i just discover smth.. was lyk so happy at first.. cuz he finally got a taste of wad he did at last.. then it suddenly hit me.. im supposed to forgive him.. so y am i happy? there's nth to be happy abt.. n then i empathise wid him.. hmm.. take it easy..


tt makes me tink of my reaction.. i shldnt haf just replied smth lyk so unsensitive lyk "oh.." mabbe i shld haf comforted him.. as a fren i min.. y didnt i do it? i shld haf tink as a fren.. not at a point of revenge.. im supposed to forgive.. yepx.. i shall try to comfort him when i can find the chance..

had a nice time in church today.. i cried again.. noe y??? cuz they played my fave christian song.. STILL!!!!! i luv tt song!!!


on the way back.. got his grp of guys they board the bus at west coast park.. they were making alot of noise.. n the bus uncle got mad.. he shouted at them to shut up.. n threatened to chase them off the bus.. so the guys said ok.. then when they reach their stop.. they got off n one guy just suddenly shouted "c*** c*** b**".. then this disgusting guy just sit at the bus stop n wait for the uncle to come down n challenge them.. the uncle did waited there for awhile.. but then decided to drive on.. then tt disgusting was so happy tt he started waving his hands arnd lyk the ah meng in the mandai zoo.. dun they realise tt they r making a fool out of themselves? nobody's gonna tink tt they r lyk so drop dead cooooooooool~~~~ gosh.. teenagers nowadays....


anyway.. my church gonna haf the spook show again.. magic show.. by our senior pastor lawrence khong.. we going for the sat show.. 27/8 at 2.30pm at suntec convention hall.. tickets selling at $4.. anyone interested pls inform me asap.. hafta get the tickets..

ytd opened up alot to isaac.. he said tt i suddenly become very emotional.. hahahah..


today nth to say loh.... so damn pissed off by isaac..


today 12.45 only.. kenna woke up by jiali's call.. calling me just to tell me tt she tricked me ytd.. duhz.. then i wanna hang up the phone n go back to slp.. she dun let me.. kaoz.. where got lyk tt one?? then she keep irritating me wid her "wake up wake up" thing.. i fed up.. n just hang up.. then go baq to slp.. so nice the feeling..


then i on my phone.. wrong move!!!! isaac's msg.. so i msg baq.. wrong move again!!!!! more n more msgs.. finally.. i decided to wake up.. then he coming to meet me downstairs at 3..


everything done.. he's still havent reach.. he's lateeeeeeeeeee~~~


on the bus these two aunties very funny.. got one auntie keep irritating another one.. very obvious the other auntie wans to be quiet.. lol.. nice show.. then the irritating auntie suddenly turned n look at me.. then she go tell the other auntie to sit lyk me.. make herself comfortable on the bus.. cuz i was lying back on the glass n putting my legs up.. then she turned n smile at me.. then i smiled baq.. but i tot she's really very funny..


reached orchard.. tt isaac very girl girl loh.. even more girly then me.. nth to say.. he wans to shop but he ask me to lead.. im not coming to shop.. in the end.. we two were fighting over hu to lead.. in the end i won.. his blog say tt i tink im a queen.. wth.. lyk tt also queen.. win alrdy.. grrrrr~~~


walked to wisma.. guess wad i saw!!!! taufik's autograph session!!!! at 7pm.. wah liao.. tt's too late for the both of us lah.. isaac lah.. hafta return home at 7.. gosh.. im so pissed off by him lah.. damn isaac.. i hate u i hate u i hate u!!!!


then walked to shaw towers the isetan downstairs there.. got alot of nice jap food.. but isaac insisted on buying his bag first.. so we hafta walk allllllllll the way back to heeren.. bot his bag finally.. wid my heeren card.. yay!!! nw i got 80 pts..


then we walked alllllllllll the way baq to shaw towers to buy food.. then we sit at the mac cafe there eat.. i bot mocha ice too.. yumx.. the food damn nice..


then we walked to far east n take bus home.. on the bus i check the time.. it's 6.56pm alrdy.. 4 more mins to my taufik's autograph session.. gosh!!! missed it!!!! isaac lah.. damn him!!!! grrrrrr~~~


tml going to church.. hope can go!! hahah..

today had a fun day!!


started out by waking at 10am.. had to wake jason soh up.. first call.. voicemail.. 2nd call.. he finally picked up.. but was saying weird things.. too soft tt i cant hear properly.. then he say his legs hurt n he will call me baq ltr.. fine loh.. then call jiali but she's not going.. then i went to do my usual stuffs..


then jason soh called n say tt he's going to be late.. oh.. ok loh.. then lizhen msg me tt she;s going to be late too.. she's eating wid her mum.. ok loh.. then i call yuting.. 2 or 3 times.. but no one picked up.. i was starting to tink tt mabbe i dun wan to go anymore..


then jiali called me n chat wid me.. hey.. im chatting on phone k!!! we were toking of old times n abt all the helpers n me thingy.. tok until i left so late ltr aft yuting left her hse.. then jiali met me at the bus stop n accompany me to wait for the bus.. we tok alot again.. finally my bus came..


met yuting n lizhen.. went to eat at the sun lok noodle house.. yumx.. hahah.. then we went to the library.. cant find place to study.. so i went to look for the bk tt my sis wan.. abt adolf hitler.. yucks.. carrying tt bk in my bag is lyk bringing a murderer arnd.. the feeling sucks.. then we met jason soh.. n decided to go to the science centre's mac.. helped jiali to tink of excuse to get her out of the hse too.. lol..


but we found a place at entertainment centre.. so we sat down n start revising.. tt jason soh no use at all.. aft much explanation.. i still dun understand wads the diff between single n double bond.. then jiali met us n we went to buy tics for alot lyk love.. we forced jason soh to watch also..


finally im watching it!!! i've waited for 2 mnths for this movie.. it's damn nice.. very funny.. ashton not handsome.. amanda not pretty.. but not bad lah.. hahah..


jason soh left.. then we went back to library to study again.. i studied abit.. i finally found out wads the diff between single n double bond.. on my own loh.. haiz..........


then lizhen left.. n me n yuting went down to the cafe n read bks.. then she sent me to the bus stop n wait for my bus.. on the bus.. i met my auntie n we went home together..


we all agreed to pia ss tonite.. not slping.. hahaha.. shall seeeeeeee...

still decided to chnage anyway.. lololol..
finally found the perfect skin..
although not very nice..
but at least it expresses me..
hmmmmmmmmm..........


tml going with lizhen to library to finish up our hw..
hope can study abit of chemistry also..
im quite determined to buck up on my chemistry..
someone pls help me!!!!

hello.. im baq..
was abt to change my blogskin again..
but jason say tt this one looks nicer..
so shall not change today..


got so emo today..
i hang up my mother's phone when she dun allow me to go for the nkf performance..
n i cried..
i dunno y im lyk tt..


so many times i wan to tell my mother abt wad i've gone thru..
i wan her to go thru this time wid me..
but im often held back..
by the fact tt she will tell my father..
n my father will surely scold me with hurtful words..


i guess this thing did haf some effects on me..
i've changed alot.. n i can sense it myself..
it's hard to go thru it.. but i've got to.. hmmmmmmm...














i really miss you baby..
pls let go n find..
i really miss you baby..
love's invincible..
i believe when our love's firm..
there will be a moment to rmb in a certain yr certain month certain day..
i really miss you baby..
protecting our love..
i really miss you baby..
our story's continuing..
right her i just wish to tell you..
this song is only for you..

im going to kill bill gates one day!!


blogger is so sian..
im so lazy to blog nw..
rather change skin than blog..
mabbe even deleting it..
hmm..
anyway..
how to delete friendster account huh??
ok.. nvm..


just a few msgs for pple..


mandy: i miss ya!!!


georgina: i wan to play hai dai quan n energy quan again!!!


yuting: dear gal.. i miss ya so much!!! thx for ur kiwi birdie!!!


eunice: im going to make my revenge one day.. n i promise i will split beta than u!!!


jiali n lizhen: beta dun dua me again on the sentosa trip hoh!!!


dance members: sorry for the stupid esplanade destination.. i didnt noe there r 5 war memorials!!!


yuting, georgina, eunice, siewling, lizhen n jiali: thx for the "wonderful" dinner last nite!!!! u pple r crazy!!! i beta
keep my mouth shut.. btw.. i wan mr low.. lolx!!!


daryl: pls dun misunderstand.. they r just plain playful..


yixuan: i wan to run round wisma n taka again.. i wan to take 3 steps n then bow with u in the bus.. i wan to raise my hand when i cross the road with u..


to everyone else: u r missed, loved by sumone (me me me!!) take care!!!!

