.. but crystal jade beta..
then i rmb tt i dun eat in the morning..
so i stopped n just keep drinking the pepsi..
then we went to shop..
i saw a billabong bottle in the shop..
nice.. $11.90..
but m mother dun allow me to buy..
it's nt fair..
she still owe me $30..


then we took the train to orchard..
we walked all the way at killiney's road to find a darn stupid post office..
in the end.. it was just opp orchard plaza.. grr!!!
we went all the way just to get one stupid cooler bag..
n it was so small..
me n my sis cldnt resist it anymore..
n kept on luffing at my father..


we went OG Orchard to shop..
bot alot of things..
i nv did expect my mother to go on a shopping spree wid us..
cuz she's been saying tt they r having financial difficulties..
come to tink of it..
mabbe they r lying to us..
i bot a billabong belt.. nice!!!!
a fila tshirt.. n 2 maui girls top..
my sis only bot one shirt..
hmm.. i really noe how to grab opportunities lyk this..


then we went home.. at 2.30pm..
am i glad to announce tt i dun haf to chop off my head..
or even change my name to wang xiao bu dong (Ong Seow Dunno)..
or wang xiao ben (Ong Seow Stupid)..
lolololololol..


reached home n i went bathing..
prepared to go out..
met eunice at her bus stop..
n we went church together..
waited for yuting they all..
then nadz msg me tt he cant go..
cuz of family outing..
kinda disappointed..
but nvm.. since family is more impt.. =D


we went kfc to eat..
then stood outside church waiting to go in..
we went to rite in front of the stage..
n waited for the performance to start..
finally.. the stupid dance came on..


i will follow Him.. no matter wherever He may go..
there isnt a mountain too deep..
or valley too low it can keep..
keep me away..
He is my Destiny!!!!

i love Him i love Him i love Him..
n where He goes i'll follow..
i'll follow.. i'll follow..
heheh....


all the milking cow.. n massaging..
n stirring milk actions.. it's damn funny..
the whole church was roaring wid lufter..
lololol..


then we settled down to watch the performance..
nice..!!!
everything went lyk ytd..
only today..
all the pastors couples must perform smth..
the husbands must carry their wives n they will fly them across the stage..
damn cute!!! lol..


then we went to eat..
i min me.. again..
we were encouraging carin to come dance tml..
there's sum misunderstanding..
hmm.. tml there's smth for me to do alrdy..
tt is to preach.. lololol..


then me n eunice went home together!!!!














there's this person hu spammed amanda's blog..
aargh.. childish kids again..
y cant pple grow up??
i min wads so fun abt spamming pple's blog??
lyk do u smile to urself when u tag?
or u feel satisfied when the person's angry??
wow.. u noe wad tt shows??


YOU ARE A PERVERT!!!


sumtimes.. i tink they r quite pathetic too..
their mother must have not given them any names..
or mabbe strange names lyk tt time the "u noe hu"..
cuz they jus insist on tagging things under tt "name"..
mabbe we shldnt even blame them..
those pathetic nameless kids..


u may say tt it's none of my business..
but i insist it is..
for each day tt me n amanda are frens..
her business is mine..
so u beta watch out..
u r offending 2 persons at the same time..



anyway.. God loves you!!!
me too!! n im sure amanda too!!! =D
it's time to repent!!!














I Will Follow HIM
Sister Act
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I will follow Him
Follow Him wherever He may go,
And near Him, I always will be
For nothing can keep me away,
He is my destiny.

I will follow Him,
Ever since He touched my heart I knew,
There isn't an ocean too deep,
A mountain so high it can keep,
Keep me away, away from His love.

I love Him, I love Him, I love Him,
And where He goes,
I'll follow, I'll follow, I'll follow.

I will follow Him,
Follow Him wherever He may go,
There isn't an ocean too deep,
A mountain so high it can keep,
Keep me away,

We will follow Him,
Follow Him wherever He may go,
There isn't an ocean too deep,
A mountain so high it can keep,
Keep us away, away from His love...

I love Him
(Oh yes I love Him)
I'll follow
(I'm gonna follow)
True love
(He'll always be my true love)
Forever
( from now until forever)
I love Him, I love Him, I love Him,
And where He goes,
I'll follow, I'll follow, I'll follow,
He'll always be my true love,
My true love, my true love,
From now until forever,
Forever, forever...

There isn't an ocean too deep,
A mountain so high it can keep,
Keep us away, away from His love...














Still
Hillsongs United
-------------------
Hide me now
Under your wings
Cover me within your mighty hand

When the oceans rise and thunders roar
I will soar with you above the storm
Father you are king over the flood
I will be still and know you are God

Find rest my soul
In Christ alone
Know his power
In quietness and trust







sumhow.. this song always gives me the strength to follow Him again..
everytime i feel lyk giving up..







btw.. just for ur information..
eunice n georgina n lizhen commented tt they nv regret coming to watch.. =D

wad shld i say abt ytd??
tt i m so darn careless..
i dropped $45..
n i cant find it anywhere..
grrrr....


today went to sch..
i cldnt stop playing wid amanda..
we were luffing n luffing away till ms chng was lyk kind of warn us..


aft sch.. went home n bathed..
then meet jiali below my blk..
we decided to go jogging..
yeah!!! finally..
im so ashamed of myself..
i cant even outrun her!!!
wad is this????
den we sat down at the big space n tok..
okie.. so she's the 2nd person hu say tt im too nice..
i cant even reject a person..
but i jus cant find the reason to reject sum1..
n she says tt i hafta open up more..
cuz i keep pressing things down inside of me..
mabbe.. hmm...


