oh fuck.. wad happened to all these pple arnd me??????? y is everyone not treasuring themselves?? y is everyone thinking tt they r not worth to live at all??? its either money, relationship problem.. y r everyone letting satan to control them?? oh.. jus fuck off.. satan!

no matter wad.. im gonna help them.. i have to.. they r all ym frens........ i dun wan to see them falling into the traps of the devil.........................................................................................................

btw.. take a look at this.. http://www.prolognet.qc.ca/clyde/illumin.htm

thank God i finally woke him to his senses!!!! im really starting to blif the power of prayers..

ok.. baq to ytd.. oh yah.. peeps.. jus forget abt wad u read on my blog.. i min the previous post.. lalalalala..

yeah.. me n my sis took a cab to tampines mall to meet my second auntie and joel.. so cute... and she gave us $25 each for our xmas present.. thankew! then we went arnd shopping for earrings n necklace.. but cant find anything nice.. in the end.. i bluff my auntie into buying clips for me.. hahah.. i told her tt if she luv me.. she must buy it for me.. then she tell she dun luv me.. wah liao.. nvm.. then i told her buy this as my farewell gift then.. lolx.. n she bot.. too bad.. then we went to burger king n eat onion rings and drink while waiting for my big auntie and my cousin n her baby brandon.. n my cousin's sis.. oh yah.. my cousin's sis is not my cousin actually.. cuz my cousin has 2 fathers u see.. the first father was my father's brother.. but he died.. then her mother married again n gave birth to my cousin's sis.. so we r not cousin's lah.. while waiting.. my auntie started toking abt relationship problems again.. oh.. gimme a break man! then she told us of her ex-admirer hu was kinda "sort" in his mind.. he went following her and calling her to tok abt herbs.. and my auntie avoided him.. then i told her tt she tink too much.. mabbe the guy only tot tt she's looks sick n wan to gif her medicine.. hahahahah.. yeah.. so she continued tt she heard tt this admirer had died.. n we were lyk so shocked.. u noe goosebumps.. yucks.. haha.. then joel wanted to go try the fortune teller machine outside BK.. u noe the one tt u put ur hand in n then they calculate ur life by ur palm??? n it cost $1.. so i told him tt i can do the same too by jus 50 cents.. jus put ur hand inside my mouth.. hahahaha.. so he did.. n the results were actually umm.. quite real.. the funniest thing was he only had 3 stars for love life.. but 6 stars for sex life.. n i was luffing lyk crazy.. i told my auntie to beware of him having ONS in the future.. hahahahaha.. but he's a guy.. so nvm.. lolx..

then we walked to metro to meet my big auntie n my couz n my baby brandon and my couz's sis.. phew~ then we went to the pariss international buffet to eat.. damn nice.. so many oyster.. n raw food.. lolx.. i eat till i drop.. i tink i ate no less than 10 oysters.. n alot of raw salmon.. n prawns n crab.. n blah.. wadever.. they were alrdy lyk cant eat anymore.. but i continued.. haha.. n baby brandon was so excited to see us eat.. he kept smiling n screaming.. hahaha.. actually wanted to go bugis aft tt.. cuz another of my couz Elaine was at bugis wid her fren.. but then she say she wanna cum tampines mall to meet us.. so nvm loh..

then we went shopped arnd tampines mall awhile.. i bot xmas cards at life bkshop.. so frens.. be ready to see my card at ur mailbox.. wahahhaa.. then i went into yamaha music sch n looked at the lessons schedule.. all the lessons for 12 and above were guitar ones.. no piano.. kinda disappointed lah.. then went to popular n further bluff my second auntie into buying foolscap pad and pens for me.. hahaha..

then we went to metro to shop.. me n my sis went to the mrt station to pick elaine up.. then my sis treated us to bubble tea.. then elaine told us of how she got cheated of $28.. for lyk a free facial treatment.. lolx.. then we went to find them n shopped arnd metro.. so sian.. nth to see one.. i tink the only things i was interested in were prom dresses, bras, n the beach dresses.. nth else.. erm.. actaully alot lah.. haha.. we were trying hard to hide our bubble teas frm the security guard's eyes..

then we continued shopping arnd loh.. lalalal.. went to kiddy palace and saw 3 elmo milkbottle.. so damn cute!!!!!! almost wanted to buy.. lol.. then me my sis n elaine went to take neoprints.. we dunno wad to pose so we used the scissors paper stone method.. lolx.. so funny.. then we hafta go home alrdy.. u noe.. wid my aunties.. we will nv shop ltr then 6pm.. hahaha.. got used le..

oh yah.. my necklace broke while i was in toy r us.. so bad.. im looking for necklace now.. w/o pendant.. anyone find can tell me?? cheap ones hoh.. thx..

then i spend the nite scolding him n toking to him.. n of cuz praying n crying for him.. finally i woke him up.. yay!!! my efforts havent gone down the drain.. then he told me he took pic wid elmo n bot me a elmo.. lolx.. elmo-hater bot elmo for me.. so funny.. so im gonna haf 3 elmos this xmas.. one elmo pencil case frm yuting.. one elmo mabbe frm isaac n him too.. wahhaha.. elmo i luv u!

this sat hope can go church again.. b4 i leave for penang.. but i doubt.. i havent been going to work at all.. n my parents were lyk.. lose hopes in us.. lolx.. but me n my sis didnt really wan money this hols.. so we were alrite wid it.. but my sis damn cunning.. go n tell my mother tt we not going to work cuz i cannot wake up.. when she herself dun wanna go too.. yeah.. so im going to get the blame tonite.. sian.. nvm.. hope i can go for church.. but i definitely cant go big splash lah.. haiz..

jus a reminder: im going penang on 21-26.. xmas in penang!!!! wah liao.. nvm.. anything still can msg me.. but i wun reply.. cuz i got no auto roam i tink.. so i mite leave my phone @ s'pore.. or mabbe i shld bing it along?? cuz my whole family going penang.. ltr thief cum into our hse.. touchwood~ arh.. see first lah.. wadever way.. i still cant reply to ur msg.. tt's my msg to ya.. haha.. tatas~~

first of all.. promise me tt u wun ask me abt this aft u read.. no matter how curious u r.. thx..