i cant slp.. it's arnd 5.10am in the morning.. in a few hrs time.. yuting will be back frm switzerland.. gosh.. miss this sweet gal man!!! most of all.. miss the present she's promise to bring back.. wahahahah..


wonder if it's cuz im too excited for the chalet tml?? huh!!! cant be.. father's day???? cant be too.. y cant i slp???????????? ever since i decided to stay up late to study for the mid-yr.. n nw it's lyk i cant slp at all!!! my auntie n my ah gong call me siao! how can lyk tt????


i just finish another half of the jacob's biscuits.. im eating jacob's brand.. hmmmm.. i support her k?? im eating her up.. then i'll be the genius in biology.... woo-hoo.. lyk got any help?? toking abt bio.. i mite as well gif up studying tt.. i've absolutely no idea wad the hell she's ranting abt.. wad is villi? wad is mutation??? errrr.... i only noe got these terms.. other than tt.. hmmm..


we gonna have a class tee.. not 4e2 i min.. but 2A'2003.. we luv our class alot.. lol.. at first we wanted wristbands.. but it has to be ordered in big numbers.. so we decided on class tees instead.. i saw the design.. but i forgot how it looks alrdy.. if im not wrong.. it's actually quite nice.. if not i wun buy it.. duhz..


the song "inside your heaven" is so nice.........!!!!!! but i tink bo bice's version sounds beta.. he's got the strength in the voice.. lyk he's really protecting u.. lololol..


shit.. y am i toking crap here in the middle of the nite??? or shld i say.. early morning.. ah... i wan to watch sunrise n catch crabs again!!!! lolol...


amanda arh amanda.. pple say tt i've become more n more crappy aft being with you leh.. how?? how can u change me until lyk tt???? lol.. yuting said tt i wasnt lyk tt in sec 1.. i was very serious gal.. but nw im becoming more crappy n talkative.. no wonder we two always kenna warned in ms chng's class.. lol..


wtf.. i dl this song "unsaid things" by mcfly just to hear it keep repeating the first verso over n over agin.. for lyk 4 mins plus.. then i chance upon this nice song "you've got a friend" by mcfly too!!!!


haha.. im really not planning to slp tonite.. i shall go to the chalet n then slp!!!!! until the bbq begins.. lol.. anyway.. i cant swim either.. stupid bike ride.. i really got my menses!!!!


i noe wad im excited abt..!!!!! it's the fact tt i'll be seeing electrico on 15th of july!!!!!! yay!!!!! lalalalalal!!!! lyk still so long.. duhz..


my pimple is still not getting any beta.. i guess i shall wait till it's one month old.. which is on the 29th.. then i shall buy a cake.. sing birthday song.. then send red eggs to all my frens.. Happy 1 Month Birthday To My Dearest Little Pimpy!!!!!! i shall then sing lullabies at nite to make it slp.. then stuff red eggs into my nose.. lolololol.. err....


actually.. wad's LOST all abt??? i watched abit.. the part where they decided to climb the hill to see if they can send any SOS signal or amth.. then got chased by some funny-looking polar bear!!!! lyk in a forest???? polar bear????


black eyed peas "my humps" refers to breast is it??? lol.. totally no sense.. but the song very cute.. i tink monkey business all the songs dun make sense one.. but all sounds very cute!!!!!


wah.. they tink it's very funny loh.. another song keeps repeating.. gosh.. but "tt gal" by mcfly is really nice tooo!!!!


shall buy another pair of slippers.. not white this time.. the white ripcurl one got so dirty.. maybe ripples?? share with lizhen.. we each buy one pair then we exchange so tt we'll have diff design.. lololol..


fine.. two more songs repeating.. im still being very patient..


one hr since i started blogging.. i havent end yet.. i wonder if i blog ltr will it hang.. wahahahaha..


guess i beta stop here.. cya all nxt time.. long long post again when i feel lyk im not going to slp again.. hahahaha..


pls do not let this hang!!!!

take a look at this website.. very nice.. all the bikinis design are lyk so cute!!!!


n then there's this website tt features nice clothes.. i found it in the mag.. havent take a look yet.. shall look ltr..


yay!!! yunz going wid me to the esplanade on 15th july.. we nw gathering pple.. lol.. wan to come inform us.. the performance is at 8pm i checked alrdy.. free admission.. it's at the outdoor theatre.. wooooot!!!



got see the report abt the kallang river corpse??? so disgusting the guy.. yucks.. big pervert.. i find tt im so lucky everytime.. i escaped frm tsunami just lyk hrs before.. this time the kallang incident.. i was cycling along it lyk only on monday nite???? gosh.. thank god man!!!!


nth much to say today.. just tt brandon came my hse again.. he's much more cheerful n luffs alot nw.. but he luvs to scream too!!!! he's so much lyk a gal.. following aft joel's footsteps.. gong??? lol.. joel is my cousin.. me, my sis n his sister hu is also my cousin n same age as me.. used to dress him up in our dresses n skirts n put make up on him.. then ask him to go out n parade himself.. lol.. tinking of it.. we r so evil.. wahahahaha...


tml's the chalet.. hehe.. not staying over.. but gonna stay late then go home.. =)




n ii dunn wanna fall to pieces..
i just wanna sit n stare at u.. O_O lol..
i dun wanna tok abt it..
n i dun wanna conversation..
i just wanna cry in front of u..
i dun wanna tok abt it..
cuz im in love with u!!!!!


siao!!

still cant manage to find my queen blogskin.. dumbass..


my fave song is she will be loved.. cuz there's a word "queen" inside.. my favourite royal character is of cuz the queen!!! i suppose u will tink tt my fave band is "queen"?? wrong!!!! cuz they r abunch of guys calling themselves queen?? yucks.. i lyk simple plan the best.. cuz they r my kings~~~ totally no connection..


went working today.. arh.. sian.. few hrs repeating the same actions over n over again.. im so sick of it.. listened to perfect 10.. got this guy call joel lim.. called in to share some things with the djs abt sebastien.. the ex-tanglinian hu entered the project superstar.. lyk so gosh.. my jaws dropped.. lolololol..


electrico performing at esplanade on 15th july.. im gonna go.. i've bked wid my father alrdy.. get his permission first.. in case he in the end dun allow.. wahahahahaha.. electrico.. im coming!!!!!!!!








beauty QUEEN of only 16~~~

finally got a new blogskin.. gosh.. it's so cute.. haha.. but i cant change the words into queen.. damn tt princess word on the pic.. nvm.. i shall not give up.. i will continue hunting for my queen skin..


went shopping wid my sister ytd at the disgusting place-orchard.. lolx.. it's so disgusting lah.. lyk i nv wanted to go there.. but since my sis wan sum shopping.. so went loh.. my aim was to eat anyway.. we shopped until 9.. then we eat galilee n frens.. i treat.. hahha.. yum yum.. only returned home at arnd 10.45pm..


gosh.. so many things crashing together on the 20th n 21st.. i want to attend all.. but i can only choose one.. firstly it's my relatives chalet.. 19-21st.. i can only go on the 19th.. then stay over till 20th morning had to go dance prac.. n they r going wild wild wet on tt day.. wah.... it's not fair.. i cannot go.. nvm.. luckily me n my frens going sentosa one of these days.. eh.. dun dua me again lyk u all did on wed last wk hoh.. lolololol.. on 20th.. there's amazing race.. hnh hnh.. then there;s dinner by liu lao shi.. woooooooooot!!!