then went church to watch the performance..
b4 the performance..
we hafta do a dance..
stupid but very fun!!!!
hahahahahaha.. i was enjoying myself..
the dance was nice..
plot very nice too.. shld go watch..
when they pushed the big CROSS out..
i almost cried..
"You've turned my mourning into dancing!!!"
tml at 7.30pm.. im going again..
anyone wan to come???


then pastor eugene told us of a joke..
lol.. it's abt this man hu tinks tt he is the smartest in the world..
so he took a plane wid a pastor n a boy scout..
in the midst of flying..
the pilot came in n told them tt the engine had died,,
n there is only 3 parachutes left..
n he told them of how he still has 4 children n a wife waiting for him..
then took one parachute n jumped down..
then the smartest man stood up n told them tt he is the smartest..
n is in the midst of inventing smth tt will improve the lifestyle of pple..
then he took a parachute n jumped down..
then the pastor told the boy scout tt he is old..
n has seen everything in the world..
n he is ready to go meet his Creator..
he asked the boy scout to take the last parachute..
then the boy scout told him..
"Hey old man.. Do not worry..
the SMARTEST man had just jumped down with my schoolbag.."


lololololololollolol..


then we went to eat kfc..
toked awhile.. abt the things we learnt..
then me n isaac went home together..
he intro me a song..
im the only gay eskimo.. or smth lyk tt..
damn funny the song..
hahahaha..

i love this song..
since p6..
when i realise what love is..














Drowning
Backstreet Boys
--------------------
Ohhh...

Don't pretend you're sorry
You know you're not
You know you've got the power to make me weak inside
And girl you leave me breathless
But it's ok
Cause you are my survival
Now hear me say...

I can't imagine life without your love
And even forever don't seem like long enough

Chorus:
'Cause everytime I breathe I take you in
And my heart beats again
Baby I can't help it
You keep me drowning in your love
Everytime I try to rise above
I'm swept away by love
Baby I can't help it
You keep me drowning in your love

Maybe I'm a drifter
Maybe not
Cause I have known the safety of floating freely in your arms
I don't need another lifeline
It's not for me
Cause only you can save me
Oh, can't you see

I can't imagine life without your love
And even forever don't seem like long enough
(Don't seem like long enough, yeah)

Chorus:
Cause everytime I breathe I take you in
And my heart beats again
Baby I can't help it
You keep me drowning in your love
And everytime I try to rise above
I'm swept away by love
Baby I can't help it
You keep me drowning in your love

Go on and pull me under
Cover me with dreams, yeah
Love me mouth to mouth now
You know I can't resist
Cause you're the air that I breathe

Chorus:
Everytime I breathe I take you in (everytime I breathe, yeah)
And my heart beats again
Baby I can't help it (Baby I can't help it)
Keep me drowning in your love
And everytime I try to rise above
I'm swept away by love
Baby I can't help it (Baby I can't help it)
Keep me drowning in your love (Loooooooooooooooooove)

Baby I can't help it
Keep me drowning in your love (Keep me drowning in your love)
Whoa
Got me drowning
Keep me drowning in your love
Baby I can't help it (I can't help it, can't help it, no no)

Everytime I breathe I take you in (I like you)
And my heart beats again (Ohhhh)
Baby I can't help it (Baby I can't help it)
Keep me drowning in your love
Every time I try to rise above
(Everytime I try to rise, rise above)
I'm swept away by love
Baby I can't help it
You keep me drowning in.... your love

guess wad happened aft sch???
ok.. we had a gd luff..
at least me.. lolx..


ok.. i got a gd scare frm jiali's face..
i was washing my hands n looking into the mirror..
when she just suddenly pop out..
i screamed!!! lol..


tired to describe today's experience..
another reason is cuz i forgot alrdy.. haha..

helloooooo~~~
=D i'll just flash my sweetest smile for a while first..


=D


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=D


=D


hehe.. nope.. ur wrong..
it's not tt there;s smth gd tt happened today..
nope.. there isn't..
it's just tt i dunno wad to blog..
lol..


lemme tink..
hmmmmm....


ok.. today everyone hafta sit outside class for english..
i min almost half of the class..
cuz we nv finish our EFG..
she asked us one by one for our reasons..
n i told her i dun understand the passage..
it's true.. the passage r in such old english or smth..
n then she asked me the most ridiculous qn..
"so in o lvl if u dun understand the qn.. u not going to do?"
duhz.. yah yah.. n i'll ask for a refund rite?
-_-" of cuz i'll do..
but which o lvl idiot is gonna set old english compre for a modern english society..
change to singlish LAH!!!!!


then we stayed back in sch to watch soccer match..
hmm.. yalam against yalam..
quite nice.. got the cute guy inside..
so we were watching..
n these track guys came running past..
n stopped in front of me..
blocking my view..
i so darn fed up.. n i mumbled "get off!"
jiali told me tt they heard me n looked at me..
but i dun gif a damn..
hu ask them to block my view?


second half of the game..
the guy almost scored..
arh... shitttttt!!!
then lizhen n yuting went off first..
n they called me to tell me tt nadz came back to sch..
i can see.. he kept running in front of me.. lol..


may i announce tt the results of the match is....


