first of all.. promise me tt u wun ask me abt this aft u read.. no matter how curious u r.. thx..
hmmm.. i jus went to read his blog.. and my mood was kinda affected by it.. actually since ytd when he told me smth.. i cldnt slp at all.. i spent the whole nyt worshipping God.. n crying as i do tt.. hoping tt God will do sum miracle in his life.. n i was very worried.. cuz he did not reply my msgs since last nyt.. so i actually tot tt he really did it.. but i guess my worshipping did pay off.. cuz he did not do it.. so thank God!
hmm.. i didnt noe tt he was so troubled.. i dunno wad he's feeling abt me now.. but it must have been really terrible.. hmm.. i told him tt i luv him.. i actually told him.. but he dun blif me.. oh well.. no one really blifs me when i say i love you to them.. cuz im always saying it to pple jokingly.. no one noes when i m serious when i said tt.. so heck.. dun tink i'll ever say it anymore.. then he came n tell me tt he's so troubled by this gal hu told him tt she lurve him too.. of cuz i was hurt.. but i pretended tt im not.. n i told him to be wid her if he really lurves her.. i pretended lyk im not gonna be affected at all.. then he told me tt he dun wan to be wid her.. of cuz im bcame happy immediately.. but he said tt he is still troubled by it.. so at tt moment.. i realised tt i haf been happy over nth.. cuz i realised tt he is not very certain of his feelings either.. lyk wad he had told me tt i am.. i realised tt i've really brought so much miseries to him.. i had really hurt him so much.. im always missing chances in my life.. haiz...
i dunno whether his feelings for me has changed.. but mine definitely have not.. but then again.. i dunno wad i'll feel tml.........................................