hmmm.. i jus went to read his blog.. and my mood was kinda affected by it.. actually since ytd when he told me smth.. i cldnt slp at all.. i spent the whole nyt worshipping God.. n crying as i do tt.. hoping tt God will do sum miracle in his life.. n i was very worried.. cuz he did not reply my msgs since last nyt.. so i actually tot tt he really did it.. but i guess my worshipping did pay off.. cuz he did not do it.. so thank God!

hmm.. i didnt noe tt he was so troubled.. i dunno wad he's feeling abt me now.. but it must have been really terrible.. hmm.. i told him tt i luv him.. i actually told him.. but he dun blif me.. oh well.. no one really blifs me when i say i love you to them.. cuz im always saying it to pple jokingly.. no one noes when i m serious when i said tt.. so heck.. dun tink i'll ever say it anymore.. then he came n tell me tt he's so troubled by this gal hu told him tt she lurve him too.. of cuz i was hurt.. but i pretended tt im not.. n i told him to be wid her if he really lurves her.. i pretended lyk im not gonna be affected at all.. then he told me tt he dun wan to be wid her.. of cuz im bcame happy immediately.. but he said tt he is still troubled by it.. so at tt moment.. i realised tt i haf been happy over nth.. cuz i realised tt he is not very certain of his feelings either.. lyk wad he had told me tt i am.. i realised tt i've really brought so much miseries to him.. i had really hurt him so much.. im always missing chances in my life.. haiz...

i dunno whether his feelings for me has changed.. but mine definitely have not.. but then again.. i dunno wad i'll feel tml.........................................

to those future potential tag board abusers:

pls use ur brain..
my tag board is not a place for u to play..
cuz im too talented in blocking out ur comments..
i haf my smiley attack!!!!!
btw.. thx for the comment..

with love,
seowhui!!

i cant blif im online playing yahoo pools wid nadz n weiliang.. i min.. i've nv had interest in all these online games except Tripeaks.. wahaha.. tt's the best game.. nahz... nvm.. im still abit confused at how it's played.. but nvm.. jus anyhow play lah.. haha..

There She Goes
Sixpence None The Richer
--------------------------------
There she goes
There she goes again
Racing through my brain
And I just can't contain
This feeling that remains

There she goes
There she goes again
Pulsing through my veins
And I just can't contain
This feeling that remains

There she goes
(There she goes again)
There she goes again
(There she goes again)
Racing through my brain
(There she goes)
And I just can't contain
This feeling that remains

There she goes
There she goes again
She calls my name
She pulls my train
No one else could heal my pain
And I just can't contain
This feeling that remains

There she goes
(She calls my name)
There she goes again
(She calls my name)
Chasing down my lane
(She calls my name)
And I just can't contain
This feeling that remains

There she goes
(There she goes again)
There she goes
(There she goes again)
There she goes

this song is so sweet.. hahah.. it's the jewellery advert's song..

wah.. i cant help feeling sorry for myself when i tink abt spending christmas in penang.. wad is this.. i wanna go church party.. i wanna watch TEENS LODI.. it;s actually our own church idol.. but we r not suppose to worship any idols.. so we called it lodi instead.. n geraldine's in it.. tt's y i wanna go.. ooh.. wish her best of luck.. but the host is not fun.. tt day we had a little sneak preview of the host n his hosting skills.. n i was lyk "uh-huh.. n so?" but it's so much beta than spending christmas in penang!! nvm.. im gonna shop till i drop.. anyone wan christmas present frm penang?? lolx..

im banned frm going out.. starting frm today.. lolx.. i tink will last until cum baq frm penang.. hope so.. but nvm.. i've bot wad i wanted.. a bag n earrings.. but not slippers.. oh my poor slippers..

okie.. n so now's the big secret.. im gonna reveal y i walk ugly.. hahahaha.. but as a matter of fact.. i dun tink i walk ugly.. i tot it was fun.. ok.. cut my crap.. now im accepting guesses.. any guesses y i walk this way??? haha.. sum say i walk lyk ah lian (hmm).. ur wrong! sum say i walk lyk im having menses everyday (do i?).. ure wrong! sum say i walk lyk i haf sex b4 (oh gosh!).. ure wrong! sum say i walk lyk pregnant lady.. ur... absolutely rite!!! haha.. cuz i copied this walking style frm a pregnant woman.. ok.. it was my p5 tcher.. mrs khoo.. i still rmb.. she was pregnant.. n she had this way of walking which was very funny.. n being as cheeky as i am.. i copied her.. n thus.. making all my frens luffing.. and gradually.. i adopted this bad habit.. i bcame addicted to it.. lolx.. n now my father insist tt i MUZ learn walking again.. he even blame it on the slippers i haf n ask me to buy a new pair.. tt's y im searching for slippers now.. but i cant find... nvm.. anyway.. i dun intend to change my walking style yet.. hahahah.. but anyone hu wans to learn walking ettiquette can cum n find me too.. lolx..

Too Serious Too Soon
Gareth Gates
--------------------------
I wonder where you are
I wonder what you're thinking of tonight
I wonder

Maybe you're alone
Maybe you've been crying just like me
I wonder

I don't know why I lost your touch
Maybe I wanted to be loved too much

Too serious too soon
I wanted you to love me
I wanted to be there for you, like no-one else before
Too serious too soon
I wanted you to love me
It's been a rainy afternoon
And now I'm staring at the moon, thinking
We got too serious too soon

I told you every day
I told you every night in every way
I love you

Maybe you've got scared
Maybe I had nothing else to say
But I love you

So baby, now my life's a mess
'Cause I couldn't love you any less

Too serious too soon
I wanted you to love me
I wanted to be there for you, like no-one else before
Too serious too soon
I wanted you to love me
It's been a rainy afternoon
And now I'm staring at the moon, thinking
We got too serious too soon

Too soon...

