2hrs n 18 more mins to my burfday!!!
i cant blif still got so many pple rmb my burfday!!
hahahahaha..


today was planning to go jogging one..
in the end went sentosa wid sumone..
so lame..
go all the way to sentosa to see someone..
lalalallalala..
dropped my phone there..
tot nth will go wrong..
but in the end my phone spoil..
cant hear any ringtone..
can only vibrate..
sux!!! nid to go repair..


hmm.. let's tok abt my burfday..
hehehe..
ok..
tml aft dance..
i will be returning home for a bathe n a quick celebration wid my family..
(hopefully the still rmb..)
then will go out wid lizhen at evening..
we'll go town..
then esplanade in the nite..
shiying mite be joining us aft church..


16 loh..
a new phase of life..
gonna pia alot alrdy..
all for my dearest o lvl..
hahahahah..


so far..
eunice n nerissa had given me an octopus..
my auntie $20..
my ah gong $30..
amanda n sr a necklace..
tt's all so far..
hope there's more to come..
hahahahah..


tt stupid isaac..
wah liao.. he damn wad..
tml my bdae leh..
ask me to help take care of his lizhen..
nv even wish me happy burfday..
wad the hell!!!
but being the good christian i am..
(lol jiali lurve to call me good christian..)
i will take care of her..
i tink i still cant take a day off frm being a nanny even on my burfday..
last yr was patricia..
this yr will be lizhen..


burfday wishes:
1) pass my o lvl wid 18 points!!!
2) haf gd health.. of cuz!
3) my family to receive salvation..
4) feel more of God's presence..
5) more allowance..
6) ltr curfew..
7) more frens..
8) world peace*


cant tink of anymore.. hahaha..
tt's all for today.. mite not blog tml..
so take care till sun!!!

tatas~~


2hrs n 10 more mins!!!


Ha.ppy Bir.th.day To Me
Ha.ppy Bir.th.day To Me
Ha.ppy Bir.th.day To Me
Ha.ppy Bir.th.day To Meeeeee~~~~~~

heex.. jiali is sucha pig..
she really blifs me when i say tt im alrite..
awww.. u really blif me??
crazieee.. how to forget wad happened so easily??
surely take sum time to erase the memories one mah..
lololololololol..


n make sure tt...


U TAG MY TAGBOARD!!!!


bias pig!


woke up today n prepared to go orchard..
me n my sis went far east n wait..
since my auntie n cousin havent cum..
so we bot the chicken cutlet to eat..
wah.. damn hot.. in the end i threw it away..
tt's crap loh!
then we decided to walk to cine..
just nice my auntie n cousin going cine too..
so we meet there..


met nadz outside cine..
i dunno y but i was lyk so speechless..
when he ask me where im going..
i just point at cine n stared at him..
lolx..


then went yuki n yaki to eat.. hmm.. so full..
my nephew brandon was entertaining himself all the while by playing wid brandon 2 in the reflection.. hahaha..


then walked abit arnd heeren..
n went for tuition..
mr toh bllew his top..
wah.. so scariee..
but this time not by me..
luckily.. heex!!!

Someone's Watching Over Me
Hilary Duff
------------------------------------
I found myself today
Oh, I found myself and ran away
Something pulled me back
A voice of reason, I forgot I had
All I know, is you're not here to say
What you always used to say
But it’s written in the sky tonight

[chorus]
So I won’t give up
No, I won’t break down
Sooner than it seems, life turns around
And I will be strong
Even if it all goes wrong
When I’m standing in the dark, I’ll still believe
Someone’s watching over me

I’ve seen that ray of light
And it’s shining on my destiny
Shining all the time
And I won’t be afraid
To follow everywhere it’s taking me
All I know is
Yesterday is gone
And right now I belong
To this moment, to my dreams

[chorus]
So I won’t give up
No, I won’t break down
Sooner than it seems, life turns around
And I will be strong
Even if it all goes wrong
When I’m standing in the dark, I’ll still believe
Someone’s watching over me

It doesn’t matter what people say
And it doesn’t matter how long it takes
Believe in yourself
And you’ll fly high

And it only matters how true you are
Be true to yourself and follow your heart

[chorus]
So I won’t give up
No I won’t break down
Sooner than it seems, life turns around
And I will be strong
Even if it all goes wrong
When I’m standing in the dark, I’ll still believe...

That I won’t give up
No I won’t break down
Sooner than it seems, life turns around
And I will be strong
Even when it all goes wrong
When I’m standing in the dark, I’ll still believe
Someone’s watching over...
Someone's watching over...
Someone's watching over me
(Yeah yeah, oh oh)
Someone's watching over me













Your Face
Mandy Moore
-----------------
Your face
I'm still not over your face
Headlights break through the rain
Over London's winter nights
I came all the way here tonight to look in your eyes
I came all the way here tonight just to see you

Your face
Holds me over your face
Wipes away the rain
With a hundred summer skies
And everytime I talk to you
It's like I'm alright
And everytime I talk to u
I get a little closer to life

Bridge
You are the face that heaven showed me
When I needed someone
Someone to love
And say you will show me
The quiet kind of love behind your face

Your face
Let me show the world your face
All the stars and suns above are jealous in its light
You steal the sky away from them and bring it to sight
Yeah you steal the sky away from them and bring it to life

You are the face that heaven showed me
When I needed someone
Someone to love
And say you will show me
The quiet kind of love behind your face



______________________________________________














went down to the playgrnd wid jiali..
was playing the swing until two kids were crying over the swing..
so i stood up n gave the swing to them..
im a good girl.. =D


sat at the big bench toking..
actually i was lying down..
n jiali kept asking me to sit up n protect my image..
cuz she says tt everyone was looking at me..
guess wad? i dun gif a damn.. i got no image..
wadever lah.. i happy can alrdy..


then isaac came..
he bot our bubble tea.. thx isaac..
then we walked over to another playground..
the swing there was so low..
so i ended up playing the slide..
then isaac say i deprive of childhood..
then isaac called zachary..
n i kept screaming n shouting zachary's name..
he must haf heard cuz isaac told me he was lyk oh my god..
then we decided to go baq to the previous playground..
they sat on the bench while i climbed over the tunnel n just sit there n stone..
i dunno wad were they toking abt.. but i was observing the little kids playing catching..
there's this grp of indian kids playing catching..
n they hafta touch smth black in order to be safe..
u noe the "house" thing? hahah..
then i msg jiali n isaac tt they dunnid to touch anything..
they r black themselves..
they r forever safe.. hehe..




ANTI-RACISM!!!!



then isaac left..
but me n jiali stayed awhile longer..
then jiali also left..
so i went to the same place where it all started..
the track beside the big drain..
i stoned there n just overlook the water..
the wind was so big but i dun care..
the feeling was wonderful..
then got this two malay gals standing beside me..
they must haf tot tt i was crying cuz they kept looking over at me..
i was having a haevy flu so i keep sneezing n rubbing my eyes..
then got this father n two kids fishing..
they damn cute loh..
they were challenging each other to see hu catch the most fish..
the kid kept saying there's no fish..
but the father kept catching fishes..
then b4 they left.. the kids announce tt there are no fishes in the water..
n i felt lyk telling them tt the fishes were scared off by the noise they made..
hahahah.. in the end.. i went home too..
=D

ok.. i;ve decided..
i will not hurt anybody anymore..
so i've deleted tt post..













Daughters
John Mayer
--------------
I know a girl
She puts the color inside of my world
She's just like a maze
Where all of the walls all continually change
And I've done all I can
To stand on her steps with my heart in my hands
Now I'm starting to see
Maybe it's got nothing to do with me

Fathers be good to your daughters
Daughters will love like you do
Girls become lovers who turn into mothers
So mothers be good to your daughters too

Oh, you see that skin?
It's the same she's been standing in
Since the day she saw him walking away
Now she's left
Cleaning up the mess he made

Fathers be good to your daughters
Daughters will love like you do
Girls become lovers who turn into mothers
So mothers be good to your daughters too

Boys, you can break
You'll find out how much they can take
Boys will be strong
And boys soldier on
But boys would be gone without warmth from
A woman's good, good heart

On behalf of every man
Looking out for every girl
You are the god and the weight of her world

So fathers be good to your daughters
Daughters will love like you do
Girls become lovers who turn into mothers
So mothers be good to your daughters, too
So mothers be good to your daughters, too
So mothers be good to your daughters, too














this song got me tinking..

feel kind of relieved aft breaking down..
at least i got a conclusion..
or wadever.. results..


i tink tt im very weird..
i always cant cry directly..
i nid smth to trigger off my tears..
lyk tt day.. i was so damn stressed..
but i cant cry.. until patricia n i quarelled..
n ytd.. i cant cry too..
till my mother started nagging at me to off my com..
wads happening to me?
i tink my tears tink tt they r too precious? LOLX..


