dunno how to start today's topic..
but i gotta do it anyway..
any offence is truly regretted.. haha..


actually.. to say the truth..
hu tinks tt he or she is a true fren?
n hu tinks tt having a true fren is gd..
for me personally..
i dun agree to both qns..
i noe im not a gd fren..
n i dun tink it's necessary to haf a best fren..


i've seen so many examples of frens turning into enemies..
n how pple changes all the time..
even me myself changes too..
i used to confide alot in my frens..
n they tink tt they truly noes me..
one by one started to take me for granted..
i can tell u smth..
i nv haf a lasting frenship..
i tink tt when u tell sumbody too much of us..
they tend to take u for granted..
n thus they dun really care abt wad u feel..
cuz they tink tt they noe u too well..

nw i treat everyone as frens only..
i dun tink i'll haf a real best fren for life..
mabbe nxt time??



























i dunno...............

guess wad i saw today..
early in the morning??


ans: a cat licking its own vagina..

im quite sure tt it's a female..
cuz i dun see any dick..
perfect way to start my day huh??
i ask jiali y animals lick their own private parts..
she looked at me and say...

"ur too obsessed wid biology.."

oh.. ok.. fine..
but i insisted on asking further..
so she told me it's just lyk y humans masturbate..
tt's when i came to a conclusion..

tt cat is masturbating..














portia tan was so angry today..
dunno y.. she's always having pms..
heck..





then it's bio..
jacob explaining to us pregnancy n abortion..
the pregnancy part is so funny..
cuz the pic shows a foetus upside down..
then i was asking if the baby ever feels dizzy or not..
for being upside down for lyk.... 9 months!!!
then jacob says tt the baby mite run out of oxygen..
so i showed them how a pregnant mother shld breathe..
then ryan mentioned tt mothers shld bring an oxygen tank all arnd..
quite funny.. ok.. not very..


then is pe..
i cant go.. cuz i hurt my baq..
but when i told pple today..
they look at me wid questioning eyes..
kinda pissed off by tt..
dun blif then dun blif..
then pls dun ask me nxt time if u not gonna blif things tt i say..

recess was fun..
i hafta act lyk i was financial difficult..
hahaha...

then it's maths again.. sian diao..

chem.. yucks..
but luckily i was called to the dentist..
i was watching the dentist washing zuzi's teeth..
it was so amazing when the dentist shone lyk a blue light in her mouth which i tink will solidify the substance tt he put in..
i kept staring at her mouth at the blue light..
n zuzi tot wad was happening..
then it's my turn..
only den did i noe the blue light was not fun at all..
the dentist kept asking me to open my mouth wider..
my lips are tearing but he's still insisting..
so i was counting down the blue light thingy..
20 secs.. if im not wrong..
finally.. nw my teeth feels lyk it has a thousand holes..
hahahahaha..
nxt monday will be my laogong's time..
ta-da!! shaorong!!!

i wonder y dentist lurves to blabber to themselves n assume tt the patients can hear them..

then aft sch.. me jiali n lizhen went to ginza to study..
at the bus stop.. i kept playing wid amanda's name lyk how zach n isaac always play wid mine..
then jiali n lizhen will do the echo-ing behind..
so cuteeee!!!

i tot tt i was going to study..
but i ended up buying the ring re-enforcement n paste it on every sheet of my paper..


jiali.. lizhen.. yi xuan n amanda r so fed up wid me every since i came baq frm dentist..
i've been touching my teeth non-stop..
lolololol..

amanda said tt im intelligent n hardworking..
im her role model..
ooh-hoo!!! im so honoured.. lololololol..

isaac say tt my name very nice to call..
is it true?? lolxx..

i had to buck up on my maths alrdy..
thank god.. this common test for a maths is only on matrices n permutation..
it doesn't combinations..
which is the most confusing topic i've ever cum across..

today shld be my craziest day of all..
i was luffing wid amanda over the slightest thing..
i forgot wad.. but everything can manage to tickle us badly..