21st there's dance prac again.. then there's tuition at.. umm.. i forgot wad time.. then i hafta go shopping wid my auntie.. she's on a holiday frm penang.. im supposed to play host.. shiok..


speaking of the buffet by liu lao shi.. i havent sort out which restaurant to go.. n am i supposed to order frm the restaurant too??? er........ shit......


im backsliding.. seriously.. frm God.. i dunno wad to do.. but i feel so unwilling to go to church.. to go for services.. or even cell grps.. but i still love God.. but my characters are changing.. im starting to build up this shell around me.. n more afraid to associate with pple nw.. giving this heck care attitude.. but actually i care alot.. hmmm.... wad shld i do?


n i just realise tt he's a BIG BIG BIG BIG LIAR!!!!

hihihihihi..
just returned frm the chalet..
lemme tell u wad happened over there..


i meet amanda at 1pm at jurong east..
then we went to eat..
ok lah.. is i eat..
while persuading yixuan to come with us..
then we went to the library to walk walk..
on the second or third floor..
we saw a gal sitting on the floor..
the jeans were so long tt we can see her g-string..
it's so disgusting lah...


then we decided to take 197 there..
the bus journey was so long..
then got one unce with BO sit rite in front of me..
i cant stand it anymore so i changed pplace..
then when he alighted i changed back to my original place..


reached the bus stop we walked all the way to the chalet..
then i realised tt i dropped my phone on the bus..
i quickly called the bus interchange pple n they offered to help me check..
then me n amanda went to rent bikes..
ride awhile..
then i offered to accompany joanne while we wait for someone to bring her slippers over..
then we pushed the bike all the way back to the chalet..
then they tell me tt the interchnage pple called back to say they've found the phone..
thank god ... phew!!!


when i returned they all were at the beach swimming alrdy..
i went down n watched them..
amanda asked me to take off my shirt cuz she did it too..
but i was kind of tinking.. hahaha..
then they asked me to help them get the sun tanning lotion..
so i went loh..
came back.. threw to them.. the guys use alrdy.. throw back to me.. win alrdy..
then jian wei suddenly ask me to pass him the lotion again.. so i went down n pass to him..
then he suddenly pulled me into the water..
but i was struggling..
then the yong jun ran up behind me n pushed me in..
oh gosh.. i drank the sea water lah..
cunning pple!!!!
so i took of my shirt also loh..
n was lying there sun tanning..
hahahah..
while they play monkey or wadever wid a soccer ball..
when i went down to the water to wash my hair..
tt yong jun kept splashing water on me..
cunning!!!!!!!!!!!
then we dig a hole to bury bifen in it.. lololol..
then i went back to the chalet first to get bifen some pure water to wash her eyes..
but isaac was frantically searching for the key for the bicycle lock..
he looked damn pissed off.. cuz we were playing while he search..
so i offered to help him search loh..


then the rest came back n were fighting for toilet to bathe..
in the end me n amanda decided to go to the swimming pool toilets to bathe..
came back n found a place to hang our laundry..
then the guys gambled n i watch..
im controlling myself k!!!
then arnd 7.30pm..
we decided to go for dinner..
they offered to go to bedok interchange to collect my hp n to eat as well..
w/o any grumbling laa!!! im so touched..
n guess how we went there??? by bikes!!!! a 45 mins journey there..
on the way there.. the guys organised themselves..
putting guys in front n behind..
n gals must be in between..
jianwei damn funny..
he just learnt to ride the bike..
so he kept falling off..
and everyone stopped for him..
one thing i was so surprised is..
me n zihao nv tok for a loong period of time alrdy..
lyk more than half a yr..
then he was behind me in the formation..
he just suddenly came tapping on my shoulders..
n we were lyk "wad" "wad" "wad"?
at least we were lyk toking..
n thruout the whole chalet we even smile at each other..


reached bedok n we eat there..
aft eating it's lyk 9+ alrdy..
so we ride bike all the way back again..
tis time taking about 30 mins only..
we split into 3 grps..
bifen n amanda speed back first cuz bifen's parents coming..
then i was left alone wid 3 or 4 guys cant rmb..
we took a shorter route back..
thx to me!!


when reached the chalet..
we found tt we were faster than bifen they all.
so i one gal wid a bunch of guys in the chalet..
they were planning smth evil..
n they make me promise not to tell anyone abt it..
so when all reached..
they made davin to go n bathe..
then they did the most evilish thing..
they videoed davin n his bathing process..
uncensored!!!!
aft that.. none of us dared to use the bathroom anymore..


then we rest awhile..
the guys played alot of games n their punishment is to drink..
40% alcohol mixed with gassy drinks..
they r mad..
especially jianwei..
he drank until he went crazy..
or mohawk as they say..
then me na amanda went chasing isaac all arnd to hear him toking to lizhen.. lol..


then at abt 1+..
we went cycling to esplanade..
the journey very long..
but very fun..
we met lyk 5 or 6 police cars on the way..
esplanade at nite is lyk nth to see.. black all the way..
then we cycled to lau pa sat n to 7-11..
we bot some refreshments there..
then the guys decided to look for toilets..
we went round n round looking for toilets..
those hotels snobbish lah..
dun allow us to use their toilets..
n make us go use the toilets in some ulu ulu place..
then we cycled back along the kallang river..
all the blangahs slping there..
we were all so tired when we raeached the chalet..


then we rest awhile there.. while most of them went to slp..
but i cldnt slp.. even with isaac's lap as my pillow..
then me n isaac went outside the chalet n lie on the stone bench outside..
no stars at all..
then brandon came out n tok..
tok awhile..
oliver came join us n we cycled to 7-11 to buy things to drink..
then we cycled to the beah outside our chalet..
then we climbed up the water breakers n sat there n watched sunrise..
then brandon n oliver got so excited over some small hermit crabs climbing up the stones..
then they went down trying to catch them with any sources available..
while im up there trying to look out for crabs..
so we went crab hunting early in the morning..


then we went back to the chalet..
watched the guys gamble again..
then me n bifen n amanda decidedc to go home..
we returned the bike but the shop havent open yet..
so we sat there for abt 45 mins chatting abt out discoveries in the chalet..
lyk we got to noe a deeper depth abt the guys' character..
then we returned the bikes n took a taxi home..


got alot of discoveries these 2 days n i really enjoyed the camps.. hahahaha..
to the pple hu nv go..
u all missed a whole lot of fun!!!!!

hi hi!!!
yay!! tml go class chalet!!
gonna stay over..
first time im allowed to stay over..
but wad if im the only gal?
heck.. gonna enjoy myself tml..


yong jun they all damn despo for gals lah..
keep asking me to bring more gals..
lyk hello.. for gdness sake...


blogger getting so sian.............

cant be bothered to argue wid my father anymore..
he did not see me studying n he assumed tt im playing all day..
then let it be.. i dun haf to prove it to him anyway..


decided to cut my hair..
wanna cut it to my shoulder length..
wan it to be short..
then wun have to bother abt tying hair every morning..
hahahahahah..

went to the english course today..
the composition tok was so damn boring lah..
we were deciding whether wan to run during the break anot..
in the end lizhen wan to stay.. so we stay loh..

luckily we stayed..
the nxt speaker was very funny..
got the whole hall roaring wid lufter.. haha


took taxi to tanglin shopping centre to buy yuting's leotard..
she's crazy..
i tink she shld just get 15 leotards.. lol..


then we walked all the way back to orchard road..
jason not a real man..
make me hold the doog for him..
i scolded him "not man" 4 times alrdy..


then me yuting lizhen n jiali left for far east..
i ate oyster mee sua n drank ice mocha..
then we all left for cine..
on the way i was using this ghostly voice n telling lizhen..
"i'm leaving.. dun miss me..."
lololololol..


left for lavender to meet my auntie n my sis..
made my sis' ic n then left for tiong bahru plaza..
found nth nice to eat..
so left for great world city..
in the end settled for crystal jade..
ate a sumptuos meal..
n then we went shopping..
bot a black tube top frm WH..
lyk the one i bot frm topshop..
then my mother agreed to let me buy a yellow top frm OP..
great reward.. wahahhaha..


i keep buying tops tops n tops..
nw i shall concentrate on bottoms bottoms n bottoms..
lololol..


jiali damn dumbass..
tuesday we went to eat sa-ka-e sushi..
then she was very full n decided to go out for a walk b4 coming back to continue..
then me n lizhen decided to trick her since it was her first time eating sushi buffet..
we took arnd 4 plates down frm the conveyor belt n put nicely on her table..
when she came back she was so shock.. lol..
she wanted to put back but i told her tt she cannot put back..
cuz the person saw it alrdy..
she was so worried..
then me n lizhen act kind heart n take down two more plates pretending tt they r very nice..
so looking at the 6 plates of sushi.. she totally dunno wad to do..
then in the end.. i said tt i help her..
n i put back one plate..
hah.. she quite clever too..
she saw me putting back.. n she realised wad happened.. lol..


tml is the last course.. wonder wad will happen.. hahahah..

woke up today at 8 wid a bad bad stomachache..
rushed to the toilet deciding to bathe n brush my teeth altogether..
finish everything at lyk 9..
wait wait wait for jiali..
finally she called me..
reach the bus stop n wait wait wait again..
then i call her..
then she tell me tt she's coming down..
oh gosh.. lyk 10.15 le lah..


reach clementi is lyk we rushing all the way..
saw some pple on the way..
ran down the slope n finally meet them..
they were lyk so pissed off..
i min yuting lizhen n yixuan..
aargh.. they were lyk staring at me lah..
n i keep telling them it's not my fault..
but they dun blif me..
still say i got history one..
oh gosh.. m i such a bad person?????
then tt dumbass jiali.. still dun admit..
n keep grinning away..


on the bus.. shao rong msged me n ask me y i so late..
i told him is not my fault loh..
then he told me tt they kenna lost in the place.. lolol..