5-4..


the cute guy's team lost.. haiz..


so me n jiali stayed back n do our hw..
ooh-hoo.. we finished..!!!! heex!


but.......


they still lost.... =((((


im tinking whether i shld destroy xuanieee//*'s blog..
since she did not ryt "I LURVE TO KISS SHIT!!!"
but she gave me a shirt wid a big ELMO printed on..
i guess i'll just let her off this once..


i wonder hu;s the stupid idiot hu ever said tt
"GALS R MORE SENSITIVE THAN GUYS.."
i'll kill him..


ps: a big shout out to pple hu r in love n noes me..


pls.... stop it.. n gimme a break..
i cant stand it anymore..
stop using me to create chances for the 2 of u..
stop making me the mid person..
i've had enuff probs of my own..
im just a fren..
im here to help..
nt to be ur slave..
sometimes i wonder if the frenship between us is real or not.......

HAPPIE BELATED SWEET 16th BURFDAY TO MEEEEE!!!


i had a fun burfday ytd..
especially wid the dance members..
they tricked me into a burfday celebration for me..
haha.. so darn sweet..
n i got chocolate all over my face..


went out in the nite wid them again..
took neoprints..
n i had a shitty burfday..
i filled the whole pictures wid shits..
lololololol..
treat them to eat ytd...
then when wan to buy my clothes..
all the shops close..
how can lyk tt???
grrrrr...


on the way home..
i met ***** n his frens..
oh god.. so "lucky"!!!
lyk when i always wanted to meet him.. i dun..
but at the most unexpected moment.. i saw him..
on the same bus as me..
ok.. wadever..


ytd.. i declared to myself..
a break frm relationship problems..
myself.. n others..
i refuse to hear anything abt anyone's relationship..


today went to the food fair wid my parents..
so cramp over there.. all chinese..
then we went esplanade..
ooh-hoo.. so nice.. the breeze was so nice..
then the band called "Timmy" was also very nice..
while checking sound..
they played 2 of their songs.. NICE!!!
n five for fighting's 100 years..
n john mayer's daughter..
n another song i cant rmb..
lol.. they r damn talented..
but so bad.. my parents refused to stay n watch..


i reached an agreement wid my father..
he allowed me to go esplanade 2 fridays a month n return home late..
i min i can still sneak to esplanade aft sch..
but must return home at 8.30pm..
lololol.. im gonna drag pple to go there..


lets see all the burfday msgs i got since 12mm on 19.03.05..

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Lizhen: 19/03/05 12:00:20am

HaPpy 16th bIrThDaY ta u! best wishes al e best in wadeva u do! haahaax stay cheerful alwayz! frz 4 ever! tc! =)

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Chee Yong: 19/03/05 12:01:20am

happy birthday!

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Zachary: 19/03/05 12:04:42am

Happy birthday.

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Isaac Foong: 19/03/05 12:18:42am

Oops kinda late but.. happy b day! n erm enjoy ur day tml! God bless u 4 another year! heeheex.. make sure look after her tml kk? pls?

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Yuting: 19/03/05 06:59:01am

Dear queen seow hui, happy birthday!

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Jiali: 19/03./05 07:08:39am

wei!!! hapi 16th bdae!! siao siao lei, sweet 16 liao! may u al e bes in everything u do..
-JiaLi-

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McDonalds: 19/03/05 09:04:16am

Dear S H, Happy McBirthday greetings to you from the Management and Staff of McDonald's Singapore!


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Caiying: 19/03/05 09:06:26am

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more mature le eh.. Wish that whatever u wish wld be granted n.. Smile always.. =D=)

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Salihin: 19/03/05 12:25:49pm

Hapi bday to u 2

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Hairi: 19/03/05 09:49:19pm

hApi bDaE to u! hApu bAdE to seowhui! hApi bdAe to u! mAy u hV a wOnDeRfuL yr n aLL e bEst in wateVeR uR dOin.. hApi bDaE!

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Christina: 19/03/05 11:05:57pm

.::***:.
( -_-)
>")('<
i wish
GOD
wld
hold u
tight,
& Angels
wld
keep u in
sight,
not jz
2 make
u feel
alrite,
but 4 u
2 haf all
e best in
LIFE!
Happy Burfday!

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Patricia: 20/03/05 09:34:38pm

Baby lil gal.. I forgot to wish you a happy birthday.. Was at malaysia yst.. Hope you dun mind.. You are finally 16:) can watch with me movie le.. Haha..

___________________________


can i announce tt..


HAIRI IS A PSYCHIC N HE TOTALLY FREAKS ME OUTTTT!!!!! lolx..


I CAN FINALLY WATCH NC16 MOVIES!!!!

2hrs n 18 more mins to my burfday!!!
i cant blif still got so many pple rmb my burfday!!
hahahahaha..


today was planning to go jogging one..
in the end went sentosa wid sumone..
so lame..
go all the way to sentosa to see someone..
lalalallalala..
dropped my phone there..
tot nth will go wrong..
but in the end my phone spoil..
cant hear any ringtone..
can only vibrate..
sux!!! nid to go repair..


hmm.. let's tok abt my burfday..
hehehe..
ok..
tml aft dance..
i will be returning home for a bathe n a quick celebration wid my family..
(hopefully the still rmb..)
then will go out wid lizhen at evening..
we'll go town..
then esplanade in the nite..
shiying mite be joining us aft church..