then we went for cell grp at commonwealth there..
wah.. so ulu ulu type one loh..
the tension was so high there..
aft a stupid game by celine.. lol..
we proceed on to cell meeting..
ok.. there's 4 new members frm SMSS..
aft cell.. we ate there..
tok tok tok.. sian diao..
i was so cold inside the mac..
tt i was practically jumping all arnd to warm myself..
i was doing silly movements lyk running lyk a mouse or wadever..
arh.. heck.. i jus want to warm myself..
then went baq wid isaac..
we waited at the queenstown cc for so long for 51..
and we kept toking n toking..
mostly abt ahem ahem.. lol..
on the bus.. he keep taking out his phone to look at her pic..
so despo loh.. or rather despo-ing as wad yx say..
all the time i was sucking my bottle away..
then tt isaac ask me how cum i lyk sucking my bottle so much..
lolx.. it's nice to suck.. n lick.. n feel it.. lol...

i spent the whole bus journey toking to a shuai ge..
(as wad isaac asked me to ryt.. lolx..)

my mother decided to gif us $250 a month at one go..
we had to pay for everything ourselves..
even going out n bus concession pass..
woah.. tt's so hard.. hmm.. but i'll try..
heeeeeex~~~

may me n amanda forget the stupid pple hu hurt us.. soon.......


Amen!

heylo!!!
first of all..
congratulations to the tanglin soccer guys!!
they won swiss cottage by a score of 4-0..
oooooh~~ great job!!!

i tink i sprained my back..
i had the worst day in sch..
everywhere i turn..
there's this feeling lyk a nail piercing on my back..
it's so pain..
i cant even lean back..
ouch!!

there's this sweet sweet song..
sang by a1..
i jus t dig their cd out ytd..
n rmbed tis song..
enjoy! =D













If You Were My Girl
A1
-------------------------
Ha Ha
If you were my girl
Ha ha ha ha ha
If you were my girl
Ha ha ha ha ha

Aching to see the sun again
Aching to see your eyes to see how they shine
They make this world a better place

Aching to see you smile again
Aching to hear you laugh and say I'm not dreaming
When you caress my hair
Your touch so warm and gentle, baby
Then I can see true happiness at last

Chorus:
If you would be my girlfriend
Then I would be in heaven
Then I could do anything
I'd stand on my head and sing
If you were my girl (girlfriend)
If you would be my girlfriend
Then I would be in heaven
Then I could do anything
I'd stand on my head and sing
If you were my girl
If you were my girl
If you were my girl

I wish I could feel your lips right now
Wish I could let my hand glide through your hair
I wish I could softly hold your hand

I wish I could tell you every dream
I wish I could tell you everything that I feel
I wish I could tell you that
I need you here to, kiss me baby
If only I could get myself to say
Hey,hey,hey

Chorus:
If you would be my girlfriend
Then I would be in heaven
Then I could do anything
I'd stand on my head and sing
If you were my girl (girlfriend)
If you would be my girlfriend (girlfriend)
Then I would be in heaven (heaven)
Then I could do anything
I'd stand on my head and sing
If you were my girl
If you were my girl
If you were my girl

There are so many beautiful girls(so many girls) in the world
But there's only one girl that I want (so many girls)
And I've chosen today that I can't ever stay
Unless I can stay here with you
Ooh....

If you would be my girlfriend
Then I would be in heaven
Then I could do anything
I'd stand on my head and sing
If you were my girl (girlfriend) my girl
If you would be my girlfriend, (my girl)
Then I would be in heaven, (yeah yeah)
Then I could do anything
I'd stand on my head and sing
If you were my girl
If you were my girl
If you were my girl
If you were my girl, if you were my girl
If you were my girl, if you were my girl
If you were my girl, if you were my girl
Ha, ha, ha, ha, ha...ahh
If you were my girl
ha, ha, ha, ha, ha...ahh
If you were my girl

i tink i nid to practice some self control..
i just cant seem to keep to my words..
and it's lyk everyday i break my own promise..

i told myself tt i must go home everyday to study..
straight after sch i min..
but im always tempted by frens to go out..

i beta concentrate more on my studies..
if not i'll nv be able to show my parents..





i find tt im getting more lame than ever..
nw in chinese class..
im starting to ryt love letters to Shaorong..
i always tear the paper frm my chinese txtbk..
ryt in front of mr mah..
today i tear out the map of china..
n i mark a point above china..
then i wrote to him tt i luv him..
n ask him to come visit me in china..
oh god.. wad happened to me..

i tink tt im so weird..
y m i helping pple to solve their probs when i cant even solve mine..
nvm.. i'll got help xuannie wid her blog nw..


