i cant blif it.. i just did smth so foolish..
i tried to cut my wrist..
ok.. i noe it's lyk so absurd.. cuz im usually the one hu say suicidal pple r foolish.. but i nv expect myself to do it too.. guess the oozing of blood is painful enuff to cover up all the inner pain tt u feel inside.. maybe i will learn not to be so judgemental anymore.. i tried to sink my nails into my veins.. n i long to see blood coming out.. but it just wun.. nw my wrist is so swollen n red.. but i feel so numb..
i got a scolding frm my parents.. tt drove me really mad.. nw i feel as though im not motivated anymore.. nth interest me anymore.. sick n tired of this world too..
is it true abt wad yuting n amanda said? tt depression is hereditary?? then i guess i must have got it frm my father.. dun ask me wad happened.. cuz i dunno it myself.. its lyk there's a stranger living inside of me.. someone whom i dun really noe.. n it's controlling me.. my emotions n my actions..
i wish tt i cld cry..
fall upon my knees..
find a way to lie..
abt a home i'll nv see..
it may sound absurd..
but dun be naive..
even heroes haf the right to bleed..
i may be disturbed..
but once u can see..
even heroes haf the right to dream..
n it's not easy..
to be me.....
is it really so hard to forget somebody..???