It's not right, it's not fair
Missing you, baby, cuts like a knife
What if you were the love of my life

Too serious too soon
I wanted you to love me
I wanted to be there for you, like no-one else before
Too serious too soon
I wanted you to love me
We got too serious too soon

I wanted to be there for you, like no-one else before
Too serious too soon
I wanted you to love me
It's been a rainy afternoon
And now I'm staring at the moon, thinking
We got too serious too soon

I Promise
Stacie Oricco
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Will I always be there for you
When you need someone
Will I be that one you need
Will I do all my best to
To protect you
When the tears get near your eyes
Will I be the one that's by your side

Will I be there when you call me in the middle of the night
Will i keep the rain from fallin down into your life
I promise, I promise
I promise I will

Will I take tender care of you
Take your darkest night
And make it bright for you
Will I be there to make you strong
And to lean on
When this world has turned so cold
Will I be the one that's there to hold

Will I be there when you call me in the middle of the night
Will I keep the rain from falling down into your life
I promise, I promise
I promise, I promise
I promise I will, yeah

And I love you more every day
And nothing will take that love away
When you need someone
I'll promise I'll be there for you
There for you

Will I be there when you call me in the middle of the night
Will I keep the rain from falling down into your life
I promise, I promise
I promise I will, yeah

And I promise
And I promise
I will be there when you call me
And I promise
I promise
I promise I will

i noe this song is quite long alrdy.. but it's really nice.. so doesnt matter the age.. haha..

let ya see wad i bought today.. haha.. my reward was great..

i bot this bag frm far east.. at only $16.70.. it;s damn cheao.. even my mother said it was cheap.. so it's definitely cheap.. haha..



let's take a closer look..



and then i bot a pair of earrings.. finally..



but i dun lyk the hook behind it.. i dun lyk hook earrings.. but.. hahah.. nice can liao..
actually wanted to spend my last $30 on an Op handbag.. but then i came across this bag at far east.. it's cheaper summore.. mite as well buy this one.. haha..

then let's see the pics i've taken this 2 days..



we r the queenie and princess.. lol..



i wan to eat strawberries!



i wanne lick her smooth cheeks..



peek-a-boo.. lolx..

well.. the last 2 photos is deco by me.. it cldnt b yuting.. she's not so lame enuff.. to go n ryt "we r in luv" on the first one n "we r still in luv" on the 2nd one.. haha.. n the peek-a-boo pose was tot by me.. haha..

let's go on to lizhen..

i'll pick a few tt's nice..



she's my baby.. smile!!



lemme present.. the bdae gurl!!



frens forever!



it's butt business.. so.. kiss our ass..

needless to say.. the butt business pose was by me too.. lolx..

ok.. let's tok abt today..

went to clementi to meet lizhen and han bing.. then we took train to plaza sing.. n bot shutter's ticket.. ooh-hoo.. finally watched it.. haha.. sorrie nadz.. u said u dun wan to watch anymore.. so i nv call u along.. i really nv break my promise! haha.. but b4 the movie.. we still got lyk an hr.. so we went to gelare to eat waffle wid ice cream.. yumz.. haha.. then we sat there watching a performance.. it was damn lame! then we went arnd.. i was searching for elmo toy.. but cldnt find.. nvm.. then we went to cinema.. i wanted to buy mineral water.. n when i wanted to pay.. umm.. guess how much is the mineral water?? ans: $2.20.. wah liao.. was it sum kind of magical water or wad??? siao.. then we were crapping abt whether i shld drink the water or treasure it.. n bringing it home n frame it up.. lol.. then we went into the theatre.. not bad.. one ticket price for 2 shows.. shutter and temptation island.. haha.. in front.. behind.. side.. all got temptation island.. especially the one in front n beside me.. wah.. hug here.. kiss there.. ooh-hoo.. im in for a treat.. hahahahahaha. then the pple in the cinema were screaming all over.. i wanted to join in the fun too.. so i screamed aft they screamed.. n han bing was lyk "ur so damn slow.." i playing only mah.. then until got one part i really scream.. tt's y i say not bad.. it's the first horror movie tt is able to make me scream.. haha..

aft movie we walked to heeren.. me and han bing were suaning each other.. n i asked lizhen if we cum out to fite.. haha.. he was lame.. i was lame.. n we were competing against each other to win the lamest title.. n i kept eating n eating.. cant blame me.. i only had waffle wid ice cream for breakfast and lunch loh.. then we went to take photo.. so nice.. my tummy was flat today.. haha.. then we walked to wisma.. on the way.. got alot of pple gif us nivea oil regulating foam.. i guess we look oily huh?? lol.. then we went to shop arnd wisma.. watched a band perform.. the saxophone was so nice.. but the vocal spoiled it.. damn.. then we went to pac plaza.. saw my adidas shoes again.. now it's only $159.. $10 cheaper.. then we went to far east to shop.. saw the bag and i bot it.. then han bing went for dunno wad job interview.. hahahahahahahhahahaha.. good luck... *smirkZ* then me n lizhen were lyk phew.. finally can shop.. n we took photos again.. then we each bot a pair of earring at hula n co.. for only $2.90.. y today lyk everything so cheap??? haha.. then we took bus home..

on the bus.. i was reading my bk n listening to mp3 till arnd sch there.. suddenly i heard sumone shout.. n i raised my head jus in time to see one ah peh hitting another ah peh on the bus.. omg!!!! it's not the first time.. ytd on the bus.. i also saw two ah pehs also ended up fighting.. umm.. it goes lyk this:

got this ah peh.. he was sitting n he stretched out his leg.. n then he will scold everyone hu tripped over his leg.. then he keep mumbling to himself (scolding actually).. then he kept asking gurls to sit beside him.. but no gurls wan lah.. then until chinatown.. got another ah peh came up.. i tink he is drunk.. so he tripped over ah peh 1's leg.. n ah peh 1 started scolding again.. then ah peh 2 was so angry he scolded baq.. then he wanted to sit.. but ah peh 1 dun allow.. he even moved n sit on both the space.. n ah peh 2 was so pissed off he hit ah peh 1's legs n jus moved in to sit.. of cuz ah peh 1 wun gif up.. so ah peh 1 continued scolding n pointing at ah peh 2.. and ah peh 2 stuck his finger at ah peh 1.. but ah peh 1 wasnt gonna gif up so easily.. ah peh 1 continued scolding.. n then ah peh 2 got so fed up he slapped ah peh 1 on his cheeks.. oh gosh! n ah peh 1 was so intimidated tt he stopped immediately.. holding on to his cheeks.. ah peh 1 dare not face ah peh 2.. but occasionally turn over and stared at ah peh 2.. and ah peh 2 will also occasionally stared baq at ah peh 1.. actually it was kinda cute sight.. seeing two ah pehs behaving at such an age..