XUANIEEEEEE~~ IM HERE~~~~~

sumtimes i feel tt im a weirdo..
i dun haf a temper at all..
when pple passes bad comments abt me..
i can still smile n laugh it off..
when pple hurt my mentally..
i dun hold it against them..
i forgive n forget everything tt they've done..

sumtimes i tink i shldnt be so gd to them..
aftall.. wad had they done to deserve this?
but i guess all these while it's been the LORD's strength..
He carried me thru difficulties..
no matter how bad i feel..
no matter where i am..
His love nv fails me..
i noe there are frens arnd me hu promise to be wid me thru thick n thin..
but none of them can really fulfil the promise..
cuz they cant be arnd me 24/7..
n it's times lyk these when i turned to God for help..
although i can't see Him there..
i can always feel His presence..
no matter wad.. i noe tt im not alone..

i tink i've really changed alot aft converting..
im rather shock at wad i am nw..
cuz i noe it's not easy to mould such a personality out of me..
considering wad i was lyk last time..
when i am lyk completely tinkiing abt revenging the whole time..
lololollolol..

sum pple told me tt im not lyk other christians..
where they will go arnd preaching at every chance they haf..
instead.. im rather quiet abt my own religion..
only offering advices when needed..
i rather agree wid them..
me myself sumtimes also get irritated by christians hu keep preaching to me..
i wld prefer to be a quiet believer..
i dun blif in preaching everyday cld get sumone to convert..
i tink it will haf more side effects..
tt's y i also dun always go church..
i blif i shld get sum time off on my own..
n tok to God..

i noe i may sound weird..
cuz christians r known to be so "faithful" tt they go church every wk..
but wads the use when u go church every wk but do things wrong outside??
i jus blif tt "christian" mins "living lyk Jesus"..
"thinking lyk Jesus"..
"doing things lyk Jesus"..
in ur everyday life..
aftall.. the ultimate motive of the Bible..
is to get u to "Live Like Human"!

wah liao..
stupid jiali..
stop luffing at my ex-shoes..
u suck!!!!

i hate jiali!!!
she tinks tt shoes having "wings" are very funny..
so wad?????!!!!
i also dunno how i got those wings..
but i can fly wid those wings..
u cant.. lolx..

jus came baq frm isaac's hse..
his hse very fun..
especially his dog..
kenna horny by me..
his dog very clever..
noes how to change position for me to touch..
yixuan ask me to go lower to his belly..
n see whether his little balls will turn bright red anot..
but i dared not..
lolx..

i wish the person hu did those things to me was sumbody else..
hmmm.. i miss............................









wad the hell are u waiting for????

lalalala..

surprisingly.. i woke up today at 11.30..
when i reached home so late ytd..
this is abnormal..
but i continued lying in my bed n faking slp till 1..


went for dance performance today @ BVCC..
i was saddened by smth tt i heard today..
i cried in the bus..
in front of jiali..

luckily dance was fun..
the seniors of other schs came n watch us..
we were having fun..
especially me..
i was determined not to let things affect my mood..
i was helping the guys to gel their hair..
n we had alot of diff n funny patterns..
kenrick n yongxuan were helping roy to gel..
n a ribbon for deco..
daryl was so nice..
he lemme wipe my hands on his shirt.. lolx..
but he show too much of his armpit hair..
n i ask him to keep his arms to his body..

first performance was lyk our own entertainment..
no one was watching..
everyone was bz eating the food on the table.,
n i smelt shark fins..

mr low was very gd today..
he went to buy yusheng for us..
n three boxes of kfc chickens..
we were bz eating n doing hw..
then the guys were stripping roy..
while we were chanting "tuo diao tuo diao"..
(take off.. take off..)

second performance..
i made mistake again..
ewww.. but it's ok nw..
cuz i haf too much stage experience..
now i dun get stage fright..