reach the place at arnd 11.30..
wah.. the person there damn sarcastic lah..
say wad.. ask us to hurry up..
the talk started half an hr ago..
but i really did not noe mah..
mandy lah.. told me tt it atrts at 11.30..
then i jus say out loud..
"i tot it starts at 11.30?"


the tok was boring boring boring..
i was playing n slping n moving n looking all arnd..


aft the tok we walked to orchard..
ok half way we took taxi..
we were trying to hide..
cuz theree's 5 of us..
we ate at galilee's friends..
very nice!!!
especially their free flow of soup of the day..
i keep refilling..
then they very cunning..
keep making me to go refill for them..
then got this grp of guys..
they see my keep refilling..
then they were behind n saying..
"wtf.. enuff enuff.."
i damn pai seh laaaaaa.. nth to say..


then we go shop shop arnd..
took neoprints..
then yixuan dragged me n run arnd taka n wisma..
it;s lyk.. y must we run during shopping???? lololol..


tml still got course..
gonna eat sakae sushi buffet tml.. yeay!!!!


found out today tt the elmo shirt tt yi xuan gave me for my birthday was specially made..
omg.. i m so touched!!!!!


they all dua me!!!!
this wed not going wild wild wet le..
they all got lessons..
wah... i save up $30 loh..
then in the end they tell me not going....
grrrrrrrrrrrrr...


fine!

okie.. im supposed to be the female announcer of the class chalet..


Event: Class 4e2'05 Chalet
Date: 13-15 June 2005
Fees: $10


done... report to me or yong jun (preferably him)


so sian.. these few days nth happen..


cant wait to go wild wild wet this wed..
gonna have fun hahahahah..


tml got course for o lvl..
so sian.. 4 separate days..
for just 1 n a half hr course..
waste our time..
lucky is near orchard.. hahaha

STOP TEASING ME ABOUT MY BIG BIG BIG PIMPLE LAAAAAAA!!!!!


it's lyk everyone is luffing at me about my pimple these few days..
EVERYDAY!!!


dumbass-es!!!!


today dance was fun..
i kenna the emcee for today's programs..
hahahahahaha..
countdown..
for once.. i got to stand in front!!!!!!!
in the front row.. n in the middle!!!!
yay!!!!!!!
mr low asked me to be in charge of choosing a restaurant to order buffet frm..
wah.. suggestions pls..
crystal jade???? yumz!!!!!!


aft dance.. we went to eat..
then came back n slack arnd..
then we finally announce the nxt batch of committee..
then we had speech by our ex-chairman----georgina..
n every new committee head..
hahahahaha..
hope tt our tde spirit will continue on..
and live forever!!!!


then we told them of the amazing race tt we had in plan for them..
we asked everyone..
the sec 1s n the helpers..
out of all the helpers..
only daryl coming!!! ooh-hoo!!!!


we had to cast lots to see hu got hu in their grp..
im so damn suay lah.. got zhong yi..
i was lyk praying to allah!!!!
lololololo..
allah dun bless me....
then we went to ask if he's free on tt day..
guess wad he say???
no!!!!
guess allah blesses me aftall!!!! hheex!!


had alot of fun while discussing!!!!!
i luv meetings wid dance!!!!


went to collect report bk wid my auntie..
surprisingly.. i got the 11th position..!!! lol..


i was telling my sister tt day tt this song..
"from this moment" by shania twain.. makes pple feel so blissful..
it's lyk u r in a wedding urself..
lyk the world is sucha nice place..
tt ur beautiful life has just begun..
my sis just look at me n keep luffing..
maybe im too childish in tinking tt way???
hmmmmmm..


yuting told me ytd tt she tinks tt the pple arnd her r having such wonderful love lives nw..
really??? smth to ponder abt.. hahahaha..














anyway.. go listen to this song..
"everyday i love you less and less"
by kaiser chiefs..
very cute!!!!!
the lyrics very naughty also...
lolol..










frm this moment..
life has begun..
frm this moment..
u r the one..
right beside you..
is where i belong..
frm this moment on..


i gif my life to u wid all my heart..
i cant wait to live my life wid u cant wait to start..
you n i will nv be apart..
my dreams came true bcuz of you..!!!!!! =D

BLOGGER SUX!!!!!


okie.. nv hang..
gd sign.. hmmm...


gotta cut this short..
in case this stupid made-by-bill-gate computer decided to fail me again..


mr low said tt we r gonna disbatch soon..
his eyes were so watery..
but he quickly change topic n ask us wad we wan to eat on the 21st..
suddenly got this urge to just perform one damn nice dance just for him..
aftall.. he'd done so much for us..
n he said tt he's the most happy working wid us among so many batches of tanglin n other schs..


went orchard shop shop shop..
bought a sports bra n a ripcurl wallet..
those class guys shall not luff at me anymore..
cuz my sports bra is not cross backed...


yuting suddenly ask me..
wad if i see him n his gf on the street one day..
will i feel awkward..
hmmm.. hard qn to ans..
logically.. i shldn't.. cuz i've moved on..
but mentally.. im prepared to feel any gush of old feelings again..
wadever..


heard this song on the radio the other day..
the lyrics made me switched off the radio immediately..
n i sat in a corner hugging my legs n thinking hard again..
hard to forget..
but still i hafta forget..
no use brooding on..
he wun return..
ok.. when he return..
there's only 3 days for me to tink abt him..
aft tt.. it's no more.. officially on to my o lvl..


My Immortal
Evanescence

I'm so tired of being here
Suppressed by all my childish fears
And if you have to leave
I wish that you would just leave
Cause your presence still lingers here
And it won't leave me alone

These wounds won't seem to heal
This pain is just too real
There's just too much that time can not erase

When you cried, I'd wipe away all of your tears
When you'd scream, I'd fight away all of your fears
And I held your hand through all of these years
But you still have all of me

You used to captivate me by your resonating light
Now I'm bound by the life you left behind
Your face it haunts my once pleasant dreams
Your voice it chased away all the sanity in me

These wounds won't seem to heal
This pain is just too real
There's just too much that time can not erase

When you cried, I'd wipe away all of your tears
When you'd scream, I'd fight away all of your fears
And I held your hand through all of these years
But you still have all of me

I've tried so hard to tell myself that you're gone
But though you're still with me
I've been alone all along

When you cried, I'd wipe away all of your tears
When you'd scream, I'd fight away all of your fears
I held your hand through all of these years
But you still have all of me






anyway.. on to more serious stuffs..


HAPPY BIRTHDAY MY DEAREST XUANIEEEEE//*


be pretty n keep loving me!!!!!! =D
-seOwhUii-'05

today dance was.....


CRAZY!!!!!


ok.. i was the crazy one..
fine lah........
cuz pple excited mah..
back to dancing after such a long break mah..
tao yan... lyk tt say pple..
they say tt i was so abnormally me today..
cuz i was jumping all arnd n doing sum stupid actions..
but i tot tt was the usual me??
i min beta than me sitting at one corner n sulking away..
refusing to tok to anyone..
tt is then so abnormally MEEEEE!!!


we settled tt these coming wed we'll be going wild wild wet to craze!!!
yay!!! first time going..
cant wait for all the excitement..
n of cuz.. hunks!!! lololol..


nt buying bikini le..
nt buying phone also..
phone is i willing to give up one loh..
bikini is my parents force..
hahahaha..
nvm..
shall use the money for a big shopping spree..
summore nw is the GSS festival!!!!
ooh-hoooooo~~~
tml going out wid yuting to shop..
shall see wad i can come back with..


gonna give yixuan a big surprise..
hahahahahaha..
shhhhh~~~

lalalalalalal..
GSS here i come!!!!!

chnaged my blogskin!!!
cuz the former one cldnt see anything at all..
had no choice but to change..
if not i can only see my tagboard..


cld not wake up to go work..
hahaha.. nvm..
went to jurong library wid jiali instead..
did two chapts of phy tys..
amanda.. im a hardworking gal..
we only left bcuz the library was too coldddddd~~


walked arnd jurong east..
so sian..
ate kfc.. yumx..
bot things n went home..


bot seventeen magazine..
doing a feature on bikini..
but none nice..
hmmmmm..


told my parents abt nokia 7260..
nw it's priced at $98..
if i trade in my phone..
i cld get it at below $58..
wahahahahaha..
they agreed.. nw is when....


shall haf a new phone..
wid camera..
n most important.. RADIO!!!!!!
nw i wun be bored on bus journies anymore!!!!


anyway.. amanda wans to go sun tan too!!!!


amanda loves me!!!! wheeeee~~~

whoopie~~~
finished my o lvl chinese exam..
finally...
hahah.. actually..
o lvl quite fun..
got sticker to paste summore..
n it's lyk THAT table belongs to u!!!!


did not go out in the end with jiali, yuting n lizhen..
my mother was sick..
hmmmmmmmmm...


just nw i tried to test my mother..
i told her tt i wan to go to work tml..
so as to buy bikini..
i was waiting for a lecture on the amount of exposure i'll get wearing a bikini..
but surprisingly..
she did not scold me..
instead she told me of the times tt i can go for work..
woooo-hooooo~~~


anyway.. listen to "all i want for christmas is you" by my chemical romance..
quite nice.. so sweet.. hahahaha..