16 loh..
a new phase of life..
gonna pia alot alrdy..
all for my dearest o lvl..
hahahahah..


so far..
eunice n nerissa had given me an octopus..
my auntie $20..
my ah gong $30..
amanda n sr a necklace..
tt's all so far..
hope there's more to come..
hahahahah..


tt stupid isaac..
wah liao.. he damn wad..
tml my bdae leh..
ask me to help take care of his lizhen..
nv even wish me happy burfday..
wad the hell!!!
but being the good christian i am..
(lol jiali lurve to call me good christian..)
i will take care of her..
i tink i still cant take a day off frm being a nanny even on my burfday..
last yr was patricia..
this yr will be lizhen..


burfday wishes:
1) pass my o lvl wid 18 points!!!
2) haf gd health.. of cuz!
3) my family to receive salvation..
4) feel more of God's presence..
5) more allowance..
6) ltr curfew..
7) more frens..
8) world peace*


cant tink of anymore.. hahaha..
tt's all for today.. mite not blog tml..
so take care till sun!!!

tatas~~


2hrs n 10 more mins!!!


Ha.ppy Bir.th.day To Me
Ha.ppy Bir.th.day To Me
Ha.ppy Bir.th.day To Me
Ha.ppy Bir.th.day To Meeeeee~~~~~~

heex.. jiali is sucha pig..
she really blifs me when i say tt im alrite..
awww.. u really blif me??
crazieee.. how to forget wad happened so easily??
surely take sum time to erase the memories one mah..
lololololololol..


n make sure tt...


U TAG MY TAGBOARD!!!!


bias pig!


woke up today n prepared to go orchard..
me n my sis went far east n wait..
since my auntie n cousin havent cum..
so we bot the chicken cutlet to eat..
wah.. damn hot.. in the end i threw it away..
tt's crap loh!
then we decided to walk to cine..
just nice my auntie n cousin going cine too..
so we meet there..


met nadz outside cine..
i dunno y but i was lyk so speechless..
when he ask me where im going..
i just point at cine n stared at him..
lolx..


then went yuki n yaki to eat.. hmm.. so full..
my nephew brandon was entertaining himself all the while by playing wid brandon 2 in the reflection.. hahaha..


then walked abit arnd heeren..
n went for tuition..
mr toh bllew his top..
wah.. so scariee..
but this time not by me..
luckily.. heex!!!

Someone's Watching Over Me
Hilary Duff
------------------------------------
I found myself today
Oh, I found myself and ran away
Something pulled me back
A voice of reason, I forgot I had
All I know, is you're not here to say
What you always used to say
But it’s written in the sky tonight

[chorus]
So I won’t give up
No, I won’t break down
Sooner than it seems, life turns around
And I will be strong
Even if it all goes wrong
When I’m standing in the dark, I’ll still believe
Someone’s watching over me

I’ve seen that ray of light
And it’s shining on my destiny
Shining all the time
And I won’t be afraid
To follow everywhere it’s taking me
All I know is
Yesterday is gone
And right now I belong
To this moment, to my dreams

[chorus]
So I won’t give up
No, I won’t break down
Sooner than it seems, life turns around
And I will be strong
Even if it all goes wrong
When I’m standing in the dark, I’ll still believe
Someone’s watching over me

It doesn’t matter what people say
And it doesn’t matter how long it takes
Believe in yourself
And you’ll fly high

And it only matters how true you are
Be true to yourself and follow your heart

[chorus]
So I won’t give up
No I won’t break down
Sooner than it seems, life turns around
And I will be strong
Even if it all goes wrong
When I’m standing in the dark, I’ll still believe...

That I won’t give up
No I won’t break down
Sooner than it seems, life turns around
And I will be strong
Even when it all goes wrong
When I’m standing in the dark, I’ll still believe
Someone’s watching over...
Someone's watching over...
Someone's watching over me
(Yeah yeah, oh oh)
Someone's watching over me













Your Face
Mandy Moore
-----------------
Your face
I'm still not over your face
Headlights break through the rain
Over London's winter nights
I came all the way here tonight to look in your eyes
I came all the way here tonight just to see you

Your face
Holds me over your face
Wipes away the rain
With a hundred summer skies
And everytime I talk to you
It's like I'm alright
And everytime I talk to u
I get a little closer to life

Bridge
You are the face that heaven showed me
When I needed someone
Someone to love
And say you will show me
The quiet kind of love behind your face

Your face
Let me show the world your face
All the stars and suns above are jealous in its light
You steal the sky away from them and bring it to sight
Yeah you steal the sky away from them and bring it to life

You are the face that heaven showed me
When I needed someone
Someone to love
And say you will show me
The quiet kind of love behind your face



______________________________________________














went down to the playgrnd wid jiali..
was playing the swing until two kids were crying over the swing..
so i stood up n gave the swing to them..
im a good girl.. =D


sat at the big bench toking..
actually i was lying down..
n jiali kept asking me to sit up n protect my image..
cuz she says tt everyone was looking at me..
guess wad? i dun gif a damn.. i got no image..
wadever lah.. i happy can alrdy..


then isaac came..
he bot our bubble tea.. thx isaac..
then we walked over to another playground..
the swing there was so low..
so i ended up playing the slide..
then isaac say i deprive of childhood..
then isaac called zachary..
n i kept screaming n shouting zachary's name..
he must haf heard cuz isaac told me he was lyk oh my god..
then we decided to go baq to the previous playground..
they sat on the bench while i climbed over the tunnel n just sit there n stone..
i dunno wad were they toking abt.. but i was observing the little kids playing catching..
there's this grp of indian kids playing catching..
n they hafta touch smth black in order to be safe..
u noe the "house" thing? hahah..
then i msg jiali n isaac tt they dunnid to touch anything..
they r black themselves..
they r forever safe.. hehe..