whats the problems wid ah pehs nowadays???????

today so many things happen.. tt im not interested to tok abt ytd.. let's tok abt today..

duhz... jason telling me he saw prostitute before.. lyk it was such a big deal.. i also see b4.. wu liao.. he see old pros.. i see transexual one.. still got wad u wan me to see?? i see b4 prostitute.. i see b4 porn web.. i see b4 pple masturbating.. but nv see ghost b4.. i wld lyk to see one.. hahaha.. i min i wan "it" to be complete one.. dun wan lost one limb or wad.. hahah.. choy choy.. touch wood.. hahahah

ooh.. i went church today.. omg.. i cant blif i cried... i went in lyk.. so determined tt im gonna feel god's presence today.. so i went in n i started praying to god tt im here today.. even though i dun lyk this church.. but im sure i will feel ur presence today.. so grant me concentration.. so tt i will not be distracted.. i noe i;ve sin alot this wk.. so cum n open up my heart.. search deep into it.. fill my heart wid ur presence n love.. i wanna feel ur love.. n alot more.. and as i prayed.. my tears started welling up.. n b4 i knew it.. i was crying.. i felt it.. the power was so strong..

[[ Come to His court ]]
[[ With praise on our lips ]]
[[ Our bodies and minds and our souls worship Him ]]
[[ Bow on our knees ]]
[[ And lift up our hands ]]
[[ Joining the angels above ]]
[[ Declaring ]]
[[ Holy, Holy ]]
[[ Is the LORD God Almighty ]]
[[ Who was and is ]]
[[ And is to come ]]
[[ Holy, Holy ]]
[[ Is the LORD God Almighty ]]
[[ Who was and is ]]
[[ And is to come ]]






Over the mountains and the seas
Your river runs with love for me
And I will open up my heart
And let the Healer set me free

I'm happy to be in the truth
And I will daily live for You
For I will always sing of when Your love came down

Over the mountains and the seas
Your river runs with love for me
And I will open up my heart
And let the Healer set me free

I'm happy to be in the truth
And I will daily live for You
For I will always sing of when Your love came down

I could sing of Your love forever
I could sing of Your love forever
I could sing of Your love forever
I could sing of Your love forever

Oh I feel like dancing
It's foolishness I know
When the world has seen the Light
They will dance with joy like we're dancing now

I could sing of Your love forever
I could sing of Your love forever
I could sing of Your love forever
I could sing of Your love forever








ooooooooooooh~~~~~~

God is:
The Way
The Truth
The Life

yay!!! photobucket working again... let's see all the stupid things i;ve drawn...



i promise.................................. cuz............................



but..........................................



lalalalalalalallalala.......................................



yay.. appletart luvs cupcake.. lolx..



maroon 5 rawks..





too!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!



josh groban not bad too..



MERRY CHRISTMAS EVERYONE!!!!!!

my all time faves... n it sumhows express was i feel..

Come On
Ben Jelen
------------
And finally the silence
Looking out, looking back across the sky
Trying to find a meaning
Knowing that I just left it all behind
Still I smell a lingering softness
Where did she go
How did she go
I wanna wanna know
I wanna know that she'll be coming here to me

[CHORUS:]
Come on
Without you I'll never feel the love inside of me
Come on, you know that we belong
Come on, come on, come on, come on

Thinking back before her
I never knew the meaning of alone
Still the flag is feeling foreign
I live the day to escape into a phone
Speaking of a world not real then
Where did she go
How did she go
I wanna wanna know
I wanna know that she'll be coming here to me

[CHORUS]

Cause shes sharp for kisses
And my heart misses
She's coming
She's coming here to me
I'm needing
Desiring to kiss her now
I'm living for her
Breathing for her
Singing for her fairytale

[CHORUS (2x)]

Come on..

True
Ryan Cabrera
-----------------
I won't talk
I won't breathe
I won't move 'til you finally see
That you belong with me

You might think I don't look
But deep inside the corner of my mind
I'm attached to you

I'm weak, it's true
'Cause I'm afraid to know the answer
Do you want me too?
'Cause my heart keeps falling faster

I've waited all my life
To cross this line
To the only thing that's true
So I will not hide
It's time to try
Anything to be with you
All my life I've waited
This is true

You don't know what you do
Everytime you walk into the room
I'm afraid to move

I'm weak, it's true
I'm just scared to know the ending
Do you see me too?
Do you even know you met me?

I've waited all my life to cross this line
To the only thing that's true
So I will not hide
It's time to try
Anything to be with you
All my life I've waited
This is true

I know when I go
I'll be on my way to you
The way that's true

I've waited all my life to cross this line
To the only thing that's true
So I will not hide
It's time to try anything to be with you
All my life I've waited
This is true

Say Goodbye
S Club 7
----------------
In the years to come
Will you think about these moments that we shared
In the years to come
Are you gonna think it over
And how we lived each day with no regrets

Nothing lasts forever though we want it to
The road ahead holds different dreams for me and you

Sometimes goodbye, though it hurts in your heart,is the only way for destiny
Sometimes goodbye, though it hurts,is the only way now for you and me
Though it's the hardest thing to say
I'll miss your love in every way
So say goodbye
But don't you cry
'Cause true love never dies

In a year from now
Maybe there'll be thing we'll wish we'd never said
In a year from now
Maybe we'll see each other
Standing on the same street corner though it rains

Each and every end is always written in the stars
If only I could stop the world
I'd make this last