"was i out of my head..
was i out of my mind..
how could i ever been so blind..
i was waiting for an indication..
it was hard to find.."

i tink tt i'm really healed..
i dun even cry for him nw..
it's lyk just so naturally..
n suddenly..
tt u dun feel anything towards things tt he did or did not do..
just lyk wad lizhen had say..
we both feel sorry for the new girl..
ok.. i shall not be too bad towards pple..


suddenly.. i just grown stronger..
n i've also realised the most important thing for me now..
yeah.. o lvls..


yepx yepx..
he's just sumone hu visited my beach once..
made a deep imprint on the sand..
but nw the waves had washed it clear..


just ran thru the whole chi dict..
the best txtbk for chi.. lol..
yeah.. im studying a dict for chi o lvl..
im so pro....


sorry pple if i take a very long time to reply ur msgs sumtimes..
cuz nw i prefer to place my hp far far away frm me..
lolollololol..


anyway.. new *songs*..
"Scar" by Papa Roach.. (nice!!!)
"We Believe" by Good Charlotte.. (not bad)
"Let Me Go" by Three Doors Down.. (nice!!)









"You love me but you don't know who I am.. So let me go.."

just returned frm a wedding dinner..
my relative smth smth..
damn grand lah....


he is an army officer..
so got 10 sword bearers holding their swords n built a bridge for them to pass thru..
then even recorded down their whole wedding ceremony..
then they still come in on the buggy car..
so damn nice lah...
but then hoh..
their choice of song is lyk...
"all out of love" by air supply..
"without you" by mariah carey..
where got pple play sad song on wedding dinner one????


but nvtheless.. it's so grand...
nxt time i shall haf a nice wedding too..
preferably at the esplanade..
i'll take my wedding pics at the esplanade too..
then my wedding theme song will be "from this moment on"..
hahahah..
i'll make my wedding a very informal one..
every guest will be given a shit hat..
since i lyk shit so much..
when taking pic..
they hafta act cute..
then they will receive an elmo to take home..
wahahahahhaa..
and together we will sing elmo song..


woo-hoo!!!!!!
i lurve my wedding..
will be damn memorable..
hahahahahahahah..


dumbass lizhen..
she went to buy her bikini today loh..
nv wait for me... wah wah wha..
she bot my Dior2Addict also...
grrrrrrrr...


anyway.. i tink i look lyk a street directory..
everyone lyks to ask me for street directions i dunno y..
hmmmm.. mabbe i look too square??
then i will look lyk mr ng????
wah............

yay!!!!!
jason giving me his little hamster baby!!!
so cute!!!!!
thx thx thx cunning jason.. lololol..


ltr at nite going to wedding dinner..
it's been a long time since i go to a dinner..
shall be a feast tonite..
hmm.. gaining a few kilos is not a problem..
hahahahahah..


one mnth b4 jason can gimme..
haiz.. hols so sian.......
nvm.. it's worth the wait!!!!!!


hamster hamster here i come~~~

shldnt haf gone sch today...
tt dumbass yixuan..
told me to go sch for picnic..
i brought 6 pieces of bread ok?????
then i found out tt she nv cum...............


sch was BORING!!!
whole day do 2 chi paper only..
the rest of the time i was playing dai dee wid the 4e3 guys..
i keep winning loh..
they wanted to bet with me then the loser had to strip..
but in the end is they lose..
dumbasssssssss.....


aft sch went orchard wid lizhen..
dunnp wads happening today..
there's so many JC students in orchard..
we went to eat pastamania.....
yum yum~~


then walked arnd to look at bikinis again..
in the end..
2 shuai ge n jasmine came to meet us..
the 2 shuai ges r isaac n hanif..
went esplanade wid them..


omigawd..
today esplanade is so full of activities..
got alot of performance..
got one paris band played the saxophone families..
they r so funny.. keep interacting with the audiences..
then suddenly another member will appear out of nowhere..
if not they will suddenly include an audience in n make stupid actions with them..
so cute laaaaaaa...


nxt fri going again..
me n lizhen set liao!!!!!


then we went home..
isaac n hanif damn funny..
hanif keep pinching isaac's neh neh..
i wonder if it drops off.. lolololol..


i still love my Dior2Addict!!!!!!!!!!!!!

i guess tt when a person is down..
everything arnd him or her seems so outta place..


i cld even earn a scolding when i present my parents wid a form to sign..
got an standing ovation frm my father for my results..
cld not even blog.. dumbass bill gates..
forgot to bringa new bottle of shampoo..
had to run all the way to my room in towels..


how unlucky can i get?????


but then..
at the end of every storm is a rainbow..
i truly blif in this..
cuz.......


i've got my bottle of Dior2Addict!!!!!!!!!


whoopie!!!!!!!!


im so damn happy...
thx to my auntie..
she's so cute..
just b4 i take my nap..
she called n ask me wads the brand of the perfume tt i wan..


then when i woke up..
she told me tt she nv buy..
i was lyk so disappointed..
then i saw it...........
on the table in the living rm..
i screamed laaaaaaaaaa..


Dior2Addict Dior2Addict Dior2Addict Dior2Addict Dior2Addict!!!!


tml going sch to picnic wid yixuan..



lolololol..

he's got a gf.....
hmmmm..
im kinda happy for him....
hope he really find his happiness..


today went tuition..
was in a gd mood..
so did most of the qn correct..
i tink i do things according mood..


then prepared..
bathed..
used my new strawberry body foam!!!
i smelled lyk strawberry once again!
then went down to meet jiali..
but i rmb i havent spray perfume..
so went up to spray perfume..
then went down..
jiali say she smelled my perfume..
n rmb she wan to spray impulse..
so we went up to spray again..


then we took 143 to orchard..
had a hard time communicating with yuting..
i had to sound as if they keep changing place..
in the end they told jiali they at isetan..
jiali tot is the shaw isetan..
so had no choice but to stop at far east there..


then we walked all the way back to taka..
there.. we celebrated jiali's birthday!!!
we asked her to open the present..
it's the precious moment crystal ball tt i rmbed tt she wanted..
n we made her tell us which one she lyk w/o letting her noe tt it's her present..
genius huh? lololol..
then we were waiting her to cry..
but tt heartless pig..
refused to drop any tears of joy!!!!!!!
not fun!
then it's fun time...
i spread cream on her face....
tt's lyk bcuming a tradition..


then we went to far east...
walked awhile..
decided to take neo prints..
the queue was lyk damn long...
in the end finally our turn..
it's lyk one of us is surely out of the pic..
hard to take all 4...


then yuting had to leave...
we went pac plaza..
nth to see.. boring..


then we went all the way to paragon plaza cuz i nid to go toilet..
yah yah.. toilet..
i lurve paragon toilet..!!!!!
jiali n lizhen nv go there b4...
nw they;ve fallen in love with the toilet too!!!!
then we shopped in paragon..
while waiting for kian kai n shanling to meet us..
we saw them just nw..
so cute..


saw a halter top in topshop..
damn nice.. $19..
aft much consideration decided to buy it..


then went heeren..
jiali bot her 37 degree pencil box..
then we walked to ps..
along the way..
went to og toilet..
hmm not bad.. but paragon beta..
lolololol..


went to ps's flash n splash..
i tink....
bot a ripcurl slippers at $21.90..
n a roxy pencil box at $12.90..
wah.. i spent so much today..
im having a shopping spree today.. lol..


eat ljs.. n went home...


found out shan ling is quite a nice gal..
very cute..... lolololol..














anyway..














HAPPY HAPPY HAPPY HAPPY SWEET SIXTEEN BIRTHDAY TO CHEN JIALI, OUR FUTURE TAIWAN FEMALE PRESIDENT!!!!


anyway.. she wans me to tell all of u..