ANTI-RACISM!!!!



then isaac left..
but me n jiali stayed awhile longer..
then jiali also left..
so i went to the same place where it all started..
the track beside the big drain..
i stoned there n just overlook the water..
the wind was so big but i dun care..
the feeling was wonderful..
then got this two malay gals standing beside me..
they must haf tot tt i was crying cuz they kept looking over at me..
i was having a haevy flu so i keep sneezing n rubbing my eyes..
then got this father n two kids fishing..
they damn cute loh..
they were challenging each other to see hu catch the most fish..
the kid kept saying there's no fish..
but the father kept catching fishes..
then b4 they left.. the kids announce tt there are no fishes in the water..
n i felt lyk telling them tt the fishes were scared off by the noise they made..
hahahah.. in the end.. i went home too..
=D

ok.. i;ve decided..
i will not hurt anybody anymore..
so i've deleted tt post..













Daughters
John Mayer
--------------
I know a girl
She puts the color inside of my world
She's just like a maze
Where all of the walls all continually change
And I've done all I can
To stand on her steps with my heart in my hands
Now I'm starting to see
Maybe it's got nothing to do with me

Fathers be good to your daughters
Daughters will love like you do
Girls become lovers who turn into mothers
So mothers be good to your daughters too

Oh, you see that skin?
It's the same she's been standing in
Since the day she saw him walking away
Now she's left
Cleaning up the mess he made

Fathers be good to your daughters
Daughters will love like you do
Girls become lovers who turn into mothers
So mothers be good to your daughters too

Boys, you can break
You'll find out how much they can take
Boys will be strong
And boys soldier on
But boys would be gone without warmth from
A woman's good, good heart

On behalf of every man
Looking out for every girl
You are the god and the weight of her world

So fathers be good to your daughters
Daughters will love like you do
Girls become lovers who turn into mothers
So mothers be good to your daughters, too
So mothers be good to your daughters, too
So mothers be good to your daughters, too














this song got me tinking..

feel kind of relieved aft breaking down..
at least i got a conclusion..
or wadever.. results..


i tink tt im very weird..
i always cant cry directly..
i nid smth to trigger off my tears..
lyk tt day.. i was so damn stressed..
but i cant cry.. until patricia n i quarelled..
n ytd.. i cant cry too..
till my mother started nagging at me to off my com..
wads happening to me?
i tink my tears tink tt they r too precious? LOLX..


i tink all i nid nw is to go to the playground n swing my troubles away..
mabbe ltr..
=DDDD

the trip to orchard today was more lyk im doing my solo-shopping wid two bodyguards behind me..
lol.. nah.. i hafta create chance u noe??
so i just keep walking quickly n leave the 2 of them behind..
luckily i've alrdy master the art of self-entertaining..


saw olinda cho in mos burger today..
omg.. i was so darn high!!!
i kept taking pics of her n i tink she saw me..


today i finally broke down..
aft quarelling wid patricia..
actually i hafta thank her for tt..
cuz she gave me a reason to cry..
if not.. i'll be pressing everything down n feeling so fucked up..
thx.. anyway.. we r alrite nw..
n aft crying i was so high..
so i guess crying helps me too!!!

i'll just type this briefly..


went kallang..
stayed awhile..
decided to take cert n shirt then leave..


then went orchard wid jiali..
walk here n there..
watched elmo show at taka..


then went home..


aargh.. im gonna die frm fatigue..
everyone is lyk asking me to do smth for them at the same time..
i wonder y i dun wan to reject..
worse thing is i dun even haf time for myself..
n i seriously nid to just break down n cry..
i nid to release stress..
everyone is rushing me to do their things..
for wad fuck..
i prepared such a nice post to blog..
but nw i dun tink im interested anymore..


i also dunno y i keep tinking of him..
y do i keep doubting him..
i kept telling myself tt i nid to haf trust..
but so wad???
wad do i get in the end..
days of ignorance..
wadever!!!!


ok.. xuan.. ur blog's done..
isaac.. ur qns being asked..
chee yong.. i'll ans ur qns ltr..
jiali.. i'll scan ur photos tml..


n u..




U..





U.. yes.. U!!




U r being missed..


ANYMORE????

today was a tiring day..
n my palm developed sum blisters frm carrying all the heavy props..
just glad tt nobody's hurt..
tanglin wasnt scolded also..
while other schs were scolded by mr low..
yay!!!




yo.. yo.. yo.. OW!!!


then rushed home to bathe..
finish everything n isaac had just board the bus..
so i ask my auntie's maid to cook meepok for me..
cuz im really really damn hungry..
so isaac waited outside while i eat..
lolx..


went church..
sang alot of nice songs.. hahahah..
played during sermon..
which was wrong.. lolx..


went to eat wid yuting n isaac at kfc..
isaac's treat.. hehe..


on the bus home.. awww.. so sweet..
got this couple.. young one..
the girl was very tired..
so she lied on her bf's lap..
her bf was cuddling her..
awwww... so darn sweet!!!
*jealous* lol..


u play.ed wi.d my hea.r.t..
u play.ed wi.d my min.d..
bu.t i mi.ss u fi.nal.ly..
righ.t f.rm th.e s.tar.t..
my lu.r.ve ma.de me b.lin.d..
bu.t i mi.ss u fi.nal.ly..