i tink all i nid nw is to go to the playground n swing my troubles away..
mabbe ltr..
=DDDD

the trip to orchard today was more lyk im doing my solo-shopping wid two bodyguards behind me..
lol.. nah.. i hafta create chance u noe??
so i just keep walking quickly n leave the 2 of them behind..
luckily i've alrdy master the art of self-entertaining..


saw olinda cho in mos burger today..
omg.. i was so darn high!!!
i kept taking pics of her n i tink she saw me..


today i finally broke down..
aft quarelling wid patricia..
actually i hafta thank her for tt..
cuz she gave me a reason to cry..
if not.. i'll be pressing everything down n feeling so fucked up..
thx.. anyway.. we r alrite nw..
n aft crying i was so high..
so i guess crying helps me too!!!

i'll just type this briefly..


went kallang..
stayed awhile..
decided to take cert n shirt then leave..


then went orchard wid jiali..
walk here n there..
watched elmo show at taka..


then went home..


aargh.. im gonna die frm fatigue..
everyone is lyk asking me to do smth for them at the same time..
i wonder y i dun wan to reject..
worse thing is i dun even haf time for myself..
n i seriously nid to just break down n cry..
i nid to release stress..
everyone is rushing me to do their things..
for wad fuck..
i prepared such a nice post to blog..
but nw i dun tink im interested anymore..


i also dunno y i keep tinking of him..
y do i keep doubting him..
i kept telling myself tt i nid to haf trust..
but so wad???
wad do i get in the end..
days of ignorance..
wadever!!!!


ok.. xuan.. ur blog's done..
isaac.. ur qns being asked..
chee yong.. i'll ans ur qns ltr..
jiali.. i'll scan ur photos tml..


n u..




U..





U.. yes.. U!!




U r being missed..


ANYMORE????

today was a tiring day..
n my palm developed sum blisters frm carrying all the heavy props..
just glad tt nobody's hurt..
tanglin wasnt scolded also..
while other schs were scolded by mr low..
yay!!!




yo.. yo.. yo.. OW!!!


then rushed home to bathe..
finish everything n isaac had just board the bus..
so i ask my auntie's maid to cook meepok for me..
cuz im really really damn hungry..
so isaac waited outside while i eat..
lolx..


went church..
sang alot of nice songs.. hahahah..
played during sermon..
which was wrong.. lolx..


went to eat wid yuting n isaac at kfc..
isaac's treat.. hehe..


on the bus home.. awww.. so sweet..
got this couple.. young one..
the girl was very tired..
so she lied on her bf's lap..
her bf was cuddling her..
awwww... so darn sweet!!!
*jealous* lol..


u play.ed wi.d my hea.r.t..
u play.ed wi.d my min.d..
bu.t i mi.ss u fi.nal.ly..
righ.t f.rm th.e s.tar.t..
my lu.r.ve ma.de me b.lin.d..
bu.t i mi.ss u fi.nal.ly..

today is a happy day for me..
but if he msg me nw..
i noe it'll be perfect!!!


pe was so boring..
old mr charlie tan wans us to run arnd the sch..
but me n amanda escaped n went to watch the guys play soccer instead..


ryan is a bastard..
grrrrrr...
cuz i took his phone n saw tt all his msg was for a person..
(shall not disclose the name here..)
then he accused me of seeing his msgs..
wadever.. lyk im interested..
then he went to read my msgs..
out to the whole class..
lyk i care..
then he used my phone n send to his phone a lame msg..
"Do u love me? I love u so much?"
for gdness sake.. i will nv send u tt!!!!


i got baq my report bk..
ooh-hoo.. guess wads my L1R5 n L1B4??
according to yuting's calculation..
it's 13 n 9 respectively..
oh my goodness..
lyk wad yuting said..
if tis is my o lvls results..
i'll cry man!!!!


we got the Dilmers jersey today..
im #24.. lolx.. so cute..
it's bright orange n damn big..
i can wear it as a skirt.. lol..


aft sch sat at the canteen toking wid lizhen n jiali n yuting..
the cute guy was sitting nxt to our table..
ooooooh.. so nice.. lol..
his complexion is so darn gd...


went to do notice board..
i forgot to bring the keys..
hope she wun discover it..
planning to pin up the decorations tml..


then went to hall to start dance prac..
we run thru a few old dances..
i got a blister on my palm for carrying the heavy wooden planks..
yucks.. luckily it's not painful..


there's conflict in dance today..
which ended up in 3 pple crying..
arh.. i find it a waste of time..
y cry over such things when it's lyk not worth it..
dun be the one hu cry..
ur only satisfying wad the person wanted..
then i kept telling them big bang theories n they luffed..
finally.. phew~


i felt lyk i went for a sermon today..
mdm ji was preaching to zhiming..
occasionally i added in too.. lol..
hope tt this conflict will be over soon by tml.. =D


today.. jiali n lizhen told me tt they tink tt im a very gd person..
they say tt i always accept pple for hu they r..
even though they only come to me when all their frens have left..
n im always cheering pple up..
wahahahaha.. is tis true??? i dunno..
i just feel tt my life is meant for a purpose..
tt is to bring smiles to pple's faces..
n i lurve it when i can change tears into smiles..
n i tink tt life shld be lived happily..
let all the happy things occupy ur mind instead of the bad memories..
tt's wad i tink.. =DD


wah.. so nice to be praised!! =DDD


for ur info..
amanda had my pic on her phone..
n if u dunno how i look lyk..
im a fat.. pinkish little octo-pussy!!!
lolololol..
ok.. this all started when i told lizhen tt i acted as an octopus in kindergarten..
n it sumhow spreads n they all noe nw.. lol..


sumtimes i feel lyk im one person handling..
hmm.. lemme see..
1.. 2.. 3.. 4.. 5.. 6..
6 relationships probs..
wow.. i dunno i've got tt much probs..
but nvm.. i try to help whenever i can.. =DD


so fast another yr has passed..
my bdae is coming again!!!
yeah!!!!














8 more days to 16 candles on my bdae cake!!!!!!

i darn love my blogskin nw..
it's so damn sweet...
heex!!!


notice tt i havent been blogging in details these few days..
i realised i've been backsliding..
not frm God.. but frm blogger.. lolx..
this wk is too eventful till i cldnt breathe anymore..
let alone cum online n blog everything down..


alright.. i shall compensate by hmm..
posting another post nw..
ok.. wad the hell m i toking nw??
nth.. just dun care..


hmmmmmmmmmm....
ok.. i brot puffs to sch today..
ate one on the way to sch..
it's really nice.. n big.. n filling..
$1.30 each.. with chocolate chips as topping..
lolx.. chocolates!!! yumx...


went thru sch as usual..
except tt today we'll be let off early..
we r going to watch netball match!!

so we were let off early.. ok...
the match was nice..
exciting.. n we were screaming..
but half of the time i was praying..
so i wasnt screaming..
n thus.. u can imagine the chill sent down my spine when everyone suddenly scream at the top of their lungs..
it's lyk my ears being pierced through...
ooohh... yuckS!!!!
but in the end.. they lost..
by a mere score of 4..
haiz.. so sad.. i almost cried..
but i controlled..
amanda cried.. awwwww.. dun be sad..


then returned to sch..
i realised tt mr tham lyks to make fun of me..
woah.. wad happened??? arh.. wadever..
he said tt im trying to seduce shaorong!!!
my god!!!


then we went clementi to eat..
met a dog..
so cute!!!!!
she jumped onto me immediately..
her paws are so soft..
it feels ticklish rather than pain..
n i keep touching her..
she wans to lick my hands..
then yixuan they all say tt she lyk me.. lol..


clementi town boys cocky..
when i suddenly "hhmph!"
they copied n "hhmph!" baq too..
so i "hhmph!" again..
n they repeated..
then amanda n yuting joined in..
lolx..
but in the end..
i decided tt my food in more tempting then this childishness..
so i went baq to eat..
then yuting n amanda said so loudly tt clementi town cocky cuz they win netball..
lolx...
when we were abt to leave kfc..
i "hhmph!" one last time at my highest pitch ever n left..
then we took bus home..


n nw im home typing this..
aft changing my blog skin..
i really love my blogskin..
heex!!
















