fuck.. i really cant stand it alrdy.. if u guys wanna be angry with them.. go ahead.. but pls dun involved me.. i cant be angry with them.. CUZ THEY NV AGITATE ME! cant u understand?
i cant stand it anymore.. y r u letting this stupid thing affecting our r/s so much.. u nv listen when i try to help u understand.. u only wan to make me hate them.. I CANT I CANT I CANT!
wads the prob with u guys?? u dunno hw bad i felt stuck in the middle.. i wan to cry.. i wan to scream.. but i cant do tt.. i can only do it quietly in the bathrm..
bcuz of this stupid thing.. u r getting so impatient with me.. getting angry whenever this topic is touched on.. u've changed.. ur so scary nw.. i dun recognise u anymore..
we cant communicate anymore..
when i tried to share my happiness with others.. u said im trying to boast.. when i share it with u instead.. u ignored me..
when i tried to make u understand.. u said i dun care for u anymore.. n get all agitated.. hw m i even supposed to tok to u anymore?
WHAT AM I SUPPOSED TO DO?
y cant u just ignore wad they r saying? if they said smth wrong.. tt's their prob.. not urs.. do u haf to refer them as "those pple"?? for fuck sake.. they r ur relatives..!!!!!
u made me so down all the time.. but i still haf to put on a brave front.. maybe mei mei may cope with it.. BUT I CANT!
u knew very well tt i HATE pple to quarrel.. u know it very well.. but y r u doing this to me nw?
i've been tinkg of writing this a long time ago.. but i kept trying to control myself.. i tell myself tt this is not permanent.. everything will change.. i cant do tt nw.. i nid sumwhere to vent.. i noe u wun get to read this.. i really dun care..