today is a happy day for me..
but if he msg me nw..
i noe it'll be perfect!!!


pe was so boring..
old mr charlie tan wans us to run arnd the sch..
but me n amanda escaped n went to watch the guys play soccer instead..


ryan is a bastard..
grrrrrr...
cuz i took his phone n saw tt all his msg was for a person..
(shall not disclose the name here..)
then he accused me of seeing his msgs..
wadever.. lyk im interested..
then he went to read my msgs..
out to the whole class..
lyk i care..
then he used my phone n send to his phone a lame msg..
"Do u love me? I love u so much?"
for gdness sake.. i will nv send u tt!!!!


i got baq my report bk..
ooh-hoo.. guess wads my L1R5 n L1B4??
according to yuting's calculation..
it's 13 n 9 respectively..
oh my goodness..
lyk wad yuting said..
if tis is my o lvls results..
i'll cry man!!!!


we got the Dilmers jersey today..
im #24.. lolx.. so cute..
it's bright orange n damn big..
i can wear it as a skirt.. lol..


aft sch sat at the canteen toking wid lizhen n jiali n yuting..
the cute guy was sitting nxt to our table..
ooooooh.. so nice.. lol..
his complexion is so darn gd...


went to do notice board..
i forgot to bring the keys..
hope she wun discover it..
planning to pin up the decorations tml..


then went to hall to start dance prac..
we run thru a few old dances..
i got a blister on my palm for carrying the heavy wooden planks..
yucks.. luckily it's not painful..


there's conflict in dance today..
which ended up in 3 pple crying..
arh.. i find it a waste of time..
y cry over such things when it's lyk not worth it..
dun be the one hu cry..
ur only satisfying wad the person wanted..
then i kept telling them big bang theories n they luffed..
finally.. phew~


i felt lyk i went for a sermon today..
mdm ji was preaching to zhiming..
occasionally i added in too.. lol..
hope tt this conflict will be over soon by tml.. =D


today.. jiali n lizhen told me tt they tink tt im a very gd person..
they say tt i always accept pple for hu they r..
even though they only come to me when all their frens have left..
n im always cheering pple up..
wahahahaha.. is tis true??? i dunno..
i just feel tt my life is meant for a purpose..
tt is to bring smiles to pple's faces..
n i lurve it when i can change tears into smiles..
n i tink tt life shld be lived happily..
let all the happy things occupy ur mind instead of the bad memories..
tt's wad i tink.. =DD


wah.. so nice to be praised!! =DDD


for ur info..
amanda had my pic on her phone..
n if u dunno how i look lyk..
im a fat.. pinkish little octo-pussy!!!
lolololol..
ok.. this all started when i told lizhen tt i acted as an octopus in kindergarten..
n it sumhow spreads n they all noe nw.. lol..


sumtimes i feel lyk im one person handling..
hmm.. lemme see..
1.. 2.. 3.. 4.. 5.. 6..
6 relationships probs..
wow.. i dunno i've got tt much probs..
but nvm.. i try to help whenever i can.. =DD


so fast another yr has passed..
my bdae is coming again!!!
yeah!!!!














8 more days to 16 candles on my bdae cake!!!!!!

i darn love my blogskin nw..
it's so damn sweet...
heex!!!


notice tt i havent been blogging in details these few days..
i realised i've been backsliding..
not frm God.. but frm blogger.. lolx..
this wk is too eventful till i cldnt breathe anymore..
let alone cum online n blog everything down..


alright.. i shall compensate by hmm..
posting another post nw..
ok.. wad the hell m i toking nw??
nth.. just dun care..


hmmmmmmmmmm....
ok.. i brot puffs to sch today..
ate one on the way to sch..
it's really nice.. n big.. n filling..
$1.30 each.. with chocolate chips as topping..
lolx.. chocolates!!! yumx...


went thru sch as usual..
except tt today we'll be let off early..
we r going to watch netball match!!

so we were let off early.. ok...
the match was nice..
exciting.. n we were screaming..
but half of the time i was praying..
so i wasnt screaming..
n thus.. u can imagine the chill sent down my spine when everyone suddenly scream at the top of their lungs..
it's lyk my ears being pierced through...
ooohh... yuckS!!!!
but in the end.. they lost..
by a mere score of 4..
haiz.. so sad.. i almost cried..
but i controlled..
amanda cried.. awwwww.. dun be sad..


then returned to sch..
i realised tt mr tham lyks to make fun of me..
woah.. wad happened??? arh.. wadever..
he said tt im trying to seduce shaorong!!!
my god!!!


then we went clementi to eat..
met a dog..
so cute!!!!!
she jumped onto me immediately..
her paws are so soft..
it feels ticklish rather than pain..
n i keep touching her..
she wans to lick my hands..
then yixuan they all say tt she lyk me.. lol..


clementi town boys cocky..
when i suddenly "hhmph!"
they copied n "hhmph!" baq too..
so i "hhmph!" again..
n they repeated..
then amanda n yuting joined in..
lolx..
but in the end..
i decided tt my food in more tempting then this childishness..
so i went baq to eat..
then yuting n amanda said so loudly tt clementi town cocky cuz they win netball..
lolx...
when we were abt to leave kfc..
i "hhmph!" one last time at my highest pitch ever n left..
then we took bus home..


n nw im home typing this..
aft changing my blog skin..
i really love my blogskin..
heex!!
