"thx for all tt u've done.. n im really touched.."
=D

____

____ ____
God Bless
____ U! ____



____


The 4 most important words in my life~~
-Grace
-Mercy
-Love
-Forgiveness


i cant ever imagine wad i'll be w/o these 4 words in my life..
they shape my characters in life..
my attitude towards pple..














to love some one is to set him free.. if he belongs to u.. he will return..


to stead will bring 2 person closer as he will regard u as part of him..


i wan a man hu is willing to wait 4 me cuz his love is strong enuff to overcome time.. nt sum1 hu wans to start nw juz cuz he's leaving soon..


y do i keep asking pple for advices to deal with my relationship problems? i shld follow my heart instead..


if u really love a person.. the feeling will nv decrease..


chatting with him use to bring me pleasure.. now it's more of a torture..


ur the magic of my life..


there's no winner in the game of love.. once u let ur heart fall. u've lost..


i've nv tot it wld be so hard to forget u..














God will never give you the man of your life until you are happy with Him..


i shall concentrate on tt frm nw on..














mama.. im so afraid to slp...~~~

oooh.. finally got my phone working again..
hahahaha.. i've changed my number..
pls get frm me myself..


i dun lyk hi-card..
hmm.. i've to pay half of it myself..
summore it's lyk constantly telling u ur balance..
lyk u owe the loanshark money lyk tt..
sian..........


today was my first lesson wid my cousin..
he's such a headache..
he saw two numbers in the question..
then he'll be lyk.. "orh.. this one times this one ryt?"
then i say no..
then he will.." this one divide by this one ryt?"
no..
"then this one plus this one lah..?"
no..
"orh.. i noe le.. this one minus this.."
er... ok.... fine..


then i treated them to eat ice cream..
im such a nice tcher.. lololol..


ooh-hoo.. planned dance camp wid jiali..
amazing race gonne be so fun..
at least to me.. hahahahah...
had alot of fun while planning..
hahahahaha..


b;ah blah blah..
monday going out!!! yay!!!!


nth much today..
so.. tatats!!!

it just take some time..
little girl.. ur in the middle of the ride..
everything everything will be just fine..
everything everything will be alryt alryt..


this song serves as an encouragement for me..
i shall truly truly truly forget him some day!!!!


but there's always smth tt stops me..
lyk i was seeing jiali's friendster account..
n i came across him..
oh gosh.. he uploaded pics..
n tt pic look damn nice laaaaaaarrr..


grrrrrr... wadever..


tml.. is a very.. very.. very.. very.. very bbbbbiiiiiiiiiiiiiggggggggggg day..
it will be a historic moment..
when I, Ong Seow Hui, is gonna be a tuition teacher!!!!
i will be teaching maths to my cousin..
earning $40 every month..


but.. but..


i dun even noe wad pri level is he..


dumbass!!!!!!!!


i was dreaming of being a very gd teacher..
anyway.. i lyk him best among my cousins!!!
i shall buy some thing for him as an encouragement n as a gift on our first day of tuition..
but first.... wad pri level is he in??????


dumbass.....


it's coming to 2 o'clock..
hmm.. shld i go out..
shld i not?
shld i? shld i not? shld i? shld i not?


haiyer.. so frustrating..
my parents asked me to come home n look aft my ah gong..
but he keeps running out of house to go to the void deck n tok to his frens..
n im stuck at home in the end!!!
then those dumbass frens i've got..
haaa.. dumbass frens..
actually tempted me deliberately to make me go out..
oh my gosh.. how can they treat me lyk tt???
to tink i treat them so gd.. *sob sob*
but they tempted me!!!!!


arh.. rubbish!


i shall buy a hi-card one of these days..
then i can use my phone again..
ahahahaha...













I believe that time heals all wounds..
But how long?

u noe i cant smile without u!!!
-colgate advert



so cute!!!!!



hahahaha..
ok.. basically.. im crazy today..
i've had nth beta to do so i stayed at home..
i promised myself to stay at home..
n i did!!! *claps*



blah blah blah..
jiali said tt she;s so touched wid my speech..
hey.. i nv touch u...
dun malign me!!!!


blah blah blah...


pple keep tinking tt having a bf or gf is cool..
well.. i dun tink so..
at least we dun haf to face the probs tt couples do face..
phew~~~~ just the tot of it scares me..
hahahaha.. i tink i shall be destined to be single..

anyway.. singlehood rules!!!!


tml shall be another window shopping day!!!
yayayay!!! more clothes trying..
more bonding...
n we gonna make the shop assistant cry.. hahahaha..


You know I can't smile without you!!!!!

phew~~~~~
finally.. one last paper to go..
one last dumbass-extra-nth-to-do-waste-paper-waste-resources-come-out-for-fun-dunno-wad-they-wan-actually-just-4-dumb-options-for-u-to-choose-frm mcq paper..


lolx..


ok.. fine..
i shall study real hard for tt dumbass paper..


yay!!!
finally changed my blogskin..
got sick of the heart design too..
came across this colourful n a nice nice song..
heheheheheh..


was so sick today...
i keep sneezing n sneezing away..
ewwwwwwww..
i cant really concentrate also..
cant tink at all..
all the formulas i've studied has gone to waste..
i decided to give up n let my nose decide my future..
wadever~~~
it was until tt last 15 min did i recover..
n i tried to save wadever tt can be saved..


but i guess.. hmmm....


went out wid lizhen n jiali..
altho i had not a single cent in my pocket..
we went to suntec..
went window shopping..
n tried on every clothes tt we lay our eyes on..
actually.. window shopping feels gd too..
lolololol..


tml no sch!!! yay!!!!!!
they all keep tempting me to go out..
no.. im gonna "ren"!!!
im gonna stuck at home these few days..
then go out n craze on monday..


oh yah.. toking abt tt..
it's jiali's burfday on monday..
so it;s part of her celebration too!!!


Happy Early Birthday!!!


my turn to give a speech..


ahem*


Dear Jiali,
my dearest Jia Jia, 16 loh!! mai siao siao arh!! (sound familiar?? u told me tt on my burfday too.. hahaha..) Sweet Sixteen!!! New phase of life, new way of tinking, new image, etc.. But must keep the old friends.. no throwing!!!! thx for all the times just sitting beside me n hearing my probs.. thx for giving me the advices.. thx for comforting me.. thx for encouraging me.. aiyah.. wadever.. anyway.. im a gd gd christian.. im a gd gd citizen too.. so must only cross the road when the green man lights up.. cannot dash across the road.. cannot throw wrappers on bus.. must learn frm me arh.. anyway.. im older than u.. i eat more salt than u eat rice.. lolololol.. the best gingers r the old one.. you must listen to the old one.. if nt u suffer.. actually.. im not tt old lah.. just lyk 2 mnths older than u.. ok.. shhhhh~~ i'll cut my crap!!! nw must be very very very very quiet.. pls put ur ear to the screen if u cant hear anything......................................























JIALI ARH!!!!!!!!! HAPPY BIRTHDAY LAAAAAAAAAA!!!!!!









lolx.. dumbass!!!!


k lah.. my speech very long leh.. anyway.. i wun ever forget the day when we went all the way to sentosa just to see somebody.... *hint*hint*!!!!



PS: im gonna be the first woman president of singapore!!!!! whahahahaha!!!! u'll be the president of taiwan then!!! then u can come over to my istana n drink coffee.. i'll go over to ur istana to eat oyster mee sua.. hahahahahahah..


PSPS: psst~~ *kissing sounds* muacks.. i lurve u!!!!!



wid luv n hugs n sugar n sweet n sugar icing n all the sweet things under the world..
it's ur gd gd christian
-seOwhUii-'05 =D



anyway.. back to serious stuffs..
those r just for fun.. =P


thx for all the care n concern..
my ah gong's fine!!!!!
but he lost the necklace tt i gave him..
hmm.. it's alright..
as long as he's alright!!

oh gosh..
i was awoken with a shocking news..
i heard my mother talking to sumone over the phone abt my grandfather..
she said tt his reaction was suddenly very slow..
n he seems not to understand..
or process what we r trying to say to him..
he cant even rmb some things..


i started praying in my slp..
i min.. how can it be??
he's so healthy like a strong bull..
he goes walking every evening..
how can it be tt he suddenly become lyk tt???


then i came out n ask my grandfather if he knew what his name is..
then he say ya..
ok.. at least..


then my parents started to measure his blood pressure..
it's damn high..
170++..
normal shld be only arnd 110..
hey.. i learn bio..


they asked him to go n see doctor but he dun wan..
but i insisted..
even if nth happened.. also can take it as a health check up..
pls.. dun underestimate ur body..
u can say tt i force him to..
hahahahhaa..


luckily i insisted..
the doctor said tt he nearly had a stroke just nw..
luckily he was sitting..
the blood pressure is being pulled down..


nw he's in hospital for check up..
only me n my sis at home..
i took out my bible n read n read n read..
n i keep on praying..
i know tt he will be alright wid the Lord's strength..