Someday We'll Know
Mandy Moore
-------------------------
Ninety miles outside Chicago,
Can't stop driving, I don't know why
So many questions, I need an answer
Two years later you're still on my mind

Whatever happened to Amelia Earhart?
Who holds the stars up in the sky?
Is true love just once in a lifetime?
Did the captain of the titanic cry?

Someday we'll know
If love can move a mountain
Someday we'll know
Why the sky is blue
Someday we'll know
Why I wasn't meant for you

Does anybody know the way to Atlantis
Or what the wind says when she cries?
I'm speeding by the place that I met you
For the ninety-seventh time
Tonight

Someday we'll know
If love can move a mountain
Someday we'll know
Why the sky is blue
Someday we'll know
Why I wasn't meant for you

Yeah, yeah, yeah, yeah

Someday we'll know
Why Samson loved Delilah
One day I'll go
Dancing on the moon
Someday you'll know
That I was the one for you

I bought a ticket to the end of the rainbow
Watch the stars crash in the sea
If I could ask God just one question
Why aren't you here with me
Tonight?

Someday we'll know
If love can move a mountain
Someday we'll know
Why the sky is blue
Someday we'll know
Why I wasn't meant for you

Yeah, yeah, yeah, yeah

Someday we'll know
Why Samson loved Delilah
One day I'll go
Dancing on the moon
Someday you'll know
That I was the one for you














from.now.on.
two.hearts.are.being.separated.
and.i.cant.bring.them.baq.no.more
~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~

it feels so gd to cry..
im kinda stupid to only discover it nw..
i had a gd cry ytd..
n half of the prob just seemed to disappear..


mabbe frm nw on..
i'll just cry whenever i meet any probs..
then i'll not be known as "mei nu" anymore..
i'll be "crybaby"..
but.....


hu cares..
when crying feels so gd?

today's chingay is sucha mess!!!!
haiz...


aft sch.. when i went home n bathe..
isaac foong told me smth shocking..
aargh.. n i feel more lyk a moron..


but i guess it's ok nw..
we agreed not to tok abt it..


i just found out tt nadz is in chingay too..
he's the video man..
i almost forgot he work in mediacorp..
lolx..

I feel like a total MORON now!!!


mabbe i shld blame myself for ruining everytime..
now i dun even dare to reply his msg..





Truely Madly Deeply
Savage Garden
-------------------------
I'll be your dream
I'll be your wish I'll be your fantasy
I'll be your hope I'll be your love
Be everything that you need.

I'll love you more with every breath
Truly, madly, deeply do
I will be strong I will be faithful
'cause I'm counting on
A new beginning
A reason for living
A deeper meaning, yeah

I wanna stand with you on a mountain
I wanna bathe with you in the sea
I wanna lay like this forever
Until the sky falls down on me

And when the stars are shining brightly in the velvet sky,
I'll make a wish, SEND IT to heaven and make you want to cry
The tears of joy for all the pleasure in the certainty
That we're surrounded by the comfort and protection of

The highest powers
In lonely hours
And the tears devour you

I want to stand with you on a mountain
I want to bathe with you in the sea
I want to lay like this forever
Until the sky falls down on me

Oh can't you see it baby?
Don't have to close your eyes
'Cause it's standing right before you
All that you need will surely come

ooooohh ye-eah

I'll be your dream I'll be your wish
I'll be your fantasy
I'll be your hope I'll be your love
Be everything that you need
I'll love you more with every breath
Truly, madly, deeply do

I wanna stand with you on a mountain
I wanna bathe with you in the sea
I want to lay like this forever
Until the sky falls down on me

I wanna stand with you on a mountain
I wanna bathe with you in the sea
I want to live like this forever
Until the sky falls down on me~~~~~

patricia complain tt i;ve got too much sound effects..
how can tt be??
tt's just my hobby..
or mabbe entertainment..
mabbe i've did it overboard..
aargh.. how can u say tt??
im so hurt by u..
mabbe i shld make more sounds..


mr ng saw me trying to make christina horny..
n he's been giving me the weirdest stare ever..
oh god.. what did i do???


deborah lim was... grrrrr...
i wasnt copying.. really!!
i only said "huh?" n i kenna caught for tt..
wad the hell..
mabbe i shld stop toking to pat in chem lab forever..
brings me bad luck..