Sometimes goodbye, though it hurts in your heart,is the only way for destiny
Sometimes goodbye, though it hurts,is the only way now for you and me
Though it's the hardest thing to say
I'll miss your love in every way
So say goodbye (so say goodbye)
But don't you cry
'Cause true love never dies

And when you need my arms to run into
I'll comfort you
Nothing will ever change the way I feel

Sometimes goodbye, though it hurts in your heart,is the only way for destiny
Sometimes goodbye, though it hurts,is the only way now for you and me
Though it's the hardest thing to say
I'll miss your love in every day
So say goodbye
But don't you cry
Because a true love never dies

Have You Ever
S Club 7
-------------------
Sometimes it's wrong to walk away though you think it's over
Knowing there's so much more to say
Suddenly the moment's gone
And all your dreams are upside down
You just want to change the way the world goes round

Tell me

Have you ever loved and lost somebody
Wished there was a chance to say I'm sorry
Can't you see
That's the way I feel, about you and me... baby
Have you ever felt that your heart was breaking
Looking down the road you should be taking
I should know...cause I loved and lost the day I let you go

Can't help but think that this is wrong, we should be together
Back in your arms where I belong
Now I've finally realised It was forever that I've found
I'd give it all to change the way the world goes round

Tell me

Have you ever loved and lost somebody
Wished there was a chance to say I'm sorry
Can't you see
That's the way I feel... about you and me... baby
Have you ever felt that your heart was breaking
Looking down the road you should be taking
I should know...cause I loved and lost the day I let you go

I really wanna hear you say that you know just how it feels
To have it all and let it slip away, can't you see
Even though the moments gone I'm still holding on somehow
Wishing I could change the way the world goes round

Tell me

Have you ever loved and lost somebody
Wished there was a chance to say I'm sorry
Can't you see (oooOOoo)
That's the way I feel, about you and me, baby
Have you ever felt that your heart was breaking
Looking down the road you should be taking i should know(I should know...)
Cause I loved and lost the day I let (yes i loved and lost) the day i let you go

Why
M2M
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VERSE 1
Why don't you call me
Are you afraid?
Your friends all told me
You think I'm all that

PRE-CHORUS 1
Well it don't make sense
It's just craziness
Ooh I need to know where were at

CHORUS
Wondering why, you're acting this way baby
Wondering why, you can't find any words to say
Maybe someone told you a lie
Or maybe you're just being shy
Keep wondering why

VERSE 2
Why when you see me
You pretend I'm not there
But when I see your eyes
Somehow you seem to care

PRE-CHORUS 2
Unbelievable, inconceivable
Need to know if we're going anywhere

CHORUS
PRE-CHORUS 1
CHORUS

y lyk all sad songs??? arh.. forget it.. i'll go see whether photobucket is ready..

haiyer.. i drawn so many nice drawings.. but photobucket is under maintainance.. i cant get the url yet.. sorrie.. hafta wait.. but minwhile.. i post them at fotki.com.. go my links n click on my pics...

so it's confirmed.. tt i'll be going penang frm 21-25.. but wun reach s'pore till 26.. wah liao.. christmas in penang... wad the.... i wanna go church christmas party at fort canning hill.. (anyone interested pls call yuting..) but now i cant.. but nvm.. my father allowed me to go countdown party.. lol.. me n lizhen n mabbe joleen will be at orchard (i tink) till very late.. anyone interested pls call me.. lol..

i cant wait for my adidas shoes.. will it be sold out?? oh god.. no pls.. ytd when i told my father abt the shoes n the price.. he was so shocked tt he asked me whether i can fly wid tt shoes on.. lolololol.. hmm.. mabbe??? i can flyyyyyy to the moon.... if u teach me how.. lol..

gary told me tt they patched again... yay!!! im so happy for them!!! i min.. the other party is really very gd.. i seen her b4.. she really treat gary very gd.. now tt they r patched again... im so so damn happy for them.. hope tt this one will last long.. lol..

hmm.. seeing them happy.. makes me tink abt my own probs... er.. ok.. wun say it here.. nvm.. u happy.. i happy.. everybody's happy.. wad m i toking abt.. arh.. forget it..

lemme go n do more drawings.. lolx.. im addicted to "paint" now..

im really bored.. see wad i did while chatting wid my mates online..



i did this b4 i went chalet.. juz anyhow draw...

then came baq frm chalet.. decided to improvise on it.. n this is my results..



it's so so much beta.. lolx.. cute too..

then i decided to jus focuz on the key word..



tada~ this is the most important word.. lol

then i went on to smth other than queen.. elmo.. tt is..



whoopie~ elmo luvs u.. arent u happy?? n honoured?? lol..

then i decided to combine the elmo lil pic i haf wid this masterpiece..

my results:



dun tink it works very well.. but.. heck.. elmo's inside.. lol..

conclusion: i really had nth to do...

hello!!!!!!!!!!! i jus came baq frm my chalet.. sorrie for not telling u all.. causing so many pple to miss me so much!!!!! lolx.. my tagboard's flooded... wid joleen n gary's poodie msgs.. lol..

yay!!! i jus dl taufik n sly's i dream.. n singidol's tt's wad frens r for.. taufik's really so great!!!! he's album cuming out in dec i heard frm the fm station.. anyone buying?????

first day went to my auntie's hse to meet them.. then took bus to DE.. waited for another aunite.. then we went to check in.. then we go walk walk arnd.. alalalalalal... nth to do one.. sian.. then slack inside chalet... then we haf bbq... umm.. is my aunties bbq... we children eat.. lolx.. we were watching evolution.. the show was so damn lame.. it's trying to promote "head and shoulders shampoo" i tink.. lol.. they used tt shampoo and shoot it inside the alien's arse n kill it.. so damn lame.... then my mood was dampen abit by smth tt happened lah.. then we went to arcade.. even more sian... mabbe 4 yrs ago i'll be interested in arcades.. but not now.. i've been trained by my mother to detest arcade... i hate the noise.. n the pple inside... gals cum for boys n boys cum for gals.. sian...

then went baq to chalet.. ooh-hoooo.. jus opp our rm.. got another rm full of shuai ge... gary.. r u jealous??? i can see but u cant c!!!! lol... then we gambled.. n slp..