Miss You Finally
Trademark
----------------
But I miss you finally
But I miss you finally
Try to remember all these years
We shared the love we shared the tears
Thought that forever it would be
I realize you lie to me
I still hold on
Still dream of days when we were one

Chorus :
You played with my heart
You played with my mind
But I miss you finally
Right from the start
My love made me blind
But I miss you finally
All of these promises you made
This 4 letter word it seems to

Baby it's hard to understand
Now that you're gone
We reached the end
I still believe
Still dream of days when we were one

[Chorus] x 3

You played with my heart
You played with my mind
Right from the start
My love made me blind

today's quite an eventful day..

firstly.. i almost passed my 2.4 run..
which is lyk such a big improvement for me..
i just nid to improve on a few secs more..
hehe..

aft sch.. went for soccer match..
exciting one i hafta say..
ooh!!!!
but we still lost..
nvm.. we r still in nationals..
hope it's played in our sch..
then dun haf to travel so far..
haha..

tml's our x-country..
not running...
mabbe hide in toilet again..
nahs.. will join in the walk wid everyone..
im a gd gal ok.. hahaha

i tinking of changing my blog skin..
hmmm.. to the precious moment one..
mabbe i'll do it ltr..
if i got the time to spare..

lalala.. how shld i start my day???
ok.. i was feeling very weird ever since i stepped into sch..
i feel a pair of eyes staring at me..
but i'll not say hu..

then there i was..
in the parade square observing the clouds movement while mrs oui was yakking away..
i realised tt the clouds were moving so fast today.. damn fast..
guess wad.. i saw a formation of underwear..
then it slowly turned into g-string..
i wanted to luff out.. but then i controlled myself..

then it started drizzling..
but mrs oui still dun wan to stop..
arh.. wadever..
i lyk the coolness of the rain so it doesnt matter..

during ss lesson.. zamree was takeing maternal leave..
but she still has work for us..
erks... but i was toking to yixuan..
then mr ng told me to turn arnd n do my work..
then i told him i got nth to do..
then he told me not to chat wid yixuan but chat wid him instead..
i was lyk "huh???" fine......
so i started toking to him..
i told him tt my bdae was cuming!!!!
but he was so heartless..
i told him tt it's a MUST to buy present..
lol.. dun care..
then i asked him if he is free on wed aft x-country..
i wanna date him out..
he was lyk -_-""""
but it's his fault..
he's the one hu asked me to chat wid him..
at the end of the lesson..
i asked him how much is the basic pay for a tcher..
he told me above $2000..
wow.. tt is lyk amazing!!!!
mabbe i'll be a chi tcher nxt time..

all the way to the nxt class..
i was tinking of ways tt i can teach my class chi..
n i came up wid this superb plan..
i'll let them haf fun n learn at the same time..
i'll let them watch porn flicks..
but i'll turn off the volume n input chi subtitles..
so tt in order to enjoy the movie..
they hafta read the chi subtitles!!
n in order not to get into trouble wid the principal..
i ask him to join in n watch.. lol..
ain't i a genius???

my amaths was not really bad lah..
i got 14/30.. i cld pass u noe??
grrrr.. but my overall got 74%..
heex.. A2!!!

then it's lit..
i was dreaming away while she blabbered on..
i dun understand a single thing lah..

recess was the most fun..
tt dunno hu guy call umm.. weng kian if i not wrong..
was sitting opp me wid his track frens n he was looking at me..
n luffing constantly..
i tink he must have been toking abt me n nadz's thing..
then amanda fed me lou mai gai (wadever)..
he was luffing again..
so me n amanda was out to make him jealous..
i dunno y also.. haha..
she kept feeding me n we act lyk we were submerged in ultimate happiness..

then went to phy..
the funniest lesson tt happened today..
bifen threw a paper aeroplane at mr teo..
but it dropped..
so we ask huiting to pick up n throw to him..
so she picked up n walked towards him..
just when we tot she was going to give it to him..
she threw it at him..
tt really tickled me badly..
i was luffing non-stop.. lol..

then it was geog..
lalalalalalla.. nth happened..
peace!!

then eng..
arh.. the most boring lessons..
was waiting for time to pass by..

aft sch.. me n amanda went canteen to meet jiali n lizhen..
we were deciding where to go while waiting for yuting..
finally she appeared..
then when we were abt to go..
we went to jervenne to comfort her cuz yuting told us she cried cuz of her bad results..
aiyah.. i min it's normal to fail ur first test..
aftall.. all tt matters is ur o lvls..
then we left for ginza n ate at kfc..
then we bot bubble tea.. =D
jiali n yuting decided to cum my hse..

we decided to go to the playground instead..
we played alot.. the swings.. the slide..
so nice..
especially the swing..
they two gang up n pushed me so hard tt i almost fall on several occasions..
n i'll scream n vent all my angers out..
then i went to slide down..
feel the air brush against my face..
cool.. n not to mention.. nice too.. =D

then we went to the void deck to do work..
got two abnn went past us..
then decided to cum baq n sit on the chair beside our table..
they kept looking at the 3 of us..
then yuting n jiali very funny..
took out their pen knives..
i dunno whether they r trying to scare the abnn or wad..
but i tink they got scared..
n left a while ltr..

then we went baq to the playground..
by then.. it was packed wid kids..
but we cldnt care less..
n we went on to play anyway..
occasionally waving to the kids..
lol..
i felt lyk i've returned to my childhood period..
where i haf no worries at all..
no o lvls stress.. no relationship probs..
no family conflicts.. wadever..
we werent even tt scared where psle was near..
tt feeling is great..
then we left for home..

tml's the finals for the soccer boys..
gd luck to them.. n im going to watch..
hope they will win n be #1!!!

went dance today..
saw th lower sec soccer tournament..
so boring.. one grp of guys wore pink..
yucks..

had to carry those dumb heavy things up n down..
my hands almost got blisters..

i raped eunice today..
hahaha...
then sihan told me a joke which i cld not understand..
then they say i slow..
ok fine...
wadever!!!!!

then went to ginza to eat..
saw mr leong in his sports gear..
erm.. yucks too.. haha..

then went library to return bks..
so packed.. n noisy..
i chose 3 bks..
two are compiled stories by teens..
one is a storybk intro by jiali..

then went home n prepared to go church..
today got the tabernacle n im so excited to meet God..
me n isaac reached there..
cannot go in cuz is the Lord's supper..
so we hafta wait..
went in.. the sermon was so long..
i went to read my own storybk..
then aft church..
me n isaac went mac to eat..
we did not have enuff money..
lack 50 cents..
n we were so worried..
then he borrowed $1 frmt he guy behind us..
we were so pai seh tt we dun dare to go near the guy..

isaac said so much thing tt really made me tink too..
hmmm... im so sick..
heck..

then we went to the tabernacle..
i prayed alot..
for everyone..
n i cried..
but at the last place..
the holy of the holies..
i cldnt feel God's presence at all..
im abit sad.. hmmm..
mabbe it's bcuz my mind is not clear at all..

amanda told me tt mabbe god has sum hints to me in the sermon..
cuz today's sermon is abt marriage..
arh.. mabbe.. hmmm...
















Almost Here
Delta Goodrem ft Brian McFadden
-------------------------------
Did I hear you right
'cause I thought you said
Let's think it over
You have been my life
And I never planned
Growing old without you

Shadows bleeding through the light
Where the love once shined so bright
Came without a reason
Don't let go on us tonight
Love's not always black and white
Haven't I always loved you?

But when I need you
You're almost here
And I know that's not enough
And when I'm with you
I'm close to tears
'cause your only almost here

I would change the world
If I had a chance
Oh won't you let me
Treat me like a child
Throw your arms around me
Oh please protect me

Bruised and battered by your words
Dazed and shattered how it hurts
Haven't I always loved you

But when I need you
You're almost here
And I know that's not enough
And when I'm with you
I'm close to tears
'cause your only almost here

Bruised and battered by your words
Dazed and shattered now it hurts
Haven't I always loved you

But when I need you
You're almost here
Well I never knew how far behind i?d left you
And when I hold you your almost here
Well I'm sorry that I took our love for granted
And now I'm with you I'm close to tears
'cause I know I'm almost here
Only almost here