gary. is so sweet..
he passed me a necklace wid a heart shaped pendant during assembly today..
so sweeeeeeeeet~~~


was listening to jay's song ytd..
realised tt he is still the greatest out of all!!
sweet sweet jay~~


my parents jus wun lemme quit tuition..
fine.. wadever..
but if i managed to pass my maths..
i will NEVER credit it to mr toh..
NO WAY!!!


they sux..
i got revise my work..
i really did..
but they are so blind..
they blif in wad they see..
mabbe i shld stand in front of him nw holding a bk n block his tv..
if tt's wad he wans me to do..
i will............

this valentine day started out fine..
i got one whole pack of chewing gums frm jiali as my valentine gift..
n not forget two plastic fans wid "I LOVE YOU" on it..
she so lame.. specially emphasize on the "I LOVE YOU"..
aiyah.. i noe u lurve me lah..
dun nid to announce ryt??


then went to sch..
everyone was passing valentine presents arnd..
except me..
i'm so sorry..
i did not haf money to buy any gifts..
this morning when i tried to get sum angbao money frm my mother..
my father was scolding me for wasting money on these useless stuffs..
i guess he didn't haf much frens..
post-friendless syndromes..
but i used my own pocket money and treated a few of them wid strawberries dipped wid chocolate coating..
i ate 3 myself.. yumx.....


pat broke out some unpleasant news to me today..
i shan't say abt it..
but it bothered me the whole day..
mabbe i shld haf more faith in him..
but im rather confused nw..
thx to jiali n lizhen..
im rather cheered up nw..


i kinda pity lizhen nw..
she's making a very diff decision..
but im quite pissed wid the "frens"..
me n jiali are nw regarded as lyk baddies in their eyes..
they tink tt we r trying to snatch lizhen frm "..."..
which isnt even true..
hello.....


i felt rather guilty for pulling a long face jus nw when i go out wid jiali n lizhen..
i shldnt haf let my emotions overcome me..
i've tried so hard to smile.. n joke as normal..
but... hmmm... luckily they understand me..


bot a umm beady necklace for him..
he said tt he wan a chain tt day in a joking manner..
but nvm.. just buy..
hope it's the one tt he wans..


got a cute flower frm pattie..
n many many sweets n chocs..
arh.. im growing fatter..
i've beta resumed baq my sit ups everyday..
in the meanwhile..
tell u a secret..
im 52kg..... :'(






LOLOLOLOLOLOL...

Heartbreak Lullaby
A*Teens
----------------------
Heartbreak lullaby

In the still of the night
I can almost feel you lying next to me
Like it used to be

And it's hard to let go
When there's always something there reminding me
How things could be

I've tried to get you off my mind
I've tried to play my part
But everytime I close my eyes
You're still inside my heart

Why can't I laugh
Why must I cry
Everytime we say goodbye
Why is there rain
Here in my heart
Everyday that we're apart
Why can't it be
Just you and me
What would it take to make you see
These are the words
To my heartbreak lullaby

Like the stars in the sky
You still keep on shining down your light on me
But out of reach

And I know that in time
You will come back to your senses, see the signs
And change your mind

I've tried to look to the other way
And keep my heart on hold
But everytime I'm close to you
I lose my self-control

Why can't I laugh
Why must I cry
Everytime we say goodbye
Why is there rain
Here in my heart
Everyday that we're apart
Why can't it be
Just you and me
Why would it take to make you see
These are the words
To my heartbreak lullaby

Why can't I laugh
Why must I cry
Guve me just one good reason why
Why is there rain
Here in my heart
Everyday that we're apart
Why can't it be
Just you and me
What would it take to make you see
These are the words
To my heartbreak lullaby

Why can't I laugh
Why must I cry
Everytime we say goodbye
Why is there rain
Here in my heart
Everyday that we're apart
Why can't it be
Just you and me
What would it take to make you see
These are the words
To my heartbreak lullaby

These are the words
To my heartbreak lullaby~

shitttt~~
i tink im getting sick..
i eat too much unhealthy food alrdy..
ooh.. amanda.. dun fire me!!!


i tink im going to get lung cancer..
my realatives r constantly smoking..
n i cant stand it..
but i cant avoid them too..
arh.. sick..
pls visit me on my deathbed..
choy~~~ new year.. touchwood..


this trip is so boring........
i shld haf slept the whole day...
but we went to eat seafood ytd..
so nice.. =)


but anyway..
to tt spammer..
i got a whole series of qns for u..
mabbe u can tell me all the ans..


