my whole kneecap covered in blue blacks now.. lolx.. but i guess im the most lucky one.. cuz others always got stepped by others.. got got cut by sharp things when they dance.. so there's alot of scars over their leg.. im the only hu only haf blue blacks.. lol..
wah.. today when i cum online.. got 2 pple cum n ask me wad happened to me in my blog.. do i really sound so different in my blog??? do i really sound so upset in my blog??? u min it's the first time im lyk tt?? wah.. i tink my all ur impression of me muz be lyk the-craziee-gal-hu-luffs-everyday-lyk-nobody-business-lyk-she-got-no-worries-at-all type.. ryt?? lolx.. u all are absolutely wrong.. dun u noe tt actually pple hu behaves lyk jokers r the most emotional pple in the world?? they haf probs lyk anyone of u.. jus tt they dun show u..
hmm.. tml going church.. actually ryt.. to be honest.. i dun lyk to go my church at all.. cuz i feel tt out of all the pple hu go to church every wk ryt.. only abt 20% go wid an honest heart to worship god.. the others go to see if there r nice looking opp sex interested in them.. u understand wad i min??? hmm.. so which type do u belong to??? or mabbe u belong to both the grp??? hmm.. wah.. then ur the most dangerous man!!!! beware of ur double-mindedness.. it will lead u to sin..
hmm.. actually my ideal image of a church is not lyk a kind where everyone gathers together to worship god together.. i lyk my time wid god to be a personal one.. it's lyk a normal church.. where there is a big altar in front n a big big cross wid Jesus nailed on it.... n lots of rows of chairs facing the altar.. the whole church will be filled wid soft hymns.. the choir choir type one.. then the chair will be filled wif diff types of bibles.. n lyric books.. of cuz worshipping songs lah.. then u can jus go in n kneel down n start worshipping god on ur own.. w/o any one interupting u.. whether u r happy or sad wid anything.. u can jus worship him.. pray.. cry.. smile.. tok to him.. i rmbed sum1 telling me tt when i go to church.. i shld be in a happy mood.. i really dun understand y.. shldnt we worship Him wid our own self?? y shld we act happy even though deep down we r real upset??? it makes me feel as if worshipping him is not out of ur willingness.. but a task instead.. i wan to worship him wid my feelings.. i wan to go to him wid a broken heart.. n cum out of the church wid a mended one.. rather than going in wid a fake heart.. n cuming out still not mended.. no use.. i noe my ideal church sounds lyk those old type one.. but i really luv it.. i've gone to one actually.. my cousin's church.. but it's a catholic church.. when i got in.. my heart is lyk filled up immediately wid god's love.. but the funny thing is.. i cant feel anything in my present church.. sad.. i prefer to stay at home n read the bible instead.. haiz...
i guess im having big mood swings ryt now...