before he went hospital..
i took down my cross necklace..
i said a prayer..
n slipped it into his pocket..
hope tt it will bring him protection.. =D














hope tt my ah gong will be alright~~

hhex.. happy ending..
altho not as beautiful as a fairytale one..
but nvtheless..
better than we r being enemified..


i was so happy today tt i kept jumping all arnd..
got $30 frm the chingay organisation as a token of appreciation..
wow.. nxt yr i shall join again..
one min of fame on tv..
free cca n cip points..
n $30!!!!
wah.. very worth it leh..
lolololol...


im suddenly so in love with "love me tender"..
it'a an old song by elvis presley..
darn sweet lah!!!!!!!...
love it!!!!!!!


pple r changing..
everyone arnd me..
i dunno if they have notice..
i suddenly realised tt im not the only one hu has changed..
for this im glad..
but the thing is the pple arnd me are getting frm bad to worse..
oh god.. pls help!!!!!1

he say i seemed sad..
do i??




but then again..




hu is he to care????





alot of things went thru my mind ytd nite..
so much tt it even scares me..
they haunt me thruout the nite..
i cant even slp peacefully..


i've been tinking alot lately..
nw im started to wonder if ryan's speaking the truth when he say tt i've got white hair..


it's lyk.. how did i end up in such a mess???


we started out as strangers..
i dun even noe his existance in sch..
till tt day i suddenly see his name in my friendster list..
then we chatted..
suddenly.. alot..
until one day he told me tt he lyk me..
i struggled alot since then..
anyway.. it's not easy moving on frm a 2 yr stupid craze over a guy..


nw it's lyk the roles have changed..
im the one under mental torture nw..


anyway..
i've sent him back the msg tt he once sent me..
the msg tt i once treasured so much..
he's outta my head nw.. i hope so.......














When I look at what my life's becoming to..
I'm all about loving you~~

----------------------------------------------------------------


anyway.. on to serious stuffs..
i'm becoming a tutor.. hehh..
teaching a p4 or p3 kid..
my cousin actually..
$40 per month.. not bad huh??
subject? maths.. lol.. my lousiest subject..
but pri work should be no problem for me??
i hope so tooooooo..













What have I done?
You seem to move on easy..~~

lalalalalalala...
went imm wid my aunties n cousins today..
i wore my elmo shirt!!!
so cuteeeeeeee!!!!
lololololol..


it's lyk eating n eating n eating..
hahahahhahaha.. then we keep buying shirt..
cuz we keep seeing discount everywhere..
i bot 2 fila shirt..
\n i keep eating..
then i keep pplaying with my cousin..
then the three of us bot the same braclet together..
very nice..
n i bot a matching anklet too..


i dated my sister n my cousin on the 23rd of may..
we will be going out together wid my other frens..
to celebrate the end of exam..
n jia jia's bdae..
im really going to craze.. hehehehe..


listening to "love me tender" by norah jones..
it's damn sweet....


love me tender.. love me true..
all my dreams fulfilled..
oh my darling i love you..
n i always willlllllllllllll!!!!


lolx.. =D


oh yah.. btw.. saw a tank top ytd at 37 degrees..
it has the word "Queenie" on it..
damn lah.... grrrrrr..
i spot a tube tt's very nice also..


ryan is crazieeee...
he say tt i ask him to go tuitioon so tt he can accompany me..
oh god.. siaooooooooo..


blah blah blah..


gd luck to pple having exams..
aft tt..
as i've promised..
we'll PLAY HARD!!!!
wheeeeeeee~~~~

yay!!! can use com again thx to my sis..
she has completed her mid yr exams..
my mother decided to let her take a break..
me toooooo!!!


had geog n a maths paper today..
it was bad.. totally bad..
i studied so hard for amaths..
but the qns turned out to be rubbish..


then went to clementi with yuting n lizhen..
wanted to go watch movie..
then in the end sqw amanda waiting for her lawrence..
so i decided to wait too..
i wan to scold tt blangadeshboy for making my honey wait so long..
but in the end i changed my mind..
i min.. i can see blangadesh all arnd loh..
y must wait for him so special??


so we went to the interchange..
ran into wen xuan n asked her to help us make a decision on where to go..
while i was asking..
yuting was looking behind me n was lyk "eh...?"
then i turn arnd..
ooh.. him again!!!!
i quickly turned arnd lah..
so pai seh loh..
anyway.. he changed alot.. hahahahah..
lyk so weird.. met him thrice in just a mere 3 mnths..
but only once in lyk a period of 2 yrs!!!


then decided to go esplanade..
wah.. i cld just stay there for one whole day if no one disturbs me..
the scenery was so nice even though it;s hot..
the breeze was cooling too!!!


then we went to the library..
booked the screening rm n watch abit of billy elliot..
funny show.. but the slang was too hard to understand..


then me n lizhen went to watch the outdoor performance..
but yuting had to leave first..
the performance was great..
very nice.. the vocal was nice..


then we watched awhile the guys at the underground..
they were doing breakdancing..
coool!!!!!!!


then we went to citylink n get cup noodle n mee siam frm the 7-11..
then we sit in the midst of citylink n eat..
everyone was staring at us..
lolololol.. we r artistic!!!!!!!


i realised tt whenever i go out wid lizhen..
there;s sure to be a big theme..
on mother's day.. it was "Mother"!!!
on tues.. it was "Study"!!!
today.. it was "Artistic"!!!


lolololol..














Love me tender, love me sweet..
Never let me go..
You have made my life complete..
And I love you so..........................................












"It's all about YOU!!!!!"

heeexx..
under pressure nw as i typed..
im not supposed to online..
but heck..
nth to do either..


had bio prac on tuesday..
was so damn boring lah..
i started "cooking" my seed soup wid jellyfish..
lalalalalala..


ytd had ss n emaths paper 1..
i tot tt the emaths paper 1 was rather easy..
hahahahahhaa..
it's lyk jus simply common sense n some formula..


today had lit paper n science prac..
im so damn fed up wid chem prac..
i was heating the solution n it popped n burn my hand..
ggggrrrrrrr..
i very fed up n decided not to do anymore..
then got one is ask u to add some solution till it's alkaline..
u have the solution wid litmus paper..
but i dunno which colour to use..
so i just assumed tt it's alkaline when a change happened..
wadever laaaaaaaa..
but luckily i clever..
behind got the chem notes..
n i just deduced the results frm there..
phy prac was easy..


i wonder if there's any side effects frm the burning..


aargh.. i shld have just listened to patricia n do the heating myself during lessons..
nw i hate heating..


wah.. i feel lyk im a totally changed person..
dunno y.. heck.. wadever..














it's lyk.. just one "yes" n i wld have agreed..
but u decided to gif up before u even try..
how am i ever going to feel secure wid u..
if u just give up?
just one "yes".. just an assurance.. just a security..
tt's all i nid..
but u cant gimme..
wad more can i ask for?













i tried to go on lyk i never knew you.. im awake but my world is half asleep.. i pray for this heart to be unbroken.. but without you all im going to be is.. incomplete..........

this wld be my third time writing this blog post..
my com keeps failing me..
wadever!!!


had eng n chi papers for the last 2 days..
it was ok i guess..


im quite happy today..
cuz i finally realised smth..
i told him tt i dun wan to watch movie alrdy..
so he asked me y..
i told him to concentrate on his studies n work..
i dun wan to bother him..
guess wads his reply..
"oh.. ok.. sorry abt tt.."
lyk wth..
at least he cld haf tell me tt im not botherling him..
he did not even stop me frm cancelling the thing or smth..
tt's when i realised how worthless i am in his eyes..
n how i've been loving him in vain..


i suddenly tot of "collide" by howie day..
"even the best fall down sometimes.."
i guess life isnt a breeze..
i've gotta accept defeat sometimes..
face it bravely.. seowhui..
u can do it! =D


isaac told me smth tt i tot was quite true..
he say tt god will only send u someone when u r happy wid god..
i guess he's right..
yepx..
so now i can just concentrate on fulfilling my promise wid god..
tt is.. no bf until aft my o lvl..
mabbe even longer..
i dunno......
depends.. until the day tt im happy wid god..


anyway.. my phone line has been terminated..
so i'll not be using tt line anymore..


i can sense new hp coming my way!!!!


but i still lyk my 3100..
it's full of memories n memories n memories..
lololololol..


it's mothers' day tis sunday..
i havent buy anything for my mother yet..
gonna ask my sister n see whether she wans to go out tml to shop for smth..


anyway.. i've got a new name..
im ah seow.. lolol..
gary's ah soh..
amanda n lizhen are ah li (ali)..
but i prefer to call lizhen ah wee..
nicer lah..
n amanda mandy!!


tml's 2.4km run..
hope i can really pass this time!!!!
gonna run wid maimunah n we'll encourage each other!!
go mai.. go mai!!!
go seowhui.. go seowhui!!!


anyway.. just got news today tt TDE will be perfoming in esplanade during national day..
yay!!!!! finally got the chance to fulfil my dream!!!
hehe!!!