wad can i say??
hmmmm....
tt i'll nv forget ytd..
n-e-v-e-r..
~~~~~~~~~~~~~


got back my chi results today..
83/100..
i wasnt very happy..
cuz i expected more..
n i tink tt alot of them gonna catch up alrdy..
but wadever.. i shld learn to be contented..














Never Be Replaced
1st Lady
------------------------
Baby I love you and I'll never let you go
But if I have to boy I think that you should know
All the love we made can never be erased
And I promise you that you will never be replaced

Baby I love you and I'll never let you go
But if I have to boy I think that you should know
All the love we made can never be erased
And I promise you that you will never be replaced

I love you yes I do
I'll be with you as long as you want me to
Until the end of time

From the day I met you I knew we'd be together
And now I know I wanna be with you forever
I wanna marry you and I wanna have your kids
Thinking never compared to the feeling of your kisses

I could say I'm truly happy till this day
You make me think I better live my life everyday
There's never been a doubt in my mind
That I regret ever having you by my side

But if the day comes that I have to let you go
I think there's something I should probably let you know
That everyday that I've spent with you
I will miss you cause I'm happy that I had you at all

Baby I love you and I'll never let you go
But if I have to boy I think that you should know
All the love we made can never be erased
And I promise you that you will never be replaced

Baby I love you and I'll never let you go
But if I have to boy I think that you should know
All the love we made can never be erased
And I promise you that you will never be replaced

I love you yes I do
I'll be with you as long as you want me to
Until the end of time














i lurve u amanda!!!! =D

nowadays nth much to blog..
i really dunno wad to blog..
hmmmmmm...


anyway..

my burfday's coming!!!!!! =DD





eunice n nerissa are so gan chiong..
today gave me burfday present alrdy..
hahahah...



im still considering whether to go for the i n e camp anot..
if i go is also for the sake of yi xuan..
hmmmmmmmmmmmm...












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i.m sic.ked of hea.ring a.ll th.e s.weet talk.s n b.lif tha.t th.ey r t.rue..
den go.t sum new.s fr.om a.ll my f.ren.s of how i've bee.n a foo.l..
u've ne.ver bee.n tha.t re.al b.for righ.t fr.om th.e ve.ry s.tar.t..
wh.ile i've bee.n wai.ting foo.li.sh.ly fo.r u wi.d a.ll my hear.t..
ur ne.ver th.ere.. u've ne.ver ca.re..
bou.t how i hur.t ly.k he.ll..
th.e day tha.t i le.t u in.to me..
is th.e day i've al.mo.st fe.ll..
now.. lea.ve th.e me.ss tha.t u ha.f ma.de..
n ge.t ou.t of my li.fe..
i'll be s.tron.ger th.an b.for..
n no dou.bt.. i'll sur.vi.ve!

dunno how to start today's topic..
but i gotta do it anyway..
any offence is truly regretted.. haha..


actually.. to say the truth..
hu tinks tt he or she is a true fren?
n hu tinks tt having a true fren is gd..
for me personally..
i dun agree to both qns..
i noe im not a gd fren..
n i dun tink it's necessary to haf a best fren..


i've seen so many examples of frens turning into enemies..
n how pple changes all the time..
even me myself changes too..
i used to confide alot in my frens..
n they tink tt they truly noes me..
one by one started to take me for granted..
i can tell u smth..
i nv haf a lasting frenship..
i tink tt when u tell sumbody too much of us..
they tend to take u for granted..
n thus they dun really care abt wad u feel..
cuz they tink tt they noe u too well..

nw i treat everyone as frens only..
i dun tink i'll haf a real best fren for life..
mabbe nxt time??



























i dunno...............

guess wad i saw today..
early in the morning??


ans: a cat licking its own vagina..

im quite sure tt it's a female..
cuz i dun see any dick..
perfect way to start my day huh??
i ask jiali y animals lick their own private parts..
she looked at me and say...

"ur too obsessed wid biology.."

oh.. ok.. fine..
but i insisted on asking further..
so she told me it's just lyk y humans masturbate..
tt's when i came to a conclusion..

tt cat is masturbating..














portia tan was so angry today..
dunno y.. she's always having pms..
heck..





then it's bio..
jacob explaining to us pregnancy n abortion..
the pregnancy part is so funny..
cuz the pic shows a foetus upside down..
then i was asking if the baby ever feels dizzy or not..
for being upside down for lyk.... 9 months!!!
then jacob says tt the baby mite run out of oxygen..
so i showed them how a pregnant mother shld breathe..
then ryan mentioned tt mothers shld bring an oxygen tank all arnd..
quite funny.. ok.. not very..


then is pe..
i cant go.. cuz i hurt my baq..
but when i told pple today..
they look at me wid questioning eyes..
kinda pissed off by tt..
dun blif then dun blif..
then pls dun ask me nxt time if u not gonna blif things tt i say..

recess was fun..
i hafta act lyk i was financial difficult..
hahaha...

then it's maths again.. sian diao..

chem.. yucks..
but luckily i was called to the dentist..
i was watching the dentist washing zuzi's teeth..
it was so amazing when the dentist shone lyk a blue light in her mouth which i tink will solidify the substance tt he put in..
i kept staring at her mouth at the blue light..
n zuzi tot wad was happening..
then it's my turn..
only den did i noe the blue light was not fun at all..
the dentist kept asking me to open my mouth wider..
my lips are tearing but he's still insisting..
so i was counting down the blue light thingy..
20 secs.. if im not wrong..
finally.. nw my teeth feels lyk it has a thousand holes..
hahahahaha..
nxt monday will be my laogong's time..
ta-da!! shaorong!!!

i wonder y dentist lurves to blabber to themselves n assume tt the patients can hear them..

then aft sch.. me jiali n lizhen went to ginza to study..
at the bus stop.. i kept playing wid amanda's name lyk how zach n isaac always play wid mine..
then jiali n lizhen will do the echo-ing behind..
so cuteeee!!!

i tot tt i was going to study..
but i ended up buying the ring re-enforcement n paste it on every sheet of my paper..


jiali.. lizhen.. yi xuan n amanda r so fed up wid me every since i came baq frm dentist..
i've been touching my teeth non-stop..
lolololol..

amanda said tt im intelligent n hardworking..
im her role model..
ooh-hoo!!! im so honoured.. lololololol..

isaac say tt my name very nice to call..
is it true?? lolxx..

i had to buck up on my maths alrdy..
thank god.. this common test for a maths is only on matrices n permutation..
it doesn't combinations..
which is the most confusing topic i've ever cum across..

today shld be my craziest day of all..
i was luffing wid amanda over the slightest thing..
i forgot wad.. but everything can manage to tickle us badly..

then we went for cell grp at commonwealth there..
wah.. so ulu ulu type one loh..
the tension was so high there..
aft a stupid game by celine.. lol..
we proceed on to cell meeting..
ok.. there's 4 new members frm SMSS..
aft cell.. we ate there..
tok tok tok.. sian diao..
i was so cold inside the mac..
tt i was practically jumping all arnd to warm myself..
i was doing silly movements lyk running lyk a mouse or wadever..
arh.. heck.. i jus want to warm myself..
then went baq wid isaac..
we waited at the queenstown cc for so long for 51..
and we kept toking n toking..
mostly abt ahem ahem.. lol..
on the bus.. he keep taking out his phone to look at her pic..
so despo loh.. or rather despo-ing as wad yx say..
all the time i was sucking my bottle away..
then tt isaac ask me how cum i lyk sucking my bottle so much..
lolx.. it's nice to suck.. n lick.. n feel it.. lol...

i spent the whole bus journey toking to a shuai ge..
(as wad isaac asked me to ryt.. lolx..)

my mother decided to gif us $250 a month at one go..
we had to pay for everything ourselves..
even going out n bus concession pass..
woah.. tt's so hard.. hmm.. but i'll try..
heeeeeex~~~

may me n amanda forget the stupid pple hu hurt us.. soon.......


Amen!

heylo!!!
first of all..
congratulations to the tanglin soccer guys!!
they won swiss cottage by a score of 4-0..
oooooh~~ great job!!!

i tink i sprained my back..
i had the worst day in sch..
everywhere i turn..
there's this feeling lyk a nail piercing on my back..
it's so pain..
i cant even lean back..
ouch!!

there's this sweet sweet song..
sang by a1..
i jus t dig their cd out ytd..
n rmbed tis song..
enjoy! =D













If You Were My Girl
A1
-------------------------
Ha Ha
If you were my girl
Ha ha ha ha ha
If you were my girl
Ha ha ha ha ha

Aching to see the sun again
Aching to see your eyes to see how they shine
They make this world a better place

Aching to see you smile again
Aching to hear you laugh and say I'm not dreaming
When you caress my hair
Your touch so warm and gentle, baby
Then I can see true happiness at last

Chorus:
If you would be my girlfriend
Then I would be in heaven
Then I could do anything
I'd stand on my head and sing
If you were my girl (girlfriend)
If you would be my girlfriend
Then I would be in heaven
Then I could do anything
I'd stand on my head and sing
If you were my girl
If you were my girl
If you were my girl

I wish I could feel your lips right now
Wish I could let my hand glide through your hair
I wish I could softly hold your hand

I wish I could tell you every dream
I wish I could tell you everything that I feel
I wish I could tell you that
I need you here to, kiss me baby
If only I could get myself to say
Hey,hey,hey

Chorus:
If you would be my girlfriend
Then I would be in heaven
Then I could do anything
I'd stand on my head and sing