Miss You Finally
Trademark
----------------
But I miss you finally
But I miss you finally
Try to remember all these years
We shared the love we shared the tears
Thought that forever it would be
I realize you lie to me
I still hold on
Still dream of days when we were one

Chorus :
You played with my heart
You played with my mind
But I miss you finally
Right from the start
My love made me blind
But I miss you finally
All of these promises you made
This 4 letter word it seems to

Baby it's hard to understand
Now that you're gone
We reached the end
I still believe
Still dream of days when we were one

[Chorus] x 3

You played with my heart
You played with my mind
Right from the start
My love made me blind

today's quite an eventful day..

firstly.. i almost passed my 2.4 run..
which is lyk such a big improvement for me..
i just nid to improve on a few secs more..
hehe..

aft sch.. went for soccer match..
exciting one i hafta say..
ooh!!!!
but we still lost..
nvm.. we r still in nationals..
hope it's played in our sch..
then dun haf to travel so far..
haha..

tml's our x-country..
not running...
mabbe hide in toilet again..
nahs.. will join in the walk wid everyone..
im a gd gal ok.. hahaha

i tinking of changing my blog skin..
hmmm.. to the precious moment one..
mabbe i'll do it ltr..
if i got the time to spare..

lalala.. how shld i start my day???
ok.. i was feeling very weird ever since i stepped into sch..
i feel a pair of eyes staring at me..
but i'll not say hu..

then there i was..
in the parade square observing the clouds movement while mrs oui was yakking away..
i realised tt the clouds were moving so fast today.. damn fast..
guess wad.. i saw a formation of underwear..
then it slowly turned into g-string..
i wanted to luff out.. but then i controlled myself..

then it started drizzling..
but mrs oui still dun wan to stop..
arh.. wadever..
i lyk the coolness of the rain so it doesnt matter..

during ss lesson.. zamree was takeing maternal leave..
but she still has work for us..
erks... but i was toking to yixuan..
then mr ng told me to turn arnd n do my work..
then i told him i got nth to do..
then he told me not to chat wid yixuan but chat wid him instead..
i was lyk "huh???" fine......
so i started toking to him..
i told him tt my bdae was cuming!!!!
but he was so heartless..
i told him tt it's a MUST to buy present..
lol.. dun care..
then i asked him if he is free on wed aft x-country..
i wanna date him out..
he was lyk -_-""""
but it's his fault..
he's the one hu asked me to chat wid him..
at the end of the lesson..
i asked him how much is the basic pay for a tcher..
he told me above $2000..
wow.. tt is lyk amazing!!!!
mabbe i'll be a chi tcher nxt time..

all the way to the nxt class..
i was tinking of ways tt i can teach my class chi..
n i came up wid this superb plan..
i'll let them haf fun n learn at the same time..
i'll let them watch porn flicks..
but i'll turn off the volume n input chi subtitles..
so tt in order to enjoy the movie..
they hafta read the chi subtitles!!
n in order not to get into trouble wid the principal..
i ask him to join in n watch.. lol..
ain't i a genius???

my amaths was not really bad lah..
i got 14/30.. i cld pass u noe??
grrrr.. but my overall got 74%..
heex.. A2!!!

then it's lit..
i was dreaming away while she blabbered on..
i dun understand a single thing lah..

recess was the most fun..
tt dunno hu guy call umm.. weng kian if i not wrong..
was sitting opp me wid his track frens n he was looking at me..
n luffing constantly..
i tink he must have been toking abt me n nadz's thing..
then amanda fed me lou mai gai (wadever)..
he was luffing again..
so me n amanda was out to make him jealous..
i dunno y also.. haha..
she kept feeding me n we act lyk we were submerged in ultimate happiness..

then went to phy..
the funniest lesson tt happened today..
bifen threw a paper aeroplane at mr teo..
but it dropped..
so we ask huiting to pick up n throw to him..
so she picked up n walked towards him..
just when we tot she was going to give it to him..
she threw it at him..
tt really tickled me badly..
i was luffing non-stop.. lol..

then it was geog..
lalalalalalla.. nth happened..
peace!!

then eng..
arh.. the most boring lessons..
was waiting for time to pass by..

aft sch.. me n amanda went canteen to meet jiali n lizhen..
we were deciding where to go while waiting for yuting..
finally she appeared..
then when we were abt to go..
we went to jervenne to comfort her cuz yuting told us she cried cuz of her bad results..
aiyah.. i min it's normal to fail ur first test..
aftall.. all tt matters is ur o lvls..
then we left for ginza n ate at kfc..
then we bot bubble tea.. =D
jiali n yuting decided to cum my hse..

we decided to go to the playground instead..
we played alot.. the swings.. the slide..
so nice..
especially the swing..
they two gang up n pushed me so hard tt i almost fall on several occasions..
n i'll scream n vent all my angers out..
then i went to slide down..
feel the air brush against my face..
cool.. n not to mention.. nice too.. =D

then we went to the void deck to do work..
got two abnn went past us..
then decided to cum baq n sit on the chair beside our table..
they kept looking at the 3 of us..
then yuting n jiali very funny..
took out their pen knives..
i dunno whether they r trying to scare the abnn or wad..
but i tink they got scared..
n left a while ltr..

then we went baq to the playground..
by then.. it was packed wid kids..
but we cldnt care less..
n we went on to play anyway..
occasionally waving to the kids..
lol..
i felt lyk i've returned to my childhood period..
where i haf no worries at all..
no o lvls stress.. no relationship probs..
no family conflicts.. wadever..
we werent even tt scared where psle was near..
tt feeling is great..
then we left for home..