1) so what if nadzri lyks me?
2) so what if he don't?
3) so what if he is blind?
4) so what if he is not?
5) so what if i lyk him?
6) so what if i don't?
7) so what if my legs are ugly?
8) so what if they r not?
9) so what if i look lyk a china gerl?
10) so what if i don't?
11) so what if i got pussy?
12) so what if i don't?
13) so wad if u hate me?
14) so what if u don't?
15) so since u dun lyk me.. y r u observing things abt?
16) y do u even bother to tag me????


btw.. syirah.. if u r reading this..
thx so much!! =)

firstly..
wanna say sorry to the person whom i accused of being the boh liao tagboard abuser..
im really sorry..
hope u will forgive me..


secondly..
i dunno wad happened..
i dun rmb doing anything wrong to anybody..
but since the person is not even proud to acknowledge his name as to put it when he tags..
then i wun even bother to reply..
wadever u say...
whether nadzri's blind or wad..
whether my leg's ugly or not..
(i admit my legs ugly..)
whether i look lyk china or not..
(i noe i look lyk..)
i dun care..
the fact tt u even bother to tag me..
mins tt i've influence u in sum ways..
see how influential i am??


arh...
im so stuffed..
i feel lyk a stuffed animal nw..
aft eating all the ateamboat at yuting's hse..
she keeps stuffing us wid food..
n not allowing us to go until we finish them..



they all came my hse today..
n stacked all the rice into one mountain full of rice in a bowl..
sick.. for my ah gong..
baby brandon came..
but he's crying the whole day..
nw i noe how irritating it is when sumone keeps crying or frowning..
n how adorable it is when sumone keeps smiling..
i fully understand the phrase..

"never frown.. cuz u dunno when sumone might just fall in love with your smile.."


then we were wondering who's hse to go nxt..
we almost went amanda's hse first..
when siewling allowed us to go her hse..
we went there n gamble..
three blackjacks in a row for me..
but i still lost $3..


then we went jason's hse..
gambled again..
his hse is lyk a bad luck to me..
i lost $10 there..


then we went amanda's hse..
ooh.. he sis look kinda dao..
we stayed awhile there then left..


then we went lizhen's hse..
her dog so damn cute..
yuting n amanda so scared of lively tt they run all the way up the stairs n stayed there until we decided to leave..


then we went yuting's hse..
tt's where the torture began..
she keep pouring food into the steamboat..
n insist tt we hafta to finish it..
cuz all her family had eaten..
when we finally finish..
her father told her tt they haven eat..
we were lyk.. omigod!!!
then i took a cab home..


it was very fun..
cuz we went arnd pple's hse n got alot of angbaos..
the whole time.. yuting insist tt we mus take mrt..
dunno y..
she pushed it off by saying tt she jus wan to pass by gary's hse..
but i dun tink it's so simple.. hahah..
nvm.. it's alrite then..

hmmmm...
im kinda affected by this tagboard abuser this time..
i noe hu he is..
but i dun wan to reveal him..
im showing him some respect..
but he dun show me any in return..


it makes me realise not to put so much trust in my frens..
i treated this person wid so much trust..
but wad did he do??
he's so stupid to choose love over frenship..
when tt love is so worthless..
i dun understand him..


actually..
i've alrdy had alot of cases where frens betrayed me..
those i can accept..
but not him..
he really made me give up tis time..
i nid to haf sum control on my trust frm nw on..
i'll not have anymore best frens..
everyone r jus frens to me..
he's sucha bastard..
betrayed my trust..
hmm.. mabbe i shld say bitch instead........

stupid person call "u know hu"..
cuz i really noe hu he is..
pls use a beta name nxt time..
u r so darn obvious..
while pple dunno hu u r..
i can tell u tt im 100% sure of ur identity..
i noe too well..
n dun forget.. u got alot of secrets wid me..


*smirkZ*