If you were my girl (girlfriend)
If you would be my girlfriend (girlfriend)
Then I would be in heaven (heaven)
Then I could do anything
I'd stand on my head and sing
If you were my girl
If you were my girl
If you were my girl

There are so many beautiful girls(so many girls) in the world
But there's only one girl that I want (so many girls)
And I've chosen today that I can't ever stay
Unless I can stay here with you
Ooh....

If you would be my girlfriend
Then I would be in heaven
Then I could do anything
I'd stand on my head and sing
If you were my girl (girlfriend) my girl
If you would be my girlfriend, (my girl)
Then I would be in heaven, (yeah yeah)
Then I could do anything
I'd stand on my head and sing
If you were my girl
If you were my girl
If you were my girl
If you were my girl, if you were my girl
If you were my girl, if you were my girl
If you were my girl, if you were my girl
Ha, ha, ha, ha, ha...ahh
If you were my girl
ha, ha, ha, ha, ha...ahh
If you were my girl

i tink i nid to practice some self control..
i just cant seem to keep to my words..
and it's lyk everyday i break my own promise..

i told myself tt i must go home everyday to study..
straight after sch i min..
but im always tempted by frens to go out..

i beta concentrate more on my studies..
if not i'll nv be able to show my parents..





i find tt im getting more lame than ever..
nw in chinese class..
im starting to ryt love letters to Shaorong..
i always tear the paper frm my chinese txtbk..
ryt in front of mr mah..
today i tear out the map of china..
n i mark a point above china..
then i wrote to him tt i luv him..
n ask him to come visit me in china..
oh god.. wad happened to me..

i tink tt im so weird..
y m i helping pple to solve their probs when i cant even solve mine..
nvm.. i'll got help xuannie wid her blog nw..


XUANIEEEEEE~~ IM HERE~~~~~

sumtimes i feel tt im a weirdo..
i dun haf a temper at all..
when pple passes bad comments abt me..
i can still smile n laugh it off..
when pple hurt my mentally..
i dun hold it against them..
i forgive n forget everything tt they've done..

sumtimes i tink i shldnt be so gd to them..
aftall.. wad had they done to deserve this?
but i guess all these while it's been the LORD's strength..
He carried me thru difficulties..
no matter how bad i feel..
no matter where i am..
His love nv fails me..
i noe there are frens arnd me hu promise to be wid me thru thick n thin..
but none of them can really fulfil the promise..
cuz they cant be arnd me 24/7..
n it's times lyk these when i turned to God for help..
although i can't see Him there..
i can always feel His presence..
no matter wad.. i noe tt im not alone..

i tink i've really changed alot aft converting..
im rather shock at wad i am nw..
cuz i noe it's not easy to mould such a personality out of me..
considering wad i was lyk last time..
when i am lyk completely tinkiing abt revenging the whole time..
lololollolol..

sum pple told me tt im not lyk other christians..
where they will go arnd preaching at every chance they haf..
instead.. im rather quiet abt my own religion..
only offering advices when needed..
i rather agree wid them..
me myself sumtimes also get irritated by christians hu keep preaching to me..
i wld prefer to be a quiet believer..
i dun blif in preaching everyday cld get sumone to convert..
i tink it will haf more side effects..
tt's y i also dun always go church..
i blif i shld get sum time off on my own..
n tok to God..

i noe i may sound weird..
cuz christians r known to be so "faithful" tt they go church every wk..
but wads the use when u go church every wk but do things wrong outside??
i jus blif tt "christian" mins "living lyk Jesus"..
"thinking lyk Jesus"..
"doing things lyk Jesus"..
in ur everyday life..
aftall.. the ultimate motive of the Bible..
is to get u to "Live Like Human"!

wah liao..
stupid jiali..
stop luffing at my ex-shoes..
u suck!!!!

i hate jiali!!!
she tinks tt shoes having "wings" are very funny..
so wad?????!!!!
i also dunno how i got those wings..
but i can fly wid those wings..
u cant.. lolx..

jus came baq frm isaac's hse..
his hse very fun..
especially his dog..
kenna horny by me..
his dog very clever..
noes how to change position for me to touch..
yixuan ask me to go lower to his belly..
n see whether his little balls will turn bright red anot..
but i dared not..
lolx..

i wish the person hu did those things to me was sumbody else..
hmmm.. i miss............................









wad the hell are u waiting for????

lalalala..

surprisingly.. i woke up today at 11.30..
when i reached home so late ytd..
this is abnormal..
but i continued lying in my bed n faking slp till 1..


went for dance performance today @ BVCC..
i was saddened by smth tt i heard today..
i cried in the bus..
in front of jiali..

luckily dance was fun..
the seniors of other schs came n watch us..
we were having fun..
especially me..
i was determined not to let things affect my mood..
i was helping the guys to gel their hair..
n we had alot of diff n funny patterns..
kenrick n yongxuan were helping roy to gel..
n a ribbon for deco..
daryl was so nice..
he lemme wipe my hands on his shirt.. lolx..
but he show too much of his armpit hair..
n i ask him to keep his arms to his body..

first performance was lyk our own entertainment..
no one was watching..
everyone was bz eating the food on the table.,
n i smelt shark fins..

mr low was very gd today..
he went to buy yusheng for us..
n three boxes of kfc chickens..
we were bz eating n doing hw..
then the guys were stripping roy..
while we were chanting "tuo diao tuo diao"..
(take off.. take off..)

second performance..
i made mistake again..
ewww.. but it's ok nw..
cuz i haf too much stage experience..
now i dun get stage fright..

Someday We'll Know
Mandy Moore
-------------------------
Ninety miles outside Chicago,
Can't stop driving, I don't know why
So many questions, I need an answer
Two years later you're still on my mind

Whatever happened to Amelia Earhart?
Who holds the stars up in the sky?
Is true love just once in a lifetime?
Did the captain of the titanic cry?

Someday we'll know
If love can move a mountain
Someday we'll know
Why the sky is blue
Someday we'll know
Why I wasn't meant for you

Does anybody know the way to Atlantis
Or what the wind says when she cries?
I'm speeding by the place that I met you
For the ninety-seventh time
Tonight

Someday we'll know
If love can move a mountain
Someday we'll know
Why the sky is blue
Someday we'll know
Why I wasn't meant for you

Yeah, yeah, yeah, yeah

Someday we'll know
Why Samson loved Delilah
One day I'll go
Dancing on the moon
Someday you'll know
That I was the one for you

I bought a ticket to the end of the rainbow
Watch the stars crash in the sea
If I could ask God just one question
Why aren't you here with me
Tonight?

Someday we'll know
If love can move a mountain
Someday we'll know
Why the sky is blue
Someday we'll know
Why I wasn't meant for you

Yeah, yeah, yeah, yeah

Someday we'll know
Why Samson loved Delilah
One day I'll go
Dancing on the moon
Someday you'll know
That I was the one for you














from.now.on.
two.hearts.are.being.separated.
and.i.cant.bring.them.baq.no.more
~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~

it feels so gd to cry..
im kinda stupid to only discover it nw..
i had a gd cry ytd..
n half of the prob just seemed to disappear..


mabbe frm nw on..
i'll just cry whenever i meet any probs..
then i'll not be known as "mei nu" anymore..
i'll be "crybaby"..
but.....


hu cares..
when crying feels so gd?

today's chingay is sucha mess!!!!
haiz...


aft sch.. when i went home n bathe..
isaac foong told me smth shocking..
aargh.. n i feel more lyk a moron..


but i guess it's ok nw..
we agreed not to tok abt it..


i just found out tt nadz is in chingay too..
he's the video man..
i almost forgot he work in mediacorp..
lolx..

I feel like a total MORON now!!!


mabbe i shld blame myself for ruining everytime..
now i dun even dare to reply his msg..





Truely Madly Deeply
Savage Garden
-------------------------
I'll be your dream
I'll be your wish I'll be your fantasy
I'll be your hope I'll be your love
Be everything that you need.

I'll love you more with every breath
Truly, madly, deeply do
I will be strong I will be faithful
'cause I'm counting on
A new beginning
A reason for living
A deeper meaning, yeah

I wanna stand with you on a mountain
I wanna bathe with you in the sea
I wanna lay like this forever
Until the sky falls down on me

And when the stars are shining brightly in the velvet sky,
I'll make a wish, SEND IT to heaven and make you want to cry
The tears of joy for all the pleasure in the certainty
That we're surrounded by the comfort and protection of

The highest powers
In lonely hours
And the tears devour you

I want to stand with you on a mountain
I want to bathe with you in the sea
I want to lay like this forever
Until the sky falls down on me

Oh can't you see it baby?
Don't have to close your eyes
'Cause it's standing right before you
All that you need will surely come

ooooohh ye-eah

I'll be your dream I'll be your wish
I'll be your fantasy
I'll be your hope I'll be your love
Be everything that you need
I'll love you more with every breath
Truly, madly, deeply do

I wanna stand with you on a mountain
I wanna bathe with you in the sea
I want to lay like this forever
Until the sky falls down on me

I wanna stand with you on a mountain
I wanna bathe with you in the sea
I want to live like this forever
Until the sky falls down on me~~~~~

patricia complain tt i;ve got too much sound effects..
how can tt be??
tt's just my hobby..