It's all about you.........??
It's nothing more about you..~~~

i tink this song is so perfect.......
for a broken hearted..









Goin' Crazy
Natalie
--------------
Ever since the day you went away
And left me lonely and cold
My life just hasn't been the same
Oh baby no
When I looked into your eyes
The moment that I let you go I just broke down (down)

Baby if I ever get the chance to be with you again I would sacrifice
'Cause the feelin that I feel within no other man
Would ever make me feel so right
It's nice to smile when I get your phone call at night
But I'd rather have you here with me
Right next to me
And I miss the way you hold me tight

I've got to let you know I feel so weak without your touch
I never thought that I could ever love a man so much
I've gotta let you know I think that we are destiny
For you I'd cross the world for you
I'd do anything

That's right baby
I'm goin' crazy
I need to be your lady
I've been thinking lately
That you and me, yes we can make it
Just ride with me, roll with me
I'm in love with you (baby)

That's right baby
Im goin' crazy
I need to be your lady
I've been thinking lately
That you and me, yes we can make it
Just ride with me, roll with me
I'm in love with you (baby)

Break it down now I'll tell you what I feel
From the moment that I met you it's been so damn real
My heart seems to skip another beat every time we speak
Can't believe I feel so weak
Tell me that you really need me
And you want me
And you miss me
And you love me
I'm your lady
I'll be around waiting for you
Put it down be the woman for you

I'm falling so deep for you
Crazy over you I'm calling
Callin' out to you
What am I gonna do?
It's true no frontin'
It's you ain't no other
I can no longer go on without you
I'll just break down (down)

I've got to let you know I feel so weak without your touch
I never thought that I could ever love a man so much
I've gotta let you know I think that we are destiny
For you I'd cross the world for you
I'd do anything

That's right baby
I'm goin' crazy
I need to be your lady
I've been thinking lately
That you and me, yes we can make it
Just ride with me, roll with me
I'm in love with you (baby)

That's right baby
I'm goin' crazy
I need to be your lady
I've been thinking lately
That you and me, yes we can make it
Just ride with me, roll with me
I'm in love with you (baby)

ooo, crazy,(ooo)
lady (ooo)
lately (ooo)
Baby

I gotta let you know I feel so weak without your touch
I never know that I could ever love a man so much
I gotta let you know I think that we are destiny
For you I'll cross the world
For you I'll do anything

That's right baby
I'm going crazy
I need to be your lady
I've been thinking lately
That you and me
Yes we can make it
Just ride with me and roll with me
I'm in love with you baby
------------------------------


yoz........
had a great night studying yesterday..
cuz i did 3 papers..
phy, maths and eng!!!
i did accomplished smth..
and i bathed with cooling water..
tt really wakes me up..
lolololol..


went to sch n first thing is ask amanda to confiscate my phone..
i dunno y but the sight of it irks me nw..
lolololol..
bifen say tt im a sm..
SM=Sex Maniac..
and she feels so sorry for my phone..


had ss for the first period..
i copied down all the points..
can u blif it??
oh god..
n i actually did the question wid a long answer..
lololol..
so untypically me..
i guess it's the post-no-hp-syndrome..
it's a gd syndrome.. lol..


then it's maths..
i did my papers luckily..
if not i'll be sitting in the hot sun..
during the whole maths period..
i was writing out the lyrics of "it's all about you" on my foolscap..
i dunno y but i really love tt song..
it's so darn sweet lah!!!!


then it's phy..
i did my papers too..
just tt sum qn dunno how to do..


then it's recess..
i force amanda to eat the western food wid me!!
lololol..


then bio passed peacefully..
but i got 5/20 for my genetic test..
lololol..


then is english..
woah.. ms chng pms..
i was teaching yuting chi n she asked me to stop toking..
fine laaaaaaaaaaa....


chi was damn sian lah..
listening compre again..
me n amanda arrived late cuz we went toilet..
then i saw the tables were separated..
n the guys keep calling my name..
then yixuan told me it's listening compre..
at first i just anyhow shade the circles..
cuz i wasnt paying attention..
then in the end i realised tt there were alot more students in the rm..
oooooooh.. so it was a listening compre for mid year exam..
luckily i realised it..
so i quickly do all over..


then end sch..
got oral ltr..
so sian..
ask us to gather at 2.45..
in the end only got it at arnd 4+..


my examiner was mdm ji!!!!!
thank god!!!
i can communicate with her easier..
hahahahaha..
she started off by asking me why i wasnt earlier..
if not she can ask me to go down n buy drink for her..
i was lyk "huh?"


then oral was fine..
waited for jiali n lizhen while doing my hw..
did another maths paper..
wid alot of skipped qns.. =P


weilong treated me cornetto ice cream..
n i taught chrestella differentiation..


then we went home..


guess wad i found out surprisingly???
i realised my weight had gone down 3kg..
frm the former 52kg to the current 49kg..
yay!!!!!!!!!


just read amanda's blog..
she so sweet..
she wrote a post just for me..
cuz i told her tt she's too sensitive to pple tt she always feel affected by pple..
thus causing her bad mood..
so i told her whenever u cant stand smth..
or u wan to tolerate..
use my method..
cross ur index n middle finger n close ur eyes..
take a deep breath..
n say "ren!" =DD


I believe in you
I swear that forever from today
No one will ever take your place
I believe in you
And I believe our love will last always

If I could only let you know
I'll give up everything I own
For just one more day with you
There's nothingI wouldn't do
I couldn't let it slip away
If I made every sacrifice
For just one more day with you
If only we could live twice..
If only we could live twice..

back to blogging again!!!
yay!!!
my parents went genting today..
i only got to noe when they sms me when i was having medical check up..
so bad.. nv bring us along..
but i guess we get allowance for this??
lolololol..
i will force money out of their pocket..

alot of things happened these few days..
today had lit n we were watching grp 1 doing their act..
but me n amanda were lying on the floor n playing wid our legs..
lololololol..
we were observing socks..
mine was a "love"ly socks..
hers was kappa one..
lolololol..
shaorong acting damn gd..
the only one tt keeps making us luff..

then aft sch had eng oral..
as usual..
tt dumbass ryan always got smth to do to me..
grrrrrrrrrr..
cant even sit in peace..

i guess i must haf been damn lucky..
cuz jus as i was going to start..
mrs chng had to go for an important meeting wid the principal..
she said tt it mite be a gd news for me..
which actually is..
then she wished me gd luck n asked me to relax..
sumtimes i feel tt she can be quite a nice lady too.. =D

i got ms chng..
during one qns.. i got stuck..
then she also got stuck at the qns tt she going to ask nxt..
then we were luffing..
oh wadever..
fake lufter.. actually..

when going home..
jiali said tt lawrence called amanda to ask abt her internal bleeding..
then she said tt i make it sound lyk a very big thing..
i dun feel gd abt it..
so i kept quiet..
i min.. im trying to show concern..
but u all tink tt im exaggerating..
fine laaaaaaaaaa...

when i was bathing..
i really felt lyk breaking down n cry...
again........
but i held back... hmmm...


hmmmmmm...

"if a person really loves another person alot.. the feeling will nv decrease.."

the person hu said this quote was the one hu proved it wrong..
hmmmmmmmmm..
i dunno hu to trust nw..

i hate going schs nowadays..
i cant even concentrate in classes..
i hafta luff along wid my frens..
show them tt im alright..
but deep down.. im damn hurt..

but as i said..
i dun lyk to open up..
jiali wans me to open up more..
but i tink i failed her..
sorry..
i tink im more comfortable wid not telling my problems out..

i just felt lyk screaming at everybody..
haiz....
wadever happened to me???

im tinking of canceling the movie thing..
i min.. he dun sound willing..
n i dun really wans it anymore..
wads the point??
wadever..
i shall not ask him anymore things..
i beta keep my phone in control..
i dun wan to msg him anymore..

i quite lyk jennifer lopez n fat joe's hold u down..
very sweet..
the background music sounds lyk fairytale..
lolololool..

"Just gimme one more day..
Gimme another night..
I need a second chance..
This time i'll get it right..
I say it one last time..
I gotta let you noe..
I've gotta change your mind..
I'll never let you go.."
New Order-Krafty!!!!