second day... they all woke up so early.. then keep trying to wake me up.. hmm.. so sorrie.. i've got my own definition of "morning".. then i played badminton wid nur jie (my auntie's maid).. im quite gd wid her actually... so i actually told her wad happened.. n she say it's so sad... very difficult too.. blah blah.. n she look lyk she almost cried.. lol.. we had steamboat for dinner tt nite... n cupcake tripped over the x box wire n fell... her mother (my auntie) was so angry.. but i tried to calm her down.. i min.. u cum chalet to scold pple??? NO WAY! then me n my cous wanted to go out to walk walk.. the security guard is giving this fuuuuu... god bless attitude... i wanted another chop on my couz hand.. cuz she washed it away.. n we've got to pay $1 for entrance.. so i wanted another chop.. then he mumbled to himself y we r so "disturble"..... wad the.............. i almost wanted to ask him y he so "despicable"...... there's no such word as disturble loh... god really bless this man... then we went for nyt swim.. lolx.. the lifeguard very handsome.. only one i min.. lolx... but we were competing against each other...

third day morning.. they wake up so damn early again..... nth to do.... the small couz came waking me again... asking me to bring them to the swimming pool..... but i refused to wake up... so i asked them to go first.... i'll meet them in the swimming pool... then arnd 1pm then i wake up.. i slack arnd n watch the 3 aunties play mahjong cards.. w/o brushing my teeth yet.. lolx... then i joined them in their gossip.. lolx.... then i went swimming pool to meet them..... the wild wild wet is jus bside the swimming pool.. i suddenly got the urge to jus jump ove the fence n get into wild wild wet.. lol... then we swim awhile... then went baq to chalet.. to eat lunch... then we slack arnd.. watch them play x box... then ate kfc for dinner.. then went to arcade to fight for the last nite.. hahahah...i nv really play....... then we took alot of photos there..... alot of elmo!!!!! hehehe.. then we gambled till slp...

today woke up everyone was walking arnd packing their things.. then we went home..

actually the whole chalet thingy is very fun.. but my auntie kept toking abt my realationship blah blah.. until i very fed up.. lol.. then she told me to wait till 18 to get a bf... "The world is still so big.. y r u sticking urself to one tree? be the top apple.."

ok.. the top apple goes lyk tis... cuz women r always called as apple.. n on the apple tree.. the bad apple r always the ones on the bottom of the tree falling to the ground.. mining those pple hu easily fell in luv wid pple... so we shld be the top apple on the tree... hard but wld luv to get.. lol.. then i ask my couz y r we called apple... y not coconuts??? then guys r bananas.. lolx..

actually i tot it sound reasonable.. n im tinking of making this commitment.. lolx..

but then the whole chalet mood was lighten up... cuz it's the sesame street season in DE.. so the whole place was full of sesame street characters!!! ELMO!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! lolx...

thruout the whole chalet.. i brought my elmo along.. n my couz.. ming ming brot along his doggie soft toy.. called "cupcake".. lolx.. then my sis call my elmo "appletart".. n i was lyk "cupcake.. appletart luvs u.." lolx.. the doggie was really cute.. got his smell.. n everyone say it was smelly.. but i tot it was soooooo cupcake.. lolx.. i luv it so much.. in the end they told me the dog was a present frm my mother.. wah liao.. win alrdy.. nv buy dog for me..

[[ . a p p l e t a r t l u r v e s c u p c a k e . ]] lol..

cant wait to go out wid gary this fri.. so long nv go out wid him le.. hahah..

yay.. i can get my adidas shoes alrdy... cuz my aunties they all went to the jackpot rm in the chalet.. n lost lyk few hundred.. so we kid cant go to escape or wild wild wet.. then my auntie say ask my father for christmas present.. then she add in abit too.. then i also add in abit.. to get the shoe.. yay yay!!!!

seems lyk this whole chalet ended up wid smth gd too!!! lol

todae orchard got alot of funny stuffs happening.. got the band performance.. yucks.. i hate tt band.. they tink tt they r lyk so talented.. the bass guitarist was lyk act dao.. then another guitarist jumping all arnd lyk mad.. n their songs absolutely sux.. then got dance performance.. then we walked pass a guy hu tok lyk a gal.. his voice.. wah liao.. we burst out luffing.. then got this man n a gal suddenly came up to us n tok alot of crapz.. in the end wan us to donate money.. no money.. sorrie.. then got 4 poodles in clothes on a pillar.. no owner lyk tt.. everyone crowding arnd to watch the doggies.. soooooo cute..

hmmm.. todae li zhen n joleen encouraged me to go ahead wid him.. actually i agree wid them.. haiz.. im at lost.. i dunno wad to do.............................................................. sumbody help me.......

my whole kneecap covered in blue blacks now.. lolx.. but i guess im the most lucky one.. cuz others always got stepped by others.. got got cut by sharp things when they dance.. so there's alot of scars over their leg.. im the only hu only haf blue blacks.. lol..

wah.. today when i cum online.. got 2 pple cum n ask me wad happened to me in my blog.. do i really sound so different in my blog??? do i really sound so upset in my blog??? u min it's the first time im lyk tt?? wah.. i tink my all ur impression of me muz be lyk the-craziee-gal-hu-luffs-everyday-lyk-nobody-business-lyk-she-got-no-worries-at-all type.. ryt?? lolx.. u all are absolutely wrong.. dun u noe tt actually pple hu behaves lyk jokers r the most emotional pple in the world?? they haf probs lyk anyone of u.. jus tt they dun show u..

hmm.. tml going church.. actually ryt.. to be honest.. i dun lyk to go my church at all.. cuz i feel tt out of all the pple hu go to church every wk ryt.. only abt 20% go wid an honest heart to worship god.. the others go to see if there r nice looking opp sex interested in them.. u understand wad i min??? hmm.. so which type do u belong to??? or mabbe u belong to both the grp??? hmm.. wah.. then ur the most dangerous man!!!! beware of ur double-mindedness.. it will lead u to sin..