or mabbe entertainment..
mabbe i've did it overboard..
aargh.. how can u say tt??
im so hurt by u..
mabbe i shld make more sounds..


mr ng saw me trying to make christina horny..
n he's been giving me the weirdest stare ever..
oh god.. what did i do???


deborah lim was... grrrrr...
i wasnt copying.. really!!
i only said "huh?" n i kenna caught for tt..
wad the hell..
mabbe i shld stop toking to pat in chem lab forever..
brings me bad luck..


gary. is so sweet..
he passed me a necklace wid a heart shaped pendant during assembly today..
so sweeeeeeeeet~~~


was listening to jay's song ytd..
realised tt he is still the greatest out of all!!
sweet sweet jay~~


my parents jus wun lemme quit tuition..
fine.. wadever..
but if i managed to pass my maths..
i will NEVER credit it to mr toh..
NO WAY!!!


they sux..
i got revise my work..
i really did..
but they are so blind..
they blif in wad they see..
mabbe i shld stand in front of him nw holding a bk n block his tv..
if tt's wad he wans me to do..
i will............

this valentine day started out fine..
i got one whole pack of chewing gums frm jiali as my valentine gift..
n not forget two plastic fans wid "I LOVE YOU" on it..
she so lame.. specially emphasize on the "I LOVE YOU"..
aiyah.. i noe u lurve me lah..
dun nid to announce ryt??


then went to sch..
everyone was passing valentine presents arnd..
except me..
i'm so sorry..
i did not haf money to buy any gifts..
this morning when i tried to get sum angbao money frm my mother..
my father was scolding me for wasting money on these useless stuffs..
i guess he didn't haf much frens..
post-friendless syndromes..
but i used my own pocket money and treated a few of them wid strawberries dipped wid chocolate coating..
i ate 3 myself.. yumx.....


pat broke out some unpleasant news to me today..
i shan't say abt it..
but it bothered me the whole day..
mabbe i shld haf more faith in him..
but im rather confused nw..
thx to jiali n lizhen..
im rather cheered up nw..


i kinda pity lizhen nw..
she's making a very diff decision..
but im quite pissed wid the "frens"..
me n jiali are nw regarded as lyk baddies in their eyes..
they tink tt we r trying to snatch lizhen frm "..."..
which isnt even true..
hello.....


i felt rather guilty for pulling a long face jus nw when i go out wid jiali n lizhen..
i shldnt haf let my emotions overcome me..
i've tried so hard to smile.. n joke as normal..
but... hmmm... luckily they understand me..


bot a umm beady necklace for him..
he said tt he wan a chain tt day in a joking manner..
but nvm.. just buy..
hope it's the one tt he wans..


got a cute flower frm pattie..
n many many sweets n chocs..
arh.. im growing fatter..
i've beta resumed baq my sit ups everyday..
in the meanwhile..
tell u a secret..
im 52kg..... :'(






LOLOLOLOLOLOL...

Heartbreak Lullaby
A*Teens
----------------------
Heartbreak lullaby

In the still of the night
I can almost feel you lying next to me
Like it used to be

And it's hard to let go
When there's always something there reminding me
How things could be

I've tried to get you off my mind
I've tried to play my part
But everytime I close my eyes
You're still inside my heart

Why can't I laugh
Why must I cry
Everytime we say goodbye
Why is there rain
Here in my heart
Everyday that we're apart
Why can't it be
Just you and me
What would it take to make you see
These are the words
To my heartbreak lullaby

Like the stars in the sky
You still keep on shining down your light on me
But out of reach

And I know that in time
You will come back to your senses, see the signs
And change your mind

I've tried to look to the other way
And keep my heart on hold
But everytime I'm close to you
I lose my self-control

Why can't I laugh
Why must I cry
Everytime we say goodbye
Why is there rain
Here in my heart
Everyday that we're apart
Why can't it be
Just you and me
Why would it take to make you see
These are the words
To my heartbreak lullaby

Why can't I laugh
Why must I cry
Guve me just one good reason why
Why is there rain
Here in my heart
Everyday that we're apart
Why can't it be
Just you and me
What would it take to make you see
These are the words
To my heartbreak lullaby

Why can't I laugh
Why must I cry
Everytime we say goodbye
Why is there rain
Here in my heart
Everyday that we're apart
Why can't it be
Just you and me
What would it take to make you see
These are the words
To my heartbreak lullaby

These are the words
To my heartbreak lullaby~

shitttt~~
i tink im getting sick..
i eat too much unhealthy food alrdy..
ooh.. amanda.. dun fire me!!!


i tink im going to get lung cancer..
my realatives r constantly smoking..
n i cant stand it..
but i cant avoid them too..
arh.. sick..
pls visit me on my deathbed..
choy~~~ new year.. touchwood..


this trip is so boring........
i shld haf slept the whole day...
but we went to eat seafood ytd..
so nice.. =)


but anyway..
to tt spammer..
i got a whole series of qns for u..
mabbe u can tell me all the ans..


1) so what if nadzri lyks me?
2) so what if he don't?
3) so what if he is blind?
4) so what if he is not?
5) so what if i lyk him?
6) so what if i don't?
7) so what if my legs are ugly?
8) so what if they r not?
9) so what if i look lyk a china gerl?
10) so what if i don't?
11) so what if i got pussy?
12) so what if i don't?
13) so wad if u hate me?
14) so what if u don't?
15) so since u dun lyk me.. y r u observing things abt?
16) y do u even bother to tag me????


btw.. syirah.. if u r reading this..
thx so much!! =)

firstly..
wanna say sorry to the person whom i accused of being the boh liao tagboard abuser..
im really sorry..
hope u will forgive me..


secondly..
i dunno wad happened..
i dun rmb doing anything wrong to anybody..
but since the person is not even proud to acknowledge his name as to put it when he tags..
then i wun even bother to reply..
wadever u say...
whether nadzri's blind or wad..
whether my leg's ugly or not..
(i admit my legs ugly..)
whether i look lyk china or not..
(i noe i look lyk..)
i dun care..
the fact tt u even bother to tag me..
mins tt i've influence u in sum ways..
see how influential i am??


arh...
im so stuffed..
i feel lyk a stuffed animal nw..
aft eating all the ateamboat at yuting's hse..
she keeps stuffing us wid food..
n not allowing us to go until we finish them..



they all came my hse today..
n stacked all the rice into one mountain full of rice in a bowl..
sick.. for my ah gong..
baby brandon came..
but he's crying the whole day..
nw i noe how irritating it is when sumone keeps crying or frowning..
n how adorable it is when sumone keeps smiling..
i fully understand the phrase..

"never frown.. cuz u dunno when sumone might just fall in love with your smile.."


then we were wondering who's hse to go nxt..
we almost went amanda's hse first..
when siewling allowed us to go her hse..
we went there n gamble..
three blackjacks in a row for me..
but i still lost $3..


then we went jason's hse..
gambled again..
his hse is lyk a bad luck to me..
i lost $10 there..


then we went amanda's hse..
ooh.. he sis look kinda dao..
we stayed awhile there then left..


then we went lizhen's hse..
her dog so damn cute..
yuting n amanda so scared of lively tt they run all the way up the stairs n stayed there until we decided to leave..


then we went yuting's hse..
tt's where the torture began..
she keep pouring food into the steamboat..
n insist tt we hafta to finish it..
cuz all her family had eaten..
when we finally finish..
her father told her tt they haven eat..
we were lyk.. omigod!!!
then i took a cab home..


it was very fun..
cuz we went arnd pple's hse n got alot of angbaos..
the whole time.. yuting insist tt we mus take mrt..
dunno y..
she pushed it off by saying tt she jus wan to pass by gary's hse..
but i dun tink it's so simple.. hahah..
nvm.. it's alrite then..

hmmmm...
im kinda affected by this tagboard abuser this time..
i noe hu he is..
but i dun wan to reveal him..
im showing him some respect..
but he dun show me any in return..


it makes me realise not to put so much trust in my frens..
i treated this person wid so much trust..
but wad did he do??
he's so stupid to choose love over frenship..
when tt love is so worthless..
i dun understand him..


actually..
i've alrdy had alot of cases where frens betrayed me..
those i can accept..
but not him..
he really made me give up tis time..
i nid to haf sum control on my trust frm nw on..
i'll not have anymore best frens..
everyone r jus frens to me..
he's sucha bastard..
betrayed my trust..
hmm.. mabbe i shld say bitch instead........

stupid person call "u know hu"..
cuz i really noe hu he is..
pls use a beta name nxt time..
u r so darn obvious..
while pple dunno hu u r..
i can tell u tt im 100% sure of ur identity..
i noe too well..
n dun forget.. u got alot of secrets wid me..


*smirkZ*

i really got no idea on wad to gif my buddies for v day..


mabbe a kiss each???


no no no.. tt's my first kiss..


hmmm...
sick..
i've been sick for lyk 4 days alrdy..
headaches.. sore throat.. flu.. blocked nose..
i'm so scared tt i'll get lyk any disease..
b4 chinese new year summore..



hmm..
chinese new year is a time for me to gorge..
giving myself a chance to treat my body well..
cuz aft tt it's all abt "o" levels..


jus nw while i was bathing..
my ah gong suddenly keep shouting "mei" "mei"..
then i told him tt im "jie" not "mei"..
then he paused for a while..
then asked me why i dun eat rice..
hello??? im bathing ah gong..
how to eat while bathing..
then he silence..


my grandson is so cute..
he promised me to score a goal for me..
n he did..
but then his team still lost..
awww... dun be sad!!!
