hello!!!!!
im baq to blog again..
cld only get online cuz my mother wans me to help her check smth on the net..
hehehehhee..
nw it's my time!!!!
blah blah blah..
i forgot abt things tt happened alrdy lah..
but nvm..
aargh..
these few days got me tinking n tinking n tinking again..
i keep reviewing my decision over n over again..
n keep changing..
i dunno whats gotten over me..
i wan to move on..
but i dun wan to gif up either..
he suddenly told me tt there's this grp of gals hu lend him a phone so tt he can reply their msgs..
oh sure.. gal frensss.. hmmmmmmm..
then he quickly told me tt they r just frens..
oh no prob...
ok.. i understand..
he's gd looking..
so sumtimes i really wonder y he lyk me..
im just so normal..
then he suddenly told me tt wherever he goes..
there's always girl smiling n waving at him..
oh god.. wads the mining of this???
it's lyk so.. ohhh...............................
jl n lz told me tt he's just trying to make me jealous..
i guess he succeeded somehow..
n nw i dun tink i wan to disturb his oh-so-perfect life nw..
i managed..
i did not even msg him ytd..
i controlled myself..
hard though..
but im determined..
but guess wad..
he appeared at the most unsuitable timing..
he went for sports day..
n i just had this sudden urge to msg him..
but i controlled myself again..
they all keep telling me tt he was here..
i knew it..
i saw him the moment i stepped into the stadium..
i kept my eyes away..
i dun wan to see him..
i forced myself to be so concentrated in the events..
i forced myself to play along wid my frens..
i forced myself to play along when ryan n fazlan sprayed water at me playfully..
but it always happened..
when i went to aspen house to meet lizhen n jiali..
he was down at the track..
i forced myself to look away again..
when i went down to the track to assemble..
he was sitting at the place tt we WERE sitting..
when we were walking out of the the poly..
he was in front of us..
tt's lyk.. so great..
when me n jl were going home frm bukit panjang plaza..
jl msged him..
she asked him y he came baq..
guess wad he reply?
"i felt tt i treated sh very badly..
so i came back to see her.."
lyk wadever lah..
im totally speechless..
a part of me was damn touched by him..
but another part was lyk "wad the hell is he trying to do?"
he shld have msged me..
he noes tt i always forgive him..
or mabbe he dunno??
heck~~
sports day was fun..
hairi sprayed my fringe wid red paint..
it's lyk so fun!!!
then we went to bukit panjang to eat..
lz.. jl n yx cannot stand me anymore..
they say tt im behaving lyk a 3 yr old kid..
fine laaaaaaa..
then i accompany jl to go the lrt there to top up her ez link..
there got two china man..
they were having probs wid their card..
so they came to us for help..
we helped them to translate n communicate wid the person there..
it took quite long n it was quite late alrdy..
then my father called me n asked me to get baq home b4 10..
he scolded me foe being a busybody..
i was damn angry..
but we cant possibly just dump them there n ran off..
so we continue helping..
then when we leave..
i walked damn fast..
n tears just rolled down..
then my mother called me..
they wanted to speak to jl..
so jl explained to them..
finally tt pleasde them abit..
but jl was very worried abt me..
aargh..
heck..
just lemme cry n i'll be alrite..
i actually dun tink tt im crying over my father..
i tink ther's more to it..
the "him" thing..
It just takes some time
Little girl, you're in the middle of the ride
Everything, everything will be just fine
Everything, everything will be alright, alright.~~~~~
tHe MiDdLe_*
heck~~
anyway.. got a few songs tt r really nice..
***1) McFly-All About You
**2) Bowling For Soup-Almost
*****3) Howie Day-Collide
***4) Evan And Jarron-Crazy For This Girl
***5) Evan And Jarron-Distance
****6) Diana DeGarmo-Emotional
****7) Natalie-Going Crazy
*****8) Electrico-Good Time
***9) Darius Danesh-Live Twice
**10) Lindsay Lohan-Over
***11) Natalie Imbruglia-Shiver
***12) Staind-So Far Away
*****13) Jimmy Eat World-The Middle
**14) Natasha Beddingfield-Unwritten
****15) Mariah Carey-We Belong Together
***16) Creed-With Arms Wide Open
**17) Daniel Beddingfield-Wrap My Words Around You
*****18) Lifehouse-You And Me
**19) John Mayer-Your Body Is A Wonderland
***20) Backstreet Boys-Incomplete
***21) Frankie J ft Baby Bash-Obsession
***22) New Order-Krafty
yesh.. i've rated the song.. full marks is 5 *s..
enjoy the songs~~
I'm willing to become the angel that you love in fairytales..
Open my arms and become the wings that protects you..
You must believe..
Believe that we will be like the fairytales..
Blissfully and happiness will be our ending..~~~~~~~
tOnGhUa_*