hmm.. actually my ideal image of a church is not lyk a kind where everyone gathers together to worship god together.. i lyk my time wid god to be a personal one.. it's lyk a normal church.. where there is a big altar in front n a big big cross wid Jesus nailed on it.... n lots of rows of chairs facing the altar.. the whole church will be filled wid soft hymns.. the choir choir type one.. then the chair will be filled wif diff types of bibles.. n lyric books.. of cuz worshipping songs lah.. then u can jus go in n kneel down n start worshipping god on ur own.. w/o any one interupting u.. whether u r happy or sad wid anything.. u can jus worship him.. pray.. cry.. smile.. tok to him.. i rmbed sum1 telling me tt when i go to church.. i shld be in a happy mood.. i really dun understand y.. shldnt we worship Him wid our own self?? y shld we act happy even though deep down we r real upset??? it makes me feel as if worshipping him is not out of ur willingness.. but a task instead.. i wan to worship him wid my feelings.. i wan to go to him wid a broken heart.. n cum out of the church wid a mended one.. rather than going in wid a fake heart.. n cuming out still not mended.. no use.. i noe my ideal church sounds lyk those old type one.. but i really luv it.. i've gone to one actually.. my cousin's church.. but it's a catholic church.. when i got in.. my heart is lyk filled up immediately wid god's love.. but the funny thing is.. i cant feel anything in my present church.. sad.. i prefer to stay at home n read the bible instead.. haiz...

i guess im having big mood swings ryt now...

Everytime
Simple Plan
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It was 3 a.m. when you woke me up
Then we jumped in the car and drove as far as we could go
Just to get away
We talked about our lives until the sun came up
And now thinking about how i wish i could go back
Just for one more day
One more day with you

Everytime i see your face
Everytime you look my way
It's like it all falls into place
Everything feels right
Ever since you walked away
You left my life in disarray
All i want is one more day
Cuz all i need is one more day with you

When the car broke down
We just kept walking along
Til it hit this town
There was nothing there at all
But that was all ok

We spent all our money on stupid things
But if i look back now id probly give it all away,
Just for one more day
One more day with you

Everytime i see your face
Everytime you look my way
Its like it all falls into place
Everything feels right
Ever since you walked away
You left my life in disarray
All i want is one more day
Its all i need
One more day with you

Now im sitting here
Like we used to do
I think about my life
And now there's nothin i won't do
Just for one more day
One more day with you

Everytime i see your face
Everytime you look my way
Its like it all falls into place
Everything feels alright
Evertime i here ur name
Everytime i feel the same
Its like it all falls into place
Everything, everything feels right
You walked away just one more day
Is all i need is one more day with you.

this song really rox!

How Did I Fall In Love With You
Backstreet Boys
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Remember when, we never needed each other
The best of friends like
Sister and Brother
We understood, we'd never be,
Alone

Those days are gone, and I want you so much
The night is long and I need your touch
Don't know what to say
I never meant to feel this way
Don't want to be
Alone tonight

chorus:
What can I do, to make you mine
Falling so hard so fast this time
What did I say, what did you do?
How did I fall in love with you?

I hear your voice
And I start to tremble
Brings back the child that, I resemble
I cannot pretend, that we can still be friends
Don't want to be,
Alone tonight

chorus:
What can I do, to make you mine
Falling so hard so fast this time
What did I say, what did you do?
How did I fall in love with you?

Bridge:
Oh I want to say this right
And it has to be tonight
Just need you to know, oh yeah
I don't want to live this life
I don't want to say goodbye
With you I wanna spend
The rest of my life

chorus:
What can I do, to make you mine
Falling so hard so fast this time
What did I say, what did you do?
How did I fall in love with you?

What can I do, to make you mine
Falling so hard so fast this time
Everything's changed, we never knew
How did I fall, in love, with you?

wah liao.. these 2 days i keep going to dance so late loh.. i feel so guilty for making them getting punished wid me.. haiz.. y do i slp so much??? sick..

today the nan hua seniors came to watch us.. ok.. umm.. ex seniors.. they graduated.. sux lah.. the 2 of them came.. n i find them very familiar.. but i cant rmb hu they r.. so i dun care.. then until georgina told me tt one the guy is the "action babi" or "action bunny".. then i noe hu they r.. the other guy is the sylvester imitation.. yucks.. they sux.. lol.. n at the end of the dance then we noe tt the action babi is gonna take over tcher's job when he is not free.. wah liao..

liu lao shi's nickname for me: Mei Nu / Mei Ren.. lolx.. i also shock tt he call me tt.. cuz im not the prettiest in the dance ensemble loh.. i tink cuz the dance is supposed to be lyk rough one.. but i do all the actions too soft alrdy.. he keep telling me dunnid to be so pretty.. lol.. fine loh..

hmm.. these few days i totally not in the mood to joke.. i did not luff as much too.. but i had alot of blank stares moment.. only joleen noes wad happened.. i cant bring myself to tell any other pple abt it.. hmm..

[[ What had happened to us? I don't know.. We used to be so close.. But everything has changed.. We are so distant now.. We behave like we are total strangers.. I hate this feeling! Now I know how words can be so influential.. I don't want to take back those words that I have said because I mean them with all my heart.. There's never one night when I dun think about what we can be together.. I want it to be reality.. Im so sick of calling you *.. I want to call you something even closer.. I want to know that you belong to me.. I know I'm weird.. Because I'm the one who suggested to be together and the one who shattered your dream.. I just want us back where we were.. Together or not.. It doesn't matter.. (But I hope we are..) I want this gap between us to close.. The feeling is so bad.. I'm trying all I can to rebuild this relationship again.. I'm trying so hard to make the obstacle disappear.. But you don't seem to care now.. You don't seem to give a damn.. I tried to talk to you.. But you are so cold.. It feels like you hate me now.. Do you really understand how I feel? Do you really want to give up on us? Just say yes and I'll give up.. But meanwhile.. I'm still holding on to every single chances I have now.. I don't want to lose you.. ]]

shldnt haf go.. haiz.. all i did there was watched "Temptation Island".. where the flirtation began.. lolx.. free movie.. then we screamed for the finale damn loud.. haha

then me n joleen went to je mac to eat again.. saw tt grp of malay guys again.. they tok to us again.. saying tt one of them was frm our sch.. o..... i......c..... -_-"

im feeling so damn stupid now.. joleen even ask me y dun i jus send those 3 words to him.. instead of the whole paragraph.. wah liao.. i spent the whole hr tinking of tis paragraph to send loh.. lyk tt suan me.. but i really cant bring myself to say those 3 words. i can say it seriously.. i cant be serious.. wad if he tinks tt im jus joking???