ahma is hereeeee!!!
wheeeeeeee~~


today was so boring..
i stuck at home the whole day..
actually my mother ask me to go out..
i was rather shock too..
tt my mother..
IS ACTUALLY ASKING ME TO GO OUT!!!
she even gave me $30 to buy clothes..
but i decided to save it till tues..
then go out wid my jian kang ju le bu members..


i spend lyk an hr burning the red cloths..
actually half n hr trying out the lighter..
which nv seems to light up..
then my ah gong lend me another lighter..
i dun lyk those normal lighters..
cuz i dunno how to use..
so another half n hr left for burning red cloths..
15 mins for burning..
another 15 mins waiting the lighter to cool..
tt's hw i spend me day...


im so darn bored..














Baby Come On Over Tonight~~

i tink i'll be a little over-christian today..
but these songs are really nice..


All Things Are Possible
Almighty God, my Redeemer,
My Hiding Place, my Safe Refuge,
No other name like Jesus,
No power can stand against You.

My feet are planted on this rock,
And I will not be shaken,
My hope it comes from You alone,
My Lord and my Salvation.

Your praise is always on my lips,
Your Word is living in my heart,
And I will praise You with a new song,
My soul will bless You Lord.

You fill my life with greater joy,
As I delight myself in You,
And I will praise You with a new song,
My soul will bless You Lord.

When I am weak You make me strong,
When I'm poor, I know I'm rich,
For in the power of Your name.
All things are possible,

All things are possible,
All things are possible,
All things are possible!





So You Would Come
Before the world began
You were on His mind
And every tear you cry
Is precious in His eyes

Because of His great love
He gave His only Son
Everything was done
So you would come

Nothing you can do
Could make Him love you more
And nothing that you've done
Could make Him close the door

Because of His great love
He gave His only Son
Everything was done
So you would come

Come to the Father
Though your gift is small
Broken hearts, broken lives
He will take them all

The power of the Word
The power of His blood
Everything was done
So you would come





Jesus, Lover Of My Soul
Jesus, Lover of my soul,
Jesus, I will never let you go
You’ve taken me from the miry clay
You've set my feet upon the Rock, and now I know

I love you, I need you,
Though my world may fall, I’ll never let you go
My Saviour, my closest friend,
I will worship you until the very end





Power Of You Love
Lord I come to You
Let my heart be changed, renewed
Flowing from the grace
That I found in You.

And Lord I've come to know
The weaknesses I see in me
Will be stripped away
By the power of Your love.

Hold me close
Let Your love surround me
Bring me near
Draw me to Your side.
And as I wait
I'll rise up like the eagle
And I will soar with You
Your Spirit leads me on
In the power of Your love.

Lord unveil my eyes
Let me see You face to face
The knowledge of Your love
As You live in me.

Lord renew my mind
As Your will unfolds in my eyes
In living every day
By the power of Your love.





Shout To The Lord
My Jesus, My Savior
Lord there is none like You
All of my days
I want to praise
The wonders of Your mighty love

My Comfort, My Shelter
Tower of refuge and strength
Let every breath
And all that I am
Never cease to worship You

Shout to the Lord
All the earth
Let us sing
Power and majesty
Praise to the King
Mountains bow down
And the seas will roar
At the sound of Your Name

I sing for joy at the work of Your hands
Forever I'll love you
Forever I'll stand
Nothing compares to the promise I have in You

My Jesus, My Saviour
Lord there is none like You
All of my days
I want to praise
The wonders of Your mighty love

My comfort
My Shelter
Tower of refuge and strength
Let every breath
All that I am
Never cease to worship you

Shout to the Lord
All the earth
Let us sing
Power and majesty
Praise to the King
Mountains bow down
And the seas will roar
At the sound of Your Name

I sing for joy at the work of Your hands
Forever I'll love you
Forever I'll stand
Nothing compares to the promise I have in You

Shout to the Lord
All the earth
Let us sing
Power and majesty
Praise to the King
Mountains bow down
And the seas will roar
At the sound of Your Name

I sing for joy at the work of Your hands
Forever I'll love you
Forever I'll stand
Nothing compares to the promise I have
Nothing compares to the promise I have
Nothing compares to the promise I have in You





Potter's Hand
Beautiful Lord, Wonderful savior
I know for sure all of my days are held in Your hands
Crafted into Your perfect plans

You gently called me into Your presence
Guiding me by Your Holy Spirit
Teach me dear Lord to live all of my life
Through Your eyes

I'm captured by Your holy calling
Set me apart. I know You're drawing me to Yourself
Lead me, Lord, I pray

Oh Take me, mold me, use me, fill me
I give my life to the Potter's hand

Oh Call me, guide me, lead me, walk beside me
I give my life to the Potter's hand

You gently call me into Your presence
Guiding me by Your holy spirit
Teach me dear Lord to live all of my life through Your eyes

I'm captured by Your holy calling
Set me apart.
I know You're drawing me to Yourself
Lead me, Lord. I pray

Oh Take me, mold me, use me, fill me
I give my life to the Potter's hand

Oh Call me, guide me, lead me, walk beside me
I give my life to the Potter's hand





My Redeemer Lives
I know he rescued my soul
His blood has covered my sin
I believe
I believe

My shame He's taken away
My pain is healed in His name
I believe
I believe

I'll raise a banner
'Cause my Lord has conquered the grave

My Redeemer Lives
My Redeemer Lives
My Redeemer Lives
My Redeemer Lives

I know He's rescued my soul
His blood has covered my sin
I believe
I believe

My shame He's taken away
My pain is healed in His Name
I believe
I believe

I'll raisen a banner
'Cause My Lord has conquered the grave

You Lift my burdens
I'll rise with You
I'm dancing on this mountain top to see Your kingdom come

My Redeemer Lives
My Redeemer Lives
My Redeemer Lives
My Redeemer Lives





God Is Great
All creation cries to you
Worshipping in Spirit and in truth
Glory to the faithful one Jesus Christ God's son

All Creation gives you praise
You alone are truly great
You alone are God who reigns for eternity

God is great and His praise fills the earth fills the heavens
And Your name will be praised through all the world
God is great sing his praise all the earth all the heavens
'Cause were living for the glory of Your name
The glory of Your name

All to you
Oh God we bring
Jesus teach us how to live
Let Your fire burn in us
That all may hear and all may see

Holy is the Lord
The whole earth sings
The whole earth sings





All Of My Days
Proclaim Your awesome power
Tell of mighty deeds
Declare Your future kingdom
Of everlasting peace

And my eyes they look unto You always
And I am captured by Your Majesty

All of my days
I will sing of Your greatness
All of my days
I will speak of Your grace
All of my days
I will tell of Your wonderous love
Your love in my life
Your love

All Your works will praise You
Your children bless Your name
We speak of all Your goodness
We walk in fields of grace





Everything That Has Breath
Praise Him in the sanctuary
Praise Him in the mighty Heavens
Praise Him
All the earth praise Him

Praise Him in His awesome power
Praise His great and holy name
Praise Him
The whole world praise Him

From the rising of the sun
Let His praise be heard
From the east to the west
And the north to south

Let everything that has breath
Praise the Lord forever
Let everything in my soul
Praise the Lord





Worthy Is The Lamb
Thank you for the cross Lord
Thank you for the price You paid
Bearing all my sin and shame
In love You came
And gave amazing grace

Thank you for this love Lord
Thank you for the nail pierced hands
Washed me in Your cleansing flow
Now all I know
Your forgiveness and embrace

Worthy is the Lamb
Seated on the throne
Crown You now with many crown
You reign victorious

High and lifted up
Jesus Son of God
The Darling of Heaven crucified
Worthy is the Lamb
Worthy is the Lamb





King Of Majesty
You know that,
I love You,
You know that,
I want to know You so much more,
More than I have before

These words are,
From my heart,
These words are,
Not made up,
I will live for You,
I am devoted to You

Pre-Chorus:
King of Majesty
I have one desire
Just to be with You my Lord,
Just to be with You my Lord

Chorus:
Jesus You are the Saviour of my soul
And forever and ever I'll give my praises to You,
Jesus You are the Saviour of my soul
And forever and ever I'll give my praises to You

Bridge:
Jesus You are the Saviour of my soul(echo)
And forever and ever I'll give my praises to You





All The Heavens
Holy holy are You Lord
The whole earth is filled with Your glory
Let the nations rise to give
Honour and praise to Your name
Let Your face shine on us
And the world will know You live
All the heavens shout Your praise
Beautiful is our God
The universe will sing
Hallelujah to You our King





All About You
Hear our praises,
Hear Your people sing
Hear our hearts cry,
Your love is everything

And all will hear this sound
As the nations turn to You
And this will be our anthem

Cause we're all about You
And the world You promised
And all we have will giveYyou praise
Cause we're all about You
And the world can't stop us
Living Your Way
Always

Let our hearts break,
As we praise Your name
Let the earth shake,
This is the sound of faith

And all will hear this sound
As the nations turn to You
And this will be our anthem

Cause we're all about You
And the world You promised
And all we have will give You praise