tml's the finals for the soccer boys..
gd luck to them.. n im going to watch..
hope they will win n be #1!!!

went dance today..
saw th lower sec soccer tournament..
so boring.. one grp of guys wore pink..
yucks..

had to carry those dumb heavy things up n down..
my hands almost got blisters..

i raped eunice today..
hahaha...
then sihan told me a joke which i cld not understand..
then they say i slow..
ok fine...
wadever!!!!!

then went to ginza to eat..
saw mr leong in his sports gear..
erm.. yucks too.. haha..

then went library to return bks..
so packed.. n noisy..
i chose 3 bks..
two are compiled stories by teens..
one is a storybk intro by jiali..

then went home n prepared to go church..
today got the tabernacle n im so excited to meet God..
me n isaac reached there..
cannot go in cuz is the Lord's supper..
so we hafta wait..
went in.. the sermon was so long..
i went to read my own storybk..
then aft church..
me n isaac went mac to eat..
we did not have enuff money..
lack 50 cents..
n we were so worried..
then he borrowed $1 frmt he guy behind us..
we were so pai seh tt we dun dare to go near the guy..

isaac said so much thing tt really made me tink too..
hmmm... im so sick..
heck..

then we went to the tabernacle..
i prayed alot..
for everyone..
n i cried..
but at the last place..
the holy of the holies..
i cldnt feel God's presence at all..
im abit sad.. hmmm..
mabbe it's bcuz my mind is not clear at all..

amanda told me tt mabbe god has sum hints to me in the sermon..
cuz today's sermon is abt marriage..
arh.. mabbe.. hmmm...
















Almost Here
Delta Goodrem ft Brian McFadden
-------------------------------
Did I hear you right
'cause I thought you said
Let's think it over
You have been my life
And I never planned
Growing old without you

Shadows bleeding through the light
Where the love once shined so bright
Came without a reason
Don't let go on us tonight
Love's not always black and white
Haven't I always loved you?

But when I need you
You're almost here
And I know that's not enough
And when I'm with you
I'm close to tears
'cause your only almost here

I would change the world
If I had a chance
Oh won't you let me
Treat me like a child
Throw your arms around me
Oh please protect me

Bruised and battered by your words
Dazed and shattered how it hurts
Haven't I always loved you

But when I need you
You're almost here
And I know that's not enough
And when I'm with you
I'm close to tears
'cause your only almost here

Bruised and battered by your words
Dazed and shattered now it hurts
Haven't I always loved you

But when I need you
You're almost here
Well I never knew how far behind i?d left you
And when I hold you your almost here
Well I'm sorry that I took our love for granted
And now I'm with you I'm close to tears
'cause I know I'm almost here
Only almost here

wad can i say??
hmmmm....
tt i'll nv forget ytd..
n-e-v-e-r..
~~~~~~~~~~~~~


got back my chi results today..
83/100..
i wasnt very happy..
cuz i expected more..
n i tink tt alot of them gonna catch up alrdy..
but wadever.. i shld learn to be contented..














Never Be Replaced
1st Lady
------------------------
Baby I love you and I'll never let you go
But if I have to boy I think that you should know
All the love we made can never be erased
And I promise you that you will never be replaced

Baby I love you and I'll never let you go
But if I have to boy I think that you should know
All the love we made can never be erased
And I promise you that you will never be replaced

I love you yes I do
I'll be with you as long as you want me to
Until the end of time

From the day I met you I knew we'd be together
And now I know I wanna be with you forever
I wanna marry you and I wanna have your kids
Thinking never compared to the feeling of your kisses

I could say I'm truly happy till this day
You make me think I better live my life everyday
There's never been a doubt in my mind
That I regret ever having you by my side

But if the day comes that I have to let you go
I think there's something I should probably let you know
That everyday that I've spent with you
I will miss you cause I'm happy that I had you at all

Baby I love you and I'll never let you go
But if I have to boy I think that you should know
All the love we made can never be erased
And I promise you that you will never be replaced

Baby I love you and I'll never let you go
But if I have to boy I think that you should know
All the love we made can never be erased
And I promise you that you will never be replaced

I love you yes I do
I'll be with you as long as you want me to
Until the end of time














i lurve u amanda!!!! =D

nowadays nth much to blog..
i really dunno wad to blog..
hmmmmmm...


anyway..

my burfday's coming!!!!!! =DD





eunice n nerissa are so gan chiong..
today gave me burfday present alrdy..
hahahah...



im still considering whether to go for the i n e camp anot..
if i go is also for the sake of yi xuan..
hmmmmmmmmmmmm...












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i.m sic.ked of hea.ring a.ll th.e s.weet talk.s n b.lif tha.t th.ey r t.rue..
den go.t sum new.s fr.om a.ll my f.ren.s of how i've bee.n a foo.l..
u've ne.ver bee.n tha.t re.al b.for righ.t fr.om th.e ve.ry s.tar.t..
wh.ile i've bee.n wai.ting foo.li.sh.ly fo.r u wi.d a.ll my hear.t..
ur ne.ver th.ere.. u've ne.ver ca.re..
bou.t how i hur.t ly.k he.ll..
th.e day tha.t i le.t u in.to me..
is th.e day i've al.mo.st fe.ll..
now.. lea.ve th.e me.ss tha.t u ha.f ma.de..
n ge.t ou.t of my li.fe..
i'll be s.tron.ger th.an b.for..
n no dou.bt.. i'll sur.vi.ve!