im so bored now.. the i n e thingy lyk shit loh.. i dun even noe if im nided to go anot.. they inform other pple but not me.. so i guess im not nided.. i'll jus rot at home.. lol..

oh yah.. rmb ytd there was a malay family sitting behind us.. the little boy so damn cute.. he kept making alot of noise.. we were abit pissed off in the beginning lah.. then the mother kept whispering "sorry" to me.. but of cuz i dun mind.. lol.. but then he kept popping up behind my chair.. lolx.. then making alot of noise so i'll turn behind.. then ended up i playing hide n seek wid the little boy.. he hide.. i seek.. lolx..

grr.. side track abit.. sum unknown guy in my frenster.. now not even in my msn list.. trying to show off how clever he is.. -_-" as if i care... wad "i ltr going for job interview.." "sum high class pharmacist job.." "tt pays $1700 a month!!" "ltr they seeing my prelim.." "dunno if 12 pts can anot.." hello.. do i look as if i care.. okie.. so i try to be a gd gal.. n comfort u abit.. oh.. dun be so nervous.. haf confidence in urself.. haha.. yupx..

back track.. ytd.. while sitting beside mdm ji.. we were toking abt while contemp dance get to perform but we dun.. then they were toking n toking away.. while i was happily listening to my mp3.. lolx.. i dun really mind.. i dun wan to perform also.. but then hoh.. mdm ji hoh.. wadever she say she pats on my head or on my leg.. i was lyk.. "mdm ji.. i've got nth against them.. but now ur making me look as if i've got the deepest grudge against them.." lol.. but nvm.. i jus play along.. i go "orh.. ok.. ic.." lol..

grr.. side track again.. tt unknown guy say he wanna noe me.. n he started asking me my height n weight.. i so damn pissed off.. shldnt u try to noe more abt my inner self.. than noeing my physical appearance?? does it matters so much??? dun tink i dunno.. all u guys wanna noe is our physical appearances only.. so wad if myo hein told u im chio?? i dun tink i m.. n dun try to judge me.. im not ur thing to play wid.. pls go take a look at urself b4 asking us tis.. or mabbe u will consider going geylang.. there's alot of pretty chicks there.. easy to get too.. all u nid to haf is $$.. since r getting a job tt pay $1700 a month.. go on.. sick guys.. im not interested in u! fuuuuuuu................... god bless u!!!! omg.. it's so hard..

MYO HEIN!!! STOP GIVING MY EMAIL TO WEIRD FRENS OF URS!!

today slack until arnd 4.. then yuting came knocking on my hse n ask me go out early.. so i went wid her to je to eat.. long john long john.. lol.. but the pple at long john their attitudes suuuuuu.. umm.. god bless.. then we went arcade.. it's so smelly inside.. full of sweat smell.. then got cigarettes smell also.. cannot stand it.. came out n wait for joleen.. aft arnd 30 mins.. she arrived.. she told me 10 mins loh.. lolx.. then we went popular to search for smth for ms wong.. at the card section.. i was looking thru the cards n passing them to yuting.. almost every card tt i saw i say "cute".. then yuting n joleen was lyk.. "then which card shld we buy?" lol..

then we went to SingPoly.. saw taufik's poster there.. n we were screaming lyk hell.. lol.. we reached there damn early.. trying to find the mac.. but we walk arnd n arnd.. in the end.. decided to go baq.. saw mdm ji n we went to sit wid her.. she was toking on the phone.. n touching my legs.. omg.. lol.. then we went in to find a seat.. got alot of tanglinians all dye hair.. nv die b4.. lol.. then at last min.. joleen wanted to go toilet.. when we went outside.. kenna scolded by solastri.. but we went anyway.. then the grad ceremony.. so sian.. we were only cheering for dance members.. at least me.. they both were cheering for other pple.. then refreshments.. nth to eat one.. sian.. so little summore.. how to feed our mouths.. then we wanted to go out of the rm.. when suddenly a hand appeared n grab me by the waist.. i kenna shock.. so it's ivan's auntie.. wah.. of all pple.. she recognise me.. when yuting was arnd summore.. yuting was lyk frens wid ivan sooooo much longer than i've been.. but she recognised me.. lolx.. we tok for awhile.. then we went out n sat down enjoying the breeze..

then we went baq to watch joseph.. sat wid nerissa n mei lun tis time.. i sat wid joleen n neh neh side by side.. so nice.. neh neh beside me!!! lol.. then watch.. hmm.. the show was ok.. but i tink the mics r too soft.. then they keep singing out of tune.. too fast.. or too slow.. n the choir was lyk ummm... chicken scratching.. lol.. but the dance was nice.. germaine n syirah damn sexy.. lol.. gary very funny.. his wig kept covering his eyes.. n he kept trying to shake it away.. then very cute also.. then the ending very nice.. haha. khairul sooo funny.. hahahahha..

then me n joleen went to je mac to eat.. got a grp of malay guys were eyeing at us since we went in.. n then when i finished buying n walked pass them.. they tok to me.. but i dun understand.. so i went "huh?" then i ignored them n walk away.. then they kept turning arnd n look at me n joleen.. then when they wanna leave.. they started toking to me again.. but i still dun understand wad they toking abt.. then they said bye n left.. weird pple.. then me n joleen tok alot.. all the way till we board the bus..

i lyk to tok to joleen.. i find tt even tho she's lyk 2 yrs younger.. but her tinking is mature enuff.. same level as me.. n we can communicate well.. i find i can relate my probs to her than to sum of my best frens for so long.. she really listens n gif advices.. hmm.. i tink i've found a gd fren in her.. lol.. JOLEEN>> I LUV YOU!!!!