Cause we're all about You
And the world can't stop us
Living Your Way
Always

And the walls will fall down
And religion will break
And the nations will hear this shout
Can you hear the sound of faith?

Cause we're all about You
Cause we're all about You(4x)

Cause we're all about You
And the world You promised
And all we have will give You praise
Cause we're all about You
And the world can't stop us
Living Your Way
Always

Cause we're all about You
Cause we're all about You (4x)

And all the walls are falling down
As all the nations praise
And all the world will hear this shout
Can you hear the sound of faith?





Free
Verse 1:
Would you believe me if I said
That we are the ones who can make the change
In the world today

Would you believe me if I said
That all of your dreams in your heart
Can come true today
Would you believe me if I said
That life could be all that you want it to be today

Chorus:
And if I had wings I would fly
'Cause all that I need, You are
And if the world caved in around me
To You I'd still hold on
Cause You're all that I believe
And the One that created me
Jesus
Because of You
I'm free

Verse 2:
Would you believe me if I said
That God can make miracles happen today
Would you believe me if I said
That you don't need to wait for the answers before
You step out in faith
Would you believe me if I said
That nothing is ever impossible for God

Bridge:
Just live your life with God inside
You won't regret one moment of it
And give all that you can for God
For God





All
Verse 1:
You're the one who gives me shelter
And You're the light that leads me home
You're the love that gave forever
Lord you're all that I know

Chorus:
And all that I am
Unto you I surrender
Lord there is none like you
And I know that I stand
In the arms of forever
Lord there is none like you
There is none like you

Verse 2:
With the world upon your shoulders
Lord you gave your life away
If the world I know was over
I know I'd have life in the price You paid

Bridge:
And I will stand
And I will worship You forever
For all You are
And I will stand
And all to you I will surrender
I'll worship you forever





Glory
Verse 1:
Great is the Lord
God almighty
Great is the Lord on high
The train of His robe
Fills the temple
And we cry out
Highest praise

Pre-Chorus:
Glory to the risen King
Glory to the Son
Glorious Son

Chorus:
Lift up your heads
Open the doors
Let the King
Of glory come in
And forever be our God

Verse 2:
Holy is the Lord
God almighty
Holy is the Lord on high
Let all the earth
Bow before You
And crown You Lord of all





My God
Your faithful love
Has always been there for me
The greatest love
That I have ever known
What can I give to You
For all You’ve given to me
You gave it all
And You are all I need

Pre-Chorus:
You are my king, You are my God
The praises I bring
Come from my heart

Chorus:
This is for You
For all You’ve done for me
And I wanted to show You
How much You mean
My God, my God





im so tired alrdy..
wanna watch tv liao..
more songs cuming up tml.. hahahahah..
tatas~~

i cant blif tt i actually toked baq to him..


im shocked at my own behaviour..



even jiali was shocked too..















I Guess Even God Has Temper!!

im trying to break off all ties wid these 3 men nw..

1) MR TOH!!!
2) tt disgusting idiot..
3) the J guy..



they totally disgust me..
erkssss.......
they gimme not gd.. but bad memories..


"And I'm Trying To Let You Know..
THAT I'M BETA OFF ON MY OWN.."


there's one more guy..
i dunno wad to do abt him..
he tot tt i purposely dun wan to let him umm..
i dunno wad to say..


wad he dunno is tt..







i miss the time when we went esplanade..



i miss the time we chat everynight..



i miss the time he hugged me..
(although i struggled off)



i miss the time he sent me home..



i miss the time we tok under the blk..



i miss all the time i spent wid him..














Motivate Me!!

freaking mr toh..
he called my mummy and ask her to get me baq to tuition..
arent u the one hu said ok when i say i dun wan??
fuck u lar..


jus him alone..
my whole mood is spoiled..
hell to ya..!!!

i tink tt im going crazieee...
really crazieee..
lol..


learnt 2 new songs frm amanda..
my very very healthy girl..
my fit n fit club chairman!
this songs are so darn lame..
but nvtheless.. we sang it during recess..
n alot of pple were looking at us..
cuz the songs came wid actions.. haha..


Titanic Song
---------------
There was a ship Titanic that sailed the ocean blue
The ship was so big, no water could go through
But the Lord almighty hand said the ship would never land
It was sad when the big ship went down

Oh it was sad oh it was sad
It was sad when the big ship went down... to the bottom of the...
Husband n wives n the children lost their lives
It was sad when the big ship went down


Ping Pong Song
-------------------
Ping pong ball ping pong ball
Hanging on the wall,
One big big, one small small,
Hanging on the wall.

Small one twenty cents,
Big one fifty cents,
If u want the big-big one,
Also fifty cents.Hey! (repeat)


dun ask me y we r singing tt..
cuz we are simply too bored wid the same old boring food in Tanglin Secondary School..
pls.. change it..


then during basics..
ooh-hoo.. we were so horny..
me n sr were to act as a couple..
then i keep making sr horny..
even though he deny..
but all of us saw him erecting..
lolololol..


then we went to yuting's house..
there.. hmm..
lemme just use one simple sentence to sum it all up..



I RAPED SOMEONE IN HER HOUSE!!!


wun eleborate much on it..
the person dun wan me to say anything..


this cuming tuesday..
hope can go out wid amanda to bugis..
n yuting n yi xuan too..
we r the jian kang ju le bu pple..
im the vice-chair.. duhz..


lol..



















Somebody Slap Me Please..

biggest news:
amanda's gonna gimme a valentine present..


wheeee~~~
amanda: everyone saw tt nw..
hafta keep ya promise hoh!!! lol


today was not a gd day in dance..
we got news tt all the sec 1s will be transferred to contempt dance..
n both dance grps are combined as one..
tt's obviously leaving us to no choice..
but to give in to them..
so they chose me..
to write the petition on behalf of TDE..
imma bigshot.. lol..
we ended up playing games the whole day to liven up moods..



today sumone jus totally pissed me off..
i've been tolerating tt person for so long..
i dun tink tt person really noe wad luv mins..
i tink tt person to reconsider his or her feelings n see whether is it true or not..
pple haf the rights to choose for gdness sake..



im so scared of a guy call umm..
lemme recall his name..
ummm... zachary... is it?
arh.. wadever..
he's so sick!!!
during dance today..
he came into the hall n shouted "Hello.. Seow Hui.."
i ignored him.. so embarassing..
then while we were dancing..
he suddenly shout "Seow Hui Rocks!"
n i was lyk "oh my god!!!"
then the whole time he was calling my name in this stupid parrot voice..
i dunno how he noe me..
both christina n pat did not tell him abt me..
but how he noe my name?? weird..
but one thing tt's gd is tt..




i got to touch his 6-packs..
n i saw underwears (isaac n zachary were pulling each other's shorts down..)

Counting down:









13 more days to Valentine's Day..













Will I ever get a date this year?















Or will it be another lonely Valentine for me??


















-wondering-

today is not a very gd day..
im very sure abt tt..
i seen so many pple cry today..
n i almost cried too..
but i controlled..


i feel so sorry for amanda..
although im lyk sitting on the fence..

cuz..

firstly.. im not a witness.. so i cant say anything..

secondly.. God teach me to LOVE MY ENEMIES..


cuz she has lost frens whom she really trust in..
but nvm.. amanda baby..



U'VE GOT ME!!!!!


i jus felt amused by sum funny woman hu came up to her n call her "backstabber"..
hello.. wad did she ever do??
y r u always trying to get involve in things tt is lyk..
so NONE of your business??
n it;s so lyk funny..
cuz it's not the first time u ever get involved in smth tt u dun even noe wad happened..


wadever!!!


during sch..
i suddenly felt a sense of loneliness..
tt feeling was so strong tt i let it overcome me..
i just suddenly felt tt nobody ever cares abt me..
no matter how much i tried to be nice to them..
so i ignored all my frens when they call me..
n i felt so guilty.. hmm..



SORRY....


i got sadden by smth tt happened today..
i gave pat's belated burfday prezzie to her..
which was a soft queen cushion..
n she tot tt i gave her bcuz i tink tt she will offer to gimme baq cuz it's smth tt i lyk..
i was lyk wtf...
although i nv express it to her..
i was still saddened by it..
i meant to make her rmb me everytime she sees me.. hmmmmm..



then i went wid jiali to find mr toh..
he was so darn straight..
scolding jiali right in front of my face..
i was a lil pissed off..
aft tt he asked me if i wanna continue tuition..
n i told him "NO"..

firstly.. our schedule is always crashing..
none of us wans to accomodate each other..

secondly.. i dun wan to pay money to see attitude..

thirdly.. he make me feel lyk tuition is a burden..



jiali cried..
i min hu wldnt..
aft being scolded by sumone ryt in front of ur fren's face..


i jus went to see my grandson's blog..
realised tt he hit pple out of anger..
n i felt kinda sad cuz he promised me tt he wld not hurt anymore things or pple..
but i tink he's not in a gd mood these few days..
jus hope tt he will cheer up soon..


see wad i meant by today's not a gd day??
sumtimes i jus wish tt my life wld be easier..
following a routine mite be boring sumtimes..
but on other occasions.. it seems lyk